I Won't See You Tonight

--Matt--

Six months and it all led to this moment, freedom.

I stood just outside the gates of the penitentiary as she stepped out of her silver car, walking over to me. She paused a few feet away and we greeted each other with silence. I finally broke it. “Hey,” I said softly.

“Hi,” she replied in an almost in auditable tone. She stood there for a moment, looking at her shoes before quickly wrapping he arms around me unexpectedly. I was stunned for a moment before wrapping my arms around her small figure. “I missed you,” she said softly.

I kissed her forehead, “I missed you too, Bree…”

More than anything…

We then walked silently to the silver sedan before climbing in, her behind the wheel. She’d been staying at my apartment for the last few months while I served my bullshit sentence.

For her, it was worth it...

But now that I was out, she was going to be living on her own. She was really introverted now, she didn’t really like to be near other people…

“I wrote some new lyrics,” I said suddenly as she parked the car in the lot of my building a half hour later.

“Really?” she asked. “Can I see them?”

I nodded. I had had the lyrics stuck in my head the day she went into the hospital after trying to kill herself, but I hadn’t finished it until a few days ago.

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry
These streets we travel on will undergo our same lost past

I found you here, now please just stay for a while
I can move on with you around
I hand you my mortal life, but will it be forever?
I'd do anything for a smile, holding you 'til our time is done
We both know the day will come, but I don't want to leave you

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry (a melody, a memory, or just one picture)

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

Newborn life replacing all of us, changing this fable we live in
No longer needed here so where do we go?
Will you take a journey tonight, follow me past the walls of death?
But girl, what if there is no eternal life?

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry (a melody, a memory, or just one picture)

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

Trails in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real

So, what if I never hold you, yeah, or kiss your lips again?
So I never want to leave you and the memories for us to see
I beg don't leave me

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

Trails in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real

Silence you lost me, no chance for one more day I stand here alone
Falling away from you, no chance to get back home.

She looked up from the lyrics and smiled before hugging me and kissing my cheek, “They’re amazing.”

“Thanks.”