Overcome

And so I’m here now, I used to be there. It was before that I was unhappy, now I’m just numb…

Ville now laid in the bed of his new home, his home in Westchester, PA. His täti was preparing him dinner while he listened to music. It was his music that called him down when his friends or brother was out of reach. He lit his cigarette enjoying how the smoke filled his lungs.

I just sit in my room with only cigarettes to kill my time. I’ll be fine, I’ll be alright. One more day off my life…

Ville hated starting new, it was too time consuming and pointless. Sooner or later you’d lose them and all that hard work into making a friendship would be gone. However as much as he hated friendship and the work it took to make one, he desires it more than anything.

I don’t wanna hear nobody. I don’t wanna take nobody home with me tonight. You think it’s funny, I have nobody; somebody to hold my crummy hand. I’m alone

The dinner table was silent much like it was at home except for the minor questions his täti would ask him. Ville picked at his food not really hungry, but he would take a mouth full of peas and potatoes when she’d look up at him. “So do you have your things ready for school”

“Yes” he whispered.

“You’re not gonna try and be that weirdo kid will you”. Ville laughed and looked up at his smiling aunt.

“Täti I would never do that. That’s just ridiculous” he hated being the weird kid, but he already knew he would be because he was Finnish, wore eyeliner, and read books more than anything. He knew that people here are more accepting if you are bisexual or gay but he knew there were still the pencil dick assholes that liked to pick on them. “Can I use the car or do you need it”

“I need it and you don’t have a license” Ville rolled his eyes and finished his meal. at home he would drive the car and not get in trouble, but his aunt was more abiding to the law than he was. He wanted to help with the dishes but was chased away so he can go to sleep and be ready for his first day. His first day of shit.

I’ll just sit here in my hotel room. I’ll just sit here in my rented tomb. I’ll just sit, enjoy the view. I’ll just sit and watch the world go
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SONG: Alone by Pagoda