Forbidden

Disclaimer: I don't own Dir en grey or any other characters in this fic.

A/N: Only two people reviewed. Thank you, KrystalChronicals and Doping_Panda. I appreciate it! All the others were too lazy, it seems... I really hope to get reviews and votes, even though nothing too interesting hasn't happened yet. It is disturbing to see that over fifty people have read it, and still no one even votes. Come on, what's wrong with you, people? ^-^

Warnings: Some self hurting.


Chapter 2


Kaoru was stretching after sport class in a dressing room. His best and only friend Daisuke was standing next to him. "Come on, what is taking so long?" Daisuke yawned. Daisuke would have been like any other japanese if only his overgrown hair weren't bright red and always hanging in front of his eyes. He was a true geek and knew everything about computers and stuff. He spent all his evenings doing homework or else just studying.

"Well, I would like to go and take a shower before I leave home", Kaoru answered. "Why do you ask? Are you busy?"

"I just... I have to go home, because we have that test this week. Do you get mad if you'd go home alone this time?"

"Of course not. Just go", Kaoru sighed. "I really need a shower."

"Well, I guess I'll see you tomorrow then! Bye!" Daisuke said and left. Kaoru was left alone in the dressing room and started to remove his sport clothing. Everyone else had gone home already. They had had soccer and he was all sweaty. And he was also tired because of too much running. Luckily the schoolday was over...

Kaoru startled when he heard a door opening. He turned around and saw his teacher Gackt walking into room. Gackt taught him sports, music and sex ed. Gackt was one of his favourite teachers, and more like a friend than a teacher. Gackt always understood him and was such a good guy. Sometimes Gackt also brought him to school in his car because lived nearby him.

"Oh, so you were here, Kaoru", Gackt said smiling, walking towards him, but stopped when he noticed that Kaoru was almost naked. "Oh, I am sorry, do you want me to... leave?"

Kaoru shook his head. "No, it's alright, sensei." He wrapped a towel around his lower body. "Is there something you would like to discuss with me?"

"Well... I just... I just wanted to tell you that I've been watching your moves in the sport class and... because of your great skills in sport... you are now part of the schools soccer team." Kaoru couldn't believe his ears. Was his teacher serious? How could he get in the soccer team? Nobody liked him.

"What do you mean, sensei?" he asked puzzled.

Gackt was still smiling. "You have talent in sports, and I would like to take you in the team. Or... don't you want it?"

"No, of course I want to be in the team! It just... sounds so unbelievable. Thank you so much!" Kaoru answered and grinned.

"You're welcome", Gackt said. "You have deserved it. And... I had something else to tell you too. I talked to principal today and we have some use for your mathematics skills. There are some students who need more teaching in maths, not even Yoshiki can handle them. And we decided that you would be a perfect teacher. Don't you want to help others learn too?"

"I want to. This is my chance! I can start next week..? But... who am I supposed to teach?"

"Hara Toshimasa and Nishimura Tooru from 9th grade", Gackt sighed. "Or do you have something against it?"

Kaoru shook his head again. "Of course not, sensei. I promise that I won't disappoint you. I promise. I'll do my best."

"I believe that. Hmm... Maybe I could bring you some Yoshiki's copys tomorrow morning so you can use them when you teach. I'm sure Yoshiki can give me some them."

"Fine by me." Kaoru was smiling. Gackt-sensei was dating Yoshiki and it was a common knowledge. Okay, it was a little bit funny, but he didn't think that disgusting. Actually it was cute because they loved each other, and they were a perfect couple. Both Gackt and Yoshiki were his friends and he wanted them to be happy even if everyone else seemed to think otherwise.

"Well, I'll let you go and take a shower. See you tomorrow then", Gackt said.

***

Tooru Nishimura was lying on his bed, moving his fingers on his wounded wrists, feeling sad. What should he do? Nothing had changed, everyone hated him. He was different than others, was it a sin? He couldn't be like all the others. He wasn't rich and he didn't want to be a bully like other boys. It wasn't his fault that he didn't have any money to buy a new school uniform or schoolbag! He also wanted to be a blond, pierced and tattooed and couldn't help it!

