Trying

Title: Trying

Pairings: YooSu, JaeHo, ???? Maybe more???

Rating: PG

Summery: The members of DBSK try to work out what it means to be in love...with each other. Micky's turn

Part 2 ~Micky~

My mind is in shock, a complete blank. I hear his words but understand lags behind. When I finally register his last words his back is to me, leaving me behind. A painful stir of emotions hits me just watching him leave...

Losing myself in thought I unconsciously touch my lips, the lips he kissed. I never knew a man's lips could be so soft and gentle, or that Junsu could be so passionate about something other than music or soccer.

I liked the kiss, I actually liked it when another man kissed me. It was so different form when I had kissed my girlfriend in America, those long ago kisses are hallow to the one we just shared. Is it like that with all men? Was it because of him...could I feel something for him? Is that why I enjoyed it? Or am I just too damn lonely?

This is getting me no where slowly, I need some help, but who can I go to? Ohh I know! I'll ask Yuhno, he's our leader in more ways than just leading the band, he'll know what to do. Yuhno knows best. The storm of thoughts in my head clears slightly now that I'm set on getting the answers I need from our all knowing leader.

Approaching Yuhno's door I pause briefly, uncertain of what to say. I'm being stupid, I know Yuhno will help me no matter what it is I need. There is no need for useless worrying about him judging me. I knock once before turning the knob, his door is always open for us, when ever we may need him.

"Yuhno, I'm coming in." I say in warning before entering his room, I'm not a complete ass. "Its important I need my leader's advice." Yuhno turns away from his computer and I can feel that all his attention is on me. He gives me a very open look ready to spend all of his mind's resources to help me with my problem.

"Sure Micky, what do you need?" I move further into his room to kneel down next to him at the computer so we are eye to eye. He takes my hands in his giving me support, lending me his vast strength.

"What is love?" I can tell he is surprised by my question, his eyebrows rise up his forehead. "What does love feel like?" His expression softens, "How do you feel if you are in love." Yuhno smiles almost motherly at me, as if I asked a cute question.

"Ah Micky your questions are difficult to answer." My face falls slightly but he just smiles at me more. "Love is...love is amazing. Love is perfect and warm." I cannot help smiling at the near dreamy look in Yuhno's eyes as he speaks. I know that he speaks from experience. "Love feels...love feels like a pair of strong arms wrapped around you keeping you safe." My heart constricts at the longing in his voice. "Love feels like a fire in your heart, but instead of burning you up it keeps you warm. Even on the coldest, darkest nights."

Yuhno's eyes shine brightly with emotion as he gets more into his explanation. "When you think of that special someone the fire inside burns brighter, when you see the one you love all your worries seem to just melt away...and when he touches you..." Yuhno trails off pink cheeked at his slip of tongue but for his sake I make it seem as if I didn't catch it.

"Ah thank you Yuhno! I'd be lost without you!" He smiles shyly at my words, but I can see his chest swelling with pride. He accepts my kiss on his cheek in thanks, and I leave him with that dreamy looks still in his eyes. I have alot to think about.

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