A Secret Between Us

Chapter Ten: Going Mad


Mimi’s POV

“GET OUT!” I didn’t realize I was screaming until I felt the tears rolling down my cheeks. “Get out, Roger! I’m fucking sick of you and this bullshit I have to go through because you’re insecure about yourself!” I was beating my fists against his chest, I wanted him out, out of my life and away from Mark. Without him we could finally be together and out of the hell hole we were in now.

“You little bitch!” He shouted back at me his hand came up closing his fist at the last minute it came across my face,

I fell back crashing against the night stand next to our bed. My head spun, I felt like I was going to throw up. “Get away from me!” My voice broke I was crying so hard. “You are just like Benny! I hate you!” I was shocked to hear myself comparing him to Benny, but in truth, Roger was like Benny in some ways. He used to hit me all the time and for a second.....I felt like I did all those years I was with him. Mark....please...come help.

He stared at me with what looked like pain in his eyes.

“GET OUT!” I screamed again.

He ran out. Huge angry steps up the stairs. He was going to see Mark.

I climbed up off the floor and lay down on the bed. I deserve all of this..... I thought staring up at the ceiling. I’m hurting everyone around me..... It was living at home with Mama and Dad all over again only this time I couldn’t run away. Closing my eyes I thought about April. She took the easy out. Out of this shit hole and into oblivion.

I don’t know how long I lay there but I must have fallen asleep because the phone woke me up. It was loud and my head hurt like hell when I got up to answer it.

“Hello?”

“Hey, Mimi-chica!”

Despite a bad I felt I couldn’t hold back the smile, “Hey....”

“Collins has some business thing tonight I was wondering if you’re not too busy with work ot something would you want to stay the night with me, for real?”

I nodded, as if she could actually see me, “I’d love to.” I sniffled, “It’ll be another Girl’s Night. We haven’t h-had a real one of those in a while.” I clutched the phone angry at myself for letting my voice break. Hearing Angel’s happy voice made me want to cry I wanted to be happy like her I wanted to be real like her.

“Mimi-chica what’s wrong you sound upset?”

Wiping my eyes I told her it was nothing. “I just woke up, weird dreams that’s all.” Another lie? “What did you have in mind?”

“We could hang out at my place or go dancing? Anything you want?”

I wanted to be with Mark.

“We could invite Mark over.....”

I jumped at her suggestion. Had I said that out loud? “But Angel.....I thought it would be just us.....w-we never do things together anymore.” I felt fresh tears in my eyes, “Y-You’re always lying for me so I can see him I want to spend time with you for once I-I’m so sorry about all of this mess.” I was crying then, I’m surprised Angel could even understand me.

“Oh honey, you know I love helping my friends. Mark can come over if he wants....will you tell me what’s wrong when you get here? Is it Roger?”

“You know it’s Roger!” I hadn’t meant to yell. “He hit me.”

Long pause on the line.

“Angel?”

“I’m here, Mimi.”

I gasped. She never just calls me Mimi..... “He didn’t do anything. Angel, I’m fine. Please don’t say anything to Mark or Collins or anyone. Just....let me take a shower and I’ll be over.”

I heard her sigh, “Alright. And Mimi?”

“Yea?”

“I love you.”

I felt my heart sink, “I love you too, Angel.”