No one understood, no one. Not even that new boy, Toshimasa. When Toshimasa had stepped for the first time in class, looking shy, Tooru had thought that maybe Toshimasa was more like him. He had hoped him to be different than others. But no... Toshimasa was just like all the others. In a couple of days he had became the same kind of shit head as Kei, Mizuki and Yuki were. Toshimasa was a self loving idiot! God damn...

Today Toshimasa had watched him disgusted and hissed that no one would ever want to be with him. Hah, like he hadn't already have known. Like he wouldn't had known that everyone hated him and thought that he was a disgusting pig. But tomorrow everything would change a bit. He wouldn't have to be alone anymore, because his old childhood friend Shinya Terachi had moved in Tokio from Osaka, and would start at the same school as he. That made him feel a little better, but not much. Shinya was younger than him and wouldn't be on his class.

Biting his lips Tooru opened his drawer and took paper scissors in his hands, looking at them sadly. He didn't want to hurt himself anymore but it had become a habit. And for some reason he got a better feeling every time he cut himself. Closing his eyes Tooru pressed the scissors against his skinny wrist and made a quick cut there, crying because of the huge pain. It hurt so fucking much.

Red blood dropped from the wound and it really hurt like hell, but Tooru continued, cutting himself only more. His whole body was shaking but he didn't care because he deserved to be hurt 'cause he was so ugly... He didn't want this, he didn't want this! He squirmed on his bed, whining. You deserve this, said a voice in his head. You disgusting pig... Tooru cried in pain, loudly. No one would even care if he was dead, no one.

***

Toshiya slammed his mathematics book shut, yawning, and burying his face on his schooldesk. He couldn't understand a that Kaoru was teaching him and Tooru. He really got no clue. What the fuck was a square root?!

"Toshimasa!" Kaoru sighed, clearly not happy because Toshiya wasn't interested at all. "Are you listening at all what I'm saying?"

"Of course", Toshiya yawned, eyes closed. "Why wouldn't I listen? These square roots are so very interesting..."

"Tell me why your mathematics book is closed then?" Kaoru wanted to know, looking at the younger boy warningly. "I just told you that while I'm teaching, you write down everything and study at the same time!"

"Screw you", Toshiya sighed and opened his book, not even looking at it. "I can't understand a thing you are saying there. What sense is in this anyway? I bet that no one ever needs to know what is a square root. How am I supposed to get any benefit from this?! And by the way, you -"

"Oh god, shut your mouth already! I'll go nuts with you!" Kaoru shouted, angrily. He had tried to be calm but this was too much for him to stand. Toshimasa was so fucking annoying little brat and such an idiot too. Kaoru didn't even want to control himself anymore. "You whine all the time about everything! You're not listening to a thing I say and still you have guts to say that you don't understand! Idiot!"

"Idiot?" Toshiya asked and lifted his eyebrow. "You are. Isn't there anything else in your life but studying?"

"There is!" Kaoru shouted. "And now shut up or you'll have to go and talk to principal Manabu!"

"Booooooooring..." said Tooru, who was sitting a meter from Toshiya. "Couldn't we do something else than study? I would like to do something else, anything else."

"WHAT?! This is not some party! You are studying here and I am your second teacher, I'm trying to help you. But you never listen to me, you don't even try or want to understand. You don't learn a thing! You two make me crazy!!!!!"

"I don't even want to learn if our teacher is that kind of psycho. Bye, I'm going now", Toshiya sighed and started to pack his things.

"HOW THE FUCK WOULD YOU UNDERSTAND ANYTHING WHEN YOU ACT LIKE THAT?! EVERYTHING BACK TO YOUR DESK NOW! DID YOU HEAR ME? YOU'RE NOT GOING ANYWHERE! YOU'LL SIT HERE THE WHOLE EVENING! YOU ARE NOT LEAVING BEFORE YOU UNDERSTAND EVERYTHING I TEACH!" Kaoru yelled. "DO YOU UNDERSTAND?! AND NOW YOU'LL SHUT YOUR MOUTH OR I'M GOING TO STICK THIS POINTER IN YOUR-"

"Okay, okay, okay!" Toshiya mumbled eyes widened with shock, gulping. "Oh god..."

