He Steals the Image In Her Kiss

"I've finally kicked the habit to the curb!" Mike said like a little kid showing a new trick to his mom. He seemed so proud of himself so I had to believe him. "I'm really happy for you, er, us." I said while trying to hide the fear and doubts.
"You wanna celebrate?"
"How??"
"You know.." He stated that as his hands worked their way from my back to my ass. I pushed him off. "No, you, I mean you did..that...with..you know..others and I dunno. I mean if its safe and now its not so sacred and loving. Its just a quick fix for you till you can or could get someone better. Is that all it ever was?? A quick fix?"
"Of course not babe! I loved it with you. It meant and means everything." He had called me babe and then all of a sudden all my thoughts jumped to Billie Joe."I have to go." I whispered as I began running off. I had to talk to Billie to hopefully get him to help me fall out of love. I couldn't take it anymore.

I rang Billie's doorbell. He answered the door in nothing but his boxers and a muscle shirt. I melted when I saw him wearing that. "Gwen! Hey!" His eyes lit up when he said that. I loved his eyes. "Do you wanna come in or.."
"Yeah, sorry I just kinda zoned out there." I laughed a fake laugh and walked in. "So why did you come over?"
"I...nothing. I just came to hang out." I put my head down. "Well, thats fine and dandy with me! Watcha wanna do? I've got a new video game its an awesome car racing one. It kicks such major ass!" He was so innocent. He couldn't even tell that I was in absolotley wonderful, god awful, sweet, horrible, love.
"Do you wanna play the game?"
"Sure."
"Ok lemme go put it on."
"Wait!!"
"What's up, babe?? Do you not want to play it or something?"
"We need to talk."
"Sure, whatever you want."

Billie sat next to me. It was so awkward and uncomfortable. " I fell..do you remember the night that I called you to see where Mike was?" I swallowed hard after I said that. I didn't want to get to the next part. " How could I forget?" he said calmly.
"The way you acted and all made me fall for you." I couldn't look him in the eye. I felt like running away and never looking back. I felt a kiss on the top of my head and I looked up. Billie Joe had tears in his eyes. I couldn't remember any time before then that I actually saw him cry. his eyes became like crystals and sparkled when he cried.
"You should go back to Mike."
"I need your help though."
"What can I do?"
"Help me fall out of love."
"With me??"
"Yeah..." The tears were falling consistently now and I felt horrible.
"I proboally shouldn't be asking this but why are you so upset?"
"I don't know..I mean I love you Gwen. I loved you even when I was with Adrienne. I would of never acted on it even if you loved me then but I couldn't help it. I can't make you fall out of love but I know you can't love me." He was sobbing while he said that. I pulled my cell phone out of my purse and called Mike. It rang four times and then someone answered. It was a girl.

"Who is this?" I said defensively.
"Deb. Who is this." she said just as defensively. I hung up the phone and ran off to the bathroom. I was in fetal position next to the toilet and crying my heart out. I heard a faint knock at the door followed by a soft "Gweny? Babe? You alright? Can I come in?"
"No!!"
"At least tell me what happened."
"A girl answered."
"That doesn't mean their doing anything!"
"It was Deb!!!" I screamed at the top of my lungs.
"Sorry about all of this. Please just let me in. Let me hold you please. I hate seeing you so upset. It kills me." I could hear the pain in his voice. I opened the door and walked back over to the toilet and sat on it. Billie sat at the edge of the tub.
"Why does Mike have to be such an ass?" I asked quietly
"All I know is that if I had you I'd treat you like a goddess. Like you deserve to be treated. I'm not trying to get you to leave Mike or even be with me or anything."
"I know. I thought you were gonna hold me." I said with a smile.
"Well come over here and I will." I went over to the edge of the tub and sat next to him. He wrapped his arms around my waist and smiled the biggest smile I've ever seen.

I felt such comfort being in his arms. I felt safe and like I was home. Then my cell phone rang. it was still in the other room and I knew who it was. Billie kissed my cheek and stood up. "Where are you going?" I asked him. "To answer your phone." he responded. He knew it was Mike too. I could hear screaming. Billie was telling him off and putting him in his place. I walked into his living room and I could then hear Mike's responses to Billie's insults. "Fuck her, please! That'll get her off my case." Billie made a crazy, serial killer face when Mike said that. Billie was a laid back guy. He didn't get angry often but he did that time. I grabbed the phone and hung it up. I put my hands on Billie's cheeks. My lips began burning as I leaned in for a kiss. He kissed me back. Billie was good to me. He tried to get me to love myself but Mike made me hate myself. "Why am I still with Mike?" I asked as our kiss ended. "I don't know." I grabbed my phone and called Mike.

"Hello?" Mike sounded pissed.
"It's Gwen."
"Oh, I'm sorry about everything!"
"Shut-up."
"I guess I hadn't changed."
"You think so??"
"Look, I know what I did wrong. We need to spend more time together. I love you and need you please!" I looked up at Billie and mouthed "I'm sorry" to him. He just put his head down knowing what was happening. I was giving into Mike just because we had a history."Fine" I said to Mike "but you better change this time..this is your last chance." Why was I so weak? I didn't want to hurt Billie Joe but I did. I was stupid and couldn't see the future. Maybe I just didn't want to see it.