Sad but True

A/N: I want to tell you guys:
*emphasis*
/thoughts/
~~~dreams~~~

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Benji woke up, and headed to the kitchen for some cereal. When he passed through the living room, he saw Joel

sitting on the couch. He decided that he would eat first and then try to talk to Joel. Grabbing a bowl and a box

of Count Chocula, he went back into the living room. He had to talk to Joel now.

"Hey, Joel. Have a nice night?" he asked, but Joel just ignored him. Sighing, he realized that he wasn't as


hungry as he thought. He got up and put the cereal and bowl away. /What do I say to him? Is he still mad? Should

I apologize, and if I do, will he listen to me?/ Grabbing a soda he went back into the living room.

“Joel, I’m sorry about what I said. It wasn’t true. Do you forgive me?” he had been looking at the floor when he

said this, but then turned his head to look at Joel. Joel ignored him again, but Benji just looked at his

brother. Those long lashes, soft lips. It made his heart jump. To think that the love of his life was so close,

and yet he would never be able to tell him. At that thought he began to cry and got up to leave the room.

“Hey, Benj, you okay? I didn’t mean to make you cry by ignoring you. I just wanted you to beg for forgiveness.

I forgive you, okay? Please don’t cry,” Joel was standing up, now and was holding Benji’s shoulders with his

hands. Pulling his brother into a hug, Joel started to hum a little melody, hoping that his brother would stop

crying and tell him what was wrong, what had been wrong for a while now.

“Joel, I’m sorry that I said it. Please, I’m just so stupid sometimes,” Benji had finally stopped crying and had

decided to tell his brother at least *part* of what was wrong. “Joel, I just was scared that you’d hate me if I

told you what was wrong. I don’t want you to hate me.”

Pulling away from his brother, Joel met Benji’s gaze. “Benji, I could *never* hate you. You’re my brother, just

tell me what’s wrong and I’ll try to help you if you need it. C’mon, you can tell me anything!”

Benji laughed, /Not anything/. Nodding his head, he opened his mouth, but now words came out. Then: “I’m gay.

I…..*met* this guy, and….I really like him, but…..” he trailed off. Joel smiled. “But he’s straight, right?

Yeah, figures. As if our lives weren’t enough like a soap opera, you just *had* to go and like the straight

men!” He laughed and was glad when Benji started laughing, too.

"Yeah, he's straight. God, I wannna tell him so bad, too! God, I don't know what I'd do if he hated me, though.

I don't think I'd be able to take it." Joel frowned at what Benji could do if this guy didn't like him. /God,

that makes me just want to find that guy and rip him to shreds. How could anyone not like Benj? He's smart,

funny, handsome....looks good in his boxers...Oh my god! I'm in love with my own fucking brother!/ Moving

towards the door and grabbing his coat, he told Benji to get dressed. They had to be at the studio in fifteen

minutes and he was *not* going to be late.

As they arrived at the studio, Joel said,"You know, since our lives are soap operas, that means that this guy is

going to finally realize how much he loves you and then you're gonna get pregnant! So, what are you gonna name

the kid?" He laughed as Benji tried to glare at him, and that got Benji laughing too. Just seeing him laugh made

Joel hard, and he decided to challenge Benji to a race to give himself time to calm down. /He'll run, I'll walk.

My hard-on will be gone by the time I catch up./ Smiling at this, he watched Benji run down the hall to the

recording booth.


When Joel finally got there, they had started recording and he had no time to think for the rest of the day.

As they got home, Benji headed to his room. It had been one of the best days of his life. As he got in the

shower, he thought back on the day. He hadn't felt like a pervert at all today, and it made him glad to know

that Joel was okay with at least *part* of his secret. Maybe he *could* tell Joel how he really felt, but not

now. He wasn't ready for that yet, but knowing that the day would come when he could finally tell his brother

how he felt gave him a little bit of hope. Putting he boxers on as he got out, he fell straight onto the bed an

fell asleep instantly. Then came the dreams.

Joel had headed to his room, too. Instead of taking a shower, though, he thought about how he felt about Benji.

/I couldn't even get close to him without getting hard! What am I gonna do?/ As he heard Benji get out of the

shower, he laughed as he heard Benji hit the mattress. Smiling, he headed to Benji's room, and opened the door.

When he walked in, he saw that his brother was already fast asleep. Quietly walking over to his brother, he

kissed the top of Benji's head. Pulling away, he felt the softness of Benji's lips with his thumb. Turning

around, he headed back to the door. Benji made a soft moan in his sleep, and Joel was quickly out of the room

and back in his bathroom. Jacking off, he tried to stifle his cries of Benji's name. When he had finally cum, he

jumped into the shower. /Tomorrow's gonna be a *long* day/.


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A/N: So, I updated this chapter, and it got better! At first I was just gonna have Benji like Joel and that's it, but I think I like the whole them not knowing thing. So Review and I'll add another chapter, and rate as well! Good or Bad, i wanna know. And thanks to all those who have reviewd so far. Oh, and this is the story I'll be updating, not the other one. That one was a mistake, so just ignore it! And read my Simple Plan one!