night time talks

Carrie's pov





'You don't look so good....' Carrie looked up from her morning coffee as she heard her wife talk.



'That's what sleeping on an old single bed gets me....' Carrie knew better than to look Kelly. She could hear her banging around as she washed the breakfast plates.



'I didn't ask you to sleep in there.....in fact ive never asked you to sleep anywhere but our bed......You choose to do it......'Carrie could hear the hurt in Kelly's voice as she tried to keep it together.



'I'll be home for dinner....' Carrie looked up seeing Kelly nod. ' You want anything special?.....' Carrie made dinner every night she was home, it was one of the last things they did together. Kelly had always told her how alone she felt as a kid when her mother would leave her to deal with her own dinners. The blond would set the table for one and sit alone till her mother and step father arrived home from work. Carrie always promised herself that Kelly would never have to eat dinner alone again.



'Just get enough for my mom too......she'll be arriving this afternoon.....' Carrie felt her shoulders slump, she had to much to do to be dealing with Jeanne's childish nature. 'What?....' Carrie looked up to see Kelly staring at her..' now your not coming cause you know she'll be here......'



'I didn't say anything....'



'You didn't have to...it's written all over your face.....Just stay at the studio i'll deal with my mother..' Carrie jumped hearing the bedroom door slam shut. She looked at her watch she wasn't due in the studio for another hour but being early was a better option than staying in the empty kitchen. Standing in front of the bedroom door Carrie wondering if saying goodbye would lead to another screaming match or the silent treatment she had been getting most mornings. She pressed her ear against the door listening out for any sign that Kelly was upset, when she didn't find it she quietly slipped out the front door. Accepting it would be another morning of leaving the house without a goodbye kiss.





Kelly's pov





'She couldn't believe her sometimes, even when she wasn't saying anything she was having digs at her mother with snarky looks. Kelly sat on the bed forcing herself not to cry again, it shouldn't have happened that way. Kelly wanted them to leave on nice terms so tonight with Jeanne wouldn't be so bad, now it was going to be like any one time. Awkward looks back and forth over the dinner table.



Kelly jumped from the bed hearing the front door bang shut, that's right she thought another morning without even a goodbye kiss. She peaked from behind the curtain as Carrie struggled with her bags and laptop dropping half of the paperwork out onto the drive way. Her first thought was to run out and help but she was soon stopped by seeing Carrie bend down to pick everything up . Kelly raised an eyebrow as Carrie seemed to be wiggling her butt a little to much. Not that she was about to stop her doing that, she might be mad at her but she wasn't dead, she would enjoy the view while she could.



It was always the worst time for Kelly, right after a tour finished. She had about three months of nothing before it all started again. Carrie's tour was about to start so she was out the house every day leaving Kelly to potter around waiting for her return when ever that was. That's why her mother was making a spur of the moment visit, Kelly knew if she stayed in the house alone any longer she would explode.



'Last night flashed into her mind as she lay back against the pillows, another perfect night with the mystery lady. The guilt she had felt at the start was gone, replaced with a new guilt. The guilt of known she had started more than one fight to many just so she could be alone in the bedroom to chat to a complete stranger. A stranger than had been giving her more than Carrie was the past few months. She didn't know what the connection was but she know it could be dangerous to her marriage if it ever got out. Carrie would be heartbroken if she knew what Kelly was doing while she wasn't around. Grabbing her laptop from the night stand she booted it up, she knew Tx101 wouldn't be online but there would be an email waiting for her like always. A little poem or a song even a few little lines just to get her threw the day.





'Carrie's pov.





'Again?' Carrie's producer looked threw the glass towards her.



'Yea and now this morning she informed me that she has never asked me to sleep in there.......guess all those go to hell comments were taking the wrong way?' Carrie placed her headphones over the mic before joining him in the booth.



'You both need to get away.......take her out of town for a few days.....'



'And risk her thinking im trying to control her.....we've been threw that......i'd rather take the single bed..'





Kelly's pov





'I swear to you Ash.....' Kelly pulled out another drawer in Carrie's office.



'I don't get it Kelly....everytime I visit you guys everythings perfect.....'



'What can I say...the girl can act....'



'But you can't ' Ashley pointed out. Kelly found what she was looking for.



'Right so I was telling you.....last week she promised me she was in the studio but ....' Kelly flicked through the diary till she found the page she wanted. ' But here it says she had a meeting with A......who the hell is A?' Kelly slammed the book shut throwing it back into the drawer.



'Me?....'



'You?....'



'Yes....last Wednesday I meant her at the studio to go over some make up ideas for her tour.......You were there when we made the date.....'



'Oh...'



'Yea oh.....stop looking for something that isnt there....'



'She's cheating on me...' Kelly had been over this with Ashley before, she just didn't understand why her best friend was so protective over her wife. ' I swear sometimes it's like she's cheating with you. ' Kelly rolled her eyes as she heard Ashley let a loud laugh into the phone.



'Yea that's what we're doing......im here 8 months pregnant as big as a whale and im using your wife as my own personal sex slave.....'



'Ashley.....'



'No no....you caught me.......in fact we're planning to kill you hide the body and live together with my baby .....oh and did I tell you she's the father?'



'Yea ok.....your sounding crazy now......'



'Your the crazy one......that girl loves you with everything she has.......just stop questioning it before she doesn't have any love left......Dont push her away.'



Kelly sat in Carrie's office looking around at the plain white walls that surrounded her. Everything looked so plain and cold compared to their room next door. Their bedroom was warm and cosy with pictures covering the walls everything they needed to be comfortable. Kelly lay down on the bed feeling its hard mattress dig into her back as she wiggled around in it. She didn't know why Carrie spend most nights laying here, even if she didn't want to share a bed with her there was three guests room upstairs she could pick from. But instead she choice to sleep in an office surrounded by old books and empty boxes. Kelly sat up she couldn't lay there any longer, everything smelt of Carrie, she was surrounded by her in there. She quickly went back into her own room thankful for the warm feeling it gave her. Her eyes caught something laying in the corner of the room, she had forgot it was there, it amazed her something so small could bring up so many good memories. Taking it from it's place on the floor Kelly moved towards the door grabbing a second thing from the wall as she went. Carefully as she could she sat each item in it's new place in Carrie's office, smiling as she saw the room had warmed immediately.