"AND WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!" Kaoru cried out, looking at Tooru's desk. Boy was drawing in it with very large letters: SHIT. "STOP IT! WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU? I HAVE TO TAKE A BREAK AND GET SOMETHING TO DRINK!"

"Nice idea", Toshiya said smiling. "Bring us some tea too, teacher."

"I WON'T BRING YOU ANYTHING!" Kaoru shouted and ran from the class, slamming the door close behind him.

"Well, he got a hurry..." Toshiya said grinning proudly but then he noticed that the only one in the class was Tooru Nishimura and he went quiet. Tooru was still drawing in his desk, not caring at all what Kaoru had said. Toshiya looked at the older boy in silence, but his eyes widened when he saw fresh cuts in boys wrists. He couldn't believe his eyes and eyed the other boy, worried. Was Tooru hurting himself? It couldn't be!

But suddenly he noticed that Tooru was glaring at him angrily, straight into eyes. "What are you looking at?!" older boy hissed and Toshiya turned his head, now looking at the floor.

"I'm not looking at you", he mumbled.

"Fuck you, you gay", Tooru hissed, looking at him disgusted and stick his tongue out.

"No, fuck you!" Toshiya snapped back coldly. He thought for a moment, before continued: "Only because you are not liked and you don't have any friends, it is not a reason-"

"Die, bitch", Tooru hissed, furious. "You seriously think that you are better than others? Let me tell you, you are nothing but a selfish, self loving homo. When I look at you, I can tell that there is no way you could be straight. So it is unnecessary to think that you can fool anyone. I know what you are!"

"Excuse me what?" Toshiya whispered shocked. His body started shaking and he got panicked. "What homo am I to you?"

"Don't try to act like you weren't one", Tooru said gritting his teeth. "You always try to be sooo cool, but the truth is something else."

"You know nothing! And even if i were a gay, it wouldn't definitely be your business!" Toshiya growled. "So take care of your OWN business!"

Kaoru returned to class, now calmed down, with a glass of cold water. "Okay. I decided that you will ask questions from each other, about square roots of course."

"WHAT?!" Younger boys shouted at the same time. "WITH HIM?!"

"Yes" Kaoru said smiling evilly. "You are so good friends, aren't you? And at the same time I can relax for a moment."

"BUT-"

"Maybe you learned something now, Toshimasa. From this day forward you may be quiet while I'm teaching. Well, who asks the first question?"

Toshiya looked at Tooru and said: "You start."

"Hmmmmmmm... Square root from four hundred and... ninety seven, bastard!" Tooru hissed, grinning.

"KAORU!" Toshiya tried but Kaoru was only smiling happily, laughing: "Answer to the question, Toshimasa."

"OKAY THEN! What was the question again?"

"Square root from... seven million... thirty eight-" Tooru thought. "No, it was..."

"SCREW YOU!" Toshiya shouted. "That is SO not fair!"

At that time the door opened and Gackt-sensei arrived. "Kaoru!!!" their teacher breathed and walked to Kaoru quickly. "How is it going? Have Tooru and Toshimasa been nice?"

"No they haven't", Kaoru answered a little sadly. "But I can still do this."

"I believe that", Gackt said smiling and gently stroked the boy's hair. Toshiya glared at them, eyes widened. "How disgusting. I may puke! Wasn't a hint."

"Do you need a ride home today, Kaoru?" Gackt asked.

"Yes, thank you, sensei. It's raining outside."

"Hey sensei! I would like to have a ride home too!" Toshiya laughed. "I broke my head, you know..."

"Do you want me to look at your new song before going home?" Gackt asked, not listening to Toshiya.

"Yes, please", Kaoru answered nodding. Toshiya acted like puking.


TBC...


A/N: Sorry, Shinya wasn't in this chapter. And don't worry, Toshiya and Tooru=Kyo won't hate each other for the rest of their lives. :)

Christmas is soon and I think I may be quick to write the next chapter during my holiday. But if I won't, happy Christmas to everyone! ^-^