Freak

Narrator’s POV.

To have the ‘sex talk’ with your 21-year old son, I think everyone can agree on, is bound to be awkward. Donna Way didn’t want to, but it was necessary. When Mikey was 15 she had tried to talk to him about it, but she didn’t get further then “So Michael, you’re now 15 yea-” before Mikey cut her off by slamming his hands over hid ears and shouting “They talk to us in school about it, I know everything, don’t say another word!”

Donna had gladly left the room without another word on the matter.

Mikey had, one year later, come to Donna to tell her that he was no longer a virgin. Donna felt honoured that he youngest son opened up to her like that. Because Gerard always had to be the main focus for both Mikey and Donna, they had little time to bond properly.

But that day they sat down with a cup of tea each and bonded as Mikey told his mother everything about his girlfriend Angela. Of course that relationship had ended just like Mikey’s all other relationships when Angela realised she would always come second to Gerard in Mikey’s life.

It made Donna sad, that Mikey missed out on so many things because of how their lives looked. He missed his prom, since Donna had to work and that meant Mikey had to look after Gerard. Mikey lost friends, girlfriends and jobs because of… But Donna never let herself finish that strain of thoughts with ‘because of Gerard’. Simply because it wasn’t fair. It wasn’t Gerard’s fault, and there was nothing they could do about it. Gerard was who he was, and that was that. Donna loved him unconditionally.

But now that Gerard had Frank, maybe Mikey could finally have his own life and be happy. Donna sure hoped so.


Donna had been standing outside of Gerard’s room for nearly an hour, trying to pluck up the courage to enter and talk to him. Mikey and Frank had gone to the movies and Gerard had stayed home to give the two best friends some time alone. Donna had watched with a silent squeal how Frank had kissed Gerard goodbye. It was still so new to her, to see her oldest son so normal. Of course she knew that Gerard would never be like everyone else, but being in a relationship with Frank was helping him a lot.

Finally she lifted her hand up and knocked on her oldest son’s door. She heard some shuffling around, and the ruffling of paper. It was clear that Gerard had been drawing. He opened the door and his frown turned into a smile when he saw his mother standing outside his door. He opened up and motioned for her to step in, which she did. Even his room looked different, as all his action figures had been removed and instead there were picture frames arranged by size. Most of them were off Gerard and Mikey, or the whole family trio, but a few of them were pictures of Frank. Some that Frank had given to Gerard when they celebrated one week as boyfriends, and two rare pictures of Frank and Gerard from one of those photo booths. The other two were in Frank’s wallet.

“So Gerard, there’s something I want to talk to you about.” Donna said as her heart started beating faster. She could feel her face flush. She had somewhat thought that she might have to do this, but she never thought she’d have to touch the area of ‘gay’ sex. Safe to say, she was incredibly embarrassed. She asked Gerard to sit down on his bed, and then she followed him and sat down next to him.

“Yes?” He questioned after she had been sitting there quietly for about five minutes. There was something in the way that she acted that made Gerard very nervous. He thought that maybe she had changed her mind about Frank, that she might ask him to end things with him. Gerard’s lower lip started to shiver, as he thought that he could never end things with Frank.

“I don’t know how to say it, so I’ll just say it straight out, I need to talk to you about sex. About sex with Frank.” She said, extremely red in the face. She had done some research on the internet, so she now knew everything about ‘stretching’ and lubrication. Something she had never thought in her wildest dreams that she would need to know about.

Gerard’s lip stopped quivering as he took in what his mother had just said. She didn’t want him to break up with Frank, she wanted to talk to him about sex with Frank. Gerard shook his head slowly, still not comprehending what it was all about. Gerard knew what sex was; he knew it hurt, and he also knew that Frank would never have sex with him until he felt he was ready. Frank hadn’t even kissed Gerard with his tongue, like Cameron had. He couldn’t understand why she was worrying so much about it.

“I’m not having sex with Frank.” He said, and watched his mother get even more red. He couldn’t understand that it was supposed to be embarrassing, and his way of just saying things straight out made his mother feel even more stupid.

“I know, but when you and Frank decide to have sex, there’s a few things you need to know.” Donna said and fiddled with her hands in her lap. If wishes could come true, then a big black monster would emerge from Gerard’s closet and eat her.

“But he’ll teach me.” Gerard said bluntly. If possible his mother had turned into another even darker shade of red. Never before had Donna managed to look so much like a tomato without trying. But to Gerard it was so obvious. To him there was no doubt that Frank would teach him.

Frank had taught Gerard how to kiss, how to trust, and even how to tie his own shoelaces. To Gerard, there was no doubt that Frank would teach him to make love as well. Yes that was what Frank had told him to call it.

“Gerard, when two people love each other very much, they make love.” Frank had said to Gerard. Gerard loved it. He loved the way it sounded in his head. So much more romantic then sex. Sex was something that hurt, something uncomfortable, something that made you feel dirty. But maybe, making love could be something sweet, something beautiful, something he could enjoy. Gerard hoped very much that it was so.

Finally Donna gave up, she knew Gerard was right. Frank had taught her oldest son so much, there was no doubt in her mind that Frank would teach Gerard about sex as well. She gave Gerard a smile and reached out to touch his cheek.

“I know he will honey,” she began, “just don’t do anything until you’re ready for it.” And with that she kissed his forehead and stood up.

“I love you mum.” Gerard said when she opened the door to leave.

“I love you too Gerard, always.” She replied before disappearing out his door.


When Frank and Mikey returned from the movies, they were greeted by a smiling Gerard as soon as they walked through the door. Frank’s own lips turned up into a wide smile when he saw his boyfriend.

“I missed you.” He said, taking one of Gerard’s hands in his.

“You need to kiss me before we can talk.” Gerard frowned and Frank let out a giggle before doing as asked. He pressed his lips firmly against Gerard’s and the latter let out a content sigh as he wrapped his arms against the shorter boy’s neck. Frank couldn’t help but smile into the kiss as they moved their lips against each other. In Frank’s head, there couldn’t be anything more magical then kissing Gerard, and he had no thoughts about sex, ever.