The Perfect Guy

She finished packing and said her good byes.
Bubba kissed her cheek "call me when you get home" he said with a smile "and no sleeping this time until its done" he laughed as he wagged his finger
"ok I promise for real this time" she said holding up her hand "but you have to promise to take care of him for me" she said in a low tone so just the two of them could hear
"I don't come cheap" he said still laughing "so he will be fine" he finished with a noisy kiss on her cheek.
Jordan was silent the entire ride to the airport which worried her. She could tell that he wanted to talk to her about something but she just didn't know what it was. Chad had mentioned to her last night about the promotions thing and she was so excited about it that she could die but due to last's nights alcohol and the morning's activities she had completely forgot to mention it to him. When they stopped to get out at the air port he paused and she was sure that he was going to say something but then changed his mind. This can't be good at all she thought as they checked her luggage in at the desk. He had no problem telling her good stuff so she figured that he didn't want to continue what they had because she had reminded him that she was just a fan by all of that site talk she had done this morning. Damn why do you have to be such a fan, she mentally punished herself as they waited in line for security. Finally getting through he put his hands into the pockets of his jacket as they walked across the airline terminal.
"You know, I will have to admit that I am going to miss you" he said looking down at the polished floor as they walked.
She smiled inspite of herself "I think I will probably miss you too" she said not wanting to look at him.
"Probably? I show you a good time this weekend and you are probably going to miss me?" he said with a playful nudge of her arm.
"Ok so you know I will miss you and the guys" she said with a girlie grin, why did her flirting with him still make her so uncomfortable.
"The guys? Oh I see now I am just one of pack of guys that you enjoy hanging out with" he said defensively but with a playful tone to his voice.
"Jordan just stop it" she said with a push at his arm as she laughed.
He pretended to be almost knocked over then he stopped to turn to her.
"Kristy listen" he began after a deep sigh
She noticed the change in the air around them as she turned to face him. That combined with the look on his face threatened to unsteady her. What in the hell was he going to say? She wasn't sure and she didn't want to find out so she decided to interupt him.
"Wait Jordan, I think we need to talk" She said quickly
"Talk?" Jordan said in confusion, he thought that was what he was about to do.
"yeah we need to talk about us" she said heading for the nearest bank of chairs. If he was going to give her the we are just friends and nothing more speech then she was going to do it first.
"Us?" Jordan sat down uneasily
This was going to be a great conversation if he kept using those one word answers. Why did she always feel just like a little girl when she tried to talk to him. He made her so nervous.
"Ok so talk" Jordan said to her silence
"I talked to Chad last night about the whole promotions thing and I think that if..." she began not looking at him and giving her usual nervous hand gestures.
"Wait a minute" Jordan said throwing up his hand "Chad asked you to do promotions for me?" he said pointing to himself in complete confusion.
She was taken back by his apparent lack of knowledge. Would Chad just ask her to do something without checking with Jordan first, or was she not supposed to mention it to him? Well she figured the damage was done so she might as well press on.
"Yeah he asked me last night if I would consider doing promotions for you guys and helping out at the shows to free him up" she said leaning back "didn't you know about this?" she asked worriedly
"Oh yeah I knew" Jordan said recovering "I just didn't think he would ask you with out me or at least letting me know" he finished with a frown.
"Oh well, I am sorry for springing this on you then I just thought we needed to talk about boundries" she said beginning to sound business like. She was glad just to have a reason to see and talk to him that didn't involve the even further distruction of her marriage.
"Boundries?" Jordan said even more lost than before. Was she giving him the brush off? he wasn't quite sure.
"yes, boundries. If I am going to you know kind of work for you guys then I think it would be best that if we didn't do" she paused to carefully choose her words "what we did this weekend and the last times we have been together" she finished quickly with a tenative look at him.
All the air seemed to leave the space around his head. She was breaking up with him before he had even had a chance to tell her anything. What in the hell went wrong. He had thought that she felt the same way about him but boy was he fooled. He didn't know what to say, didn't know how to act so he decided just to make a joke of it as to not show how much he was hurting.
"Oh so I guess we aren't falling in love then" he said with a hollow laugh and hoped it was convincing, because that was sure as hell was he thought they were doing
The fact that he could make light of what they had together up until now told her that she had been right to do this. She knew that their relationship was just a convience to him. A certified booty call in a sense and she was glad to have the opportunity to see how he really felt with out totally throwing away her entire life away for him, because up until he made a joke about it, she actually thought that she was falling in love with him.
She laughed and touched his arm "I guess not" she patted his hand playfully "so you will just have to promise me that you will try to resist me from now on" she said in an exaggerated tone
"Your right I guess I should" he said not really believing what he was hearing, now it was a joke between them, what the fuck was going on "you know with all the sexual harrassment suits going on these days" he said to his lap with a small fake laugh.
Her laugh sounded empty and meaningless which almost frightened her. She couldn't believe that their relationship had now become a joke. Better to know late than never she told herself as she looked around uncomfortably, what were they going to say now.
"so when do you start your new job" Jordan said curiously
"Well you guys have a break with the shows until later in January but Chad wanted to get together before then so I can kind of know the routine and what you wanted me to do" she said with a shrug
"yeah well you do need time to actually promote the show" Jordan said with a vacant laugh
"Yeah I guess I do" she looked around nervously "so I guess you or Chad will call me about it then" she said not actually believing that she would ever hear from them again.
"Yeah I told you I wanted to see you over the holidays remember?" he said touching her arm
She was so damn confused. what did he want exactly? first they were a joke and now he wanted to see her again. What did he want from her. Oh the booty call, she reminded herself, well she wasn't going to play that game.
"ok yeah sure, if I get a chance I will try" she said coldly as to convey that message.
"Kristy what is" Jordan began but broke off as the boarding call for her flight echoed over the loud speaker.
"well that is my cue for exit" she said with a smile to cover her absolute frustration. She really didn't want to hear his lame excuse for everything at this point. She had to be the worlds biggest idiot to believe that he actually saw something more than an easy lay in her.
"Kristy I am not finished talking" he said heatedly as she stood up
"Jordan there is nothing else to say" she paused to look him in the face "Just call me when you get a chance" she said as she turned to leave
He just couldn't leave it at this. He could have her walk away from him in a huff. He reached up, grabbed her arm and spun her around to look at him.
"Listen to me please" he pleaded with his eyes "Just let me say my piece and then you can go ok" he said with his arms out
"Ok, go on" she said in a combative stance.
He visably stepped back at her hostile posture, why was she getting so mad? This girl was going to make him loose his mind.
"I don't know why you are so mad at me but we don't have time to go into that right now" he said throwing up a hand as she started to speak "I just wanted to tell you that I am sorry about the shower thing this morning, I shouldn't have done that. All that does is complicate things between us and I don't want you thinking that you are my booty call for the tour" he paused and registerd the shock in her face. He couldn't tell if it was due to the fact that he had answered her question about them or if he had posed something she hadn't thought of yet. He pressed on "I do want to see you again because I like hanging out with you, I feel relaxed and can talk to you, I understand because of the situation if you want to keep this strickly business but I consider you one of my friends and I can only hope that my being stupid hasn't affected our possible friendship" he finished with a sigh
She just stood looking at him for a moment longer. The look on her face was so complicated that he didn't know if she was relieved, mad or hurt.
"Thanks for clarifying things for me, that helps" she said with a hand on his arm "You can call me when ever you want and yes I would love to hang out with you again" she said raising up to kiss his cheek "Thanks for the good time this weekend and have a great holiday" she said as the final bording call was made.
"Be safe and call me when you land" Jordan called as she walked off
She stopped, turned to him, and gave him the most beautiful smile he had seen yet. He felt his insides tighten and his heart shudder.
"I promise I will this time, be good" she said with a wave and a blown kiss
"Kristy!" he yelled after her
"What?" she said turing around laughing
"You still have the most beautiful dimples I have ever seen you know" he called out to her with a smirk
"Boundries" she called back as she turned to run to the gate.
When she had entered the boarding gate he walked over to the windows to look at the plane. After it had detached and began backing out he sat down and watched it taxi off down to the runway. He hung his head in his hands. He couldn't quite deal with the since of loss he was now feeling. He hadn't wanted to say that to her. How did it get so messed up? He had tried to tell her all weekend how he felt but it just kept getting messed up. He guessed that she didn't feel the same way or she would have said something right? and she was the one to bring up the whole boundries thing in the first place wasn't she. He let out a frustrated sigh as he threw his head back to look up at the ceiling. Damn love was a complicated thing. He was just glad that Chad had given him the excuse to see and talk to her all the time now. He could be her friend and just do his best to keep what he felt bottled up inside of him until the moment was right, if it ever came. She was on her way back to her husband and her life and he had to go back to his wife and family. For the first time in his life he was dreading a break from the tour. He sighed again as he pushed out of the seat. Shaking his head he made his way back to the parking lot. When he got into the SUV he paused as the scent of her still filled the car. He layed his head back on the head rest and closed his eyes as his mind flashed through the mornings events. How in the hell had they gone from sex in the shower to just being friends. He shook his head as he wondered how he was going to keep his distance when all he wanted to do was just hold her and hear her laugh. The memory of her laugh sparked a remembrance of last night,and he hastily flipped through his CD's and pulled out his first album. When he put it in and it started he couldn't help but cringe at the music and the sounds of their young high voices. He sat there and laughed as he skipped through the songs. When he found the one she was singing last night he smiled. She was just too funny he said to himself as he pulled out into traffic.