Himitsu

Kyo watched as Shinya put on his coat and took his bag. It was a long rehearsal and everyone was tired. Kyo just wanted to go home and rest.



“I’m done,” Shinya smiled looking at Kyo. “We can go now.”



Kyo nodded and they went away after saying goodbye to Kaoru who was still immersed in some work. As Kyo walked after Shinya and looked at his back, he suddenly remembered his talk with Kaoru earlier that day. It was a surprise for him that after almost seven months Kaoru decided to inquire about his and Shinya’s relationship. He just asked if everything was ok between them and Kyo answered “yes” not even thinking about it for a second.



Now, walking behind Shinya and looking at him Kyo wondered if everything was really ok.



There were some… issues that were still unresolved between the two of them. And now Kyo thought for how long will he be able to deal with them.



Shinya was a good lover, really. But he just couldn’t yet be Kyo’s fully. They have never done it up until now and Kyo had to confess that it finally started to get on his nerves. But Shinya always said he wasn’t ready, because he never was with a man before in that way.



So what could Kyo possibly do? He could only wait. It wouldn’t be that irritating if he would get some action. But Shinya didn’t even want him to see naked at first. Of course now Kyo has already seen him naked. It happened five months ago, when he suddenly opened the bedroom door where Shinya was preparing to take a bath, so he stood in the room naked.



Shinya got very embarrassed and immediately hid behind the bedroom door, but after that Kyo managed to talk him into not being shy and then undressed himself for Shinya to see. That was only fare, he said then to him.



After some more time, when they were lying in bed and cuddling, Kyo couldn’t help himself and got really, really hard and Shinya noticed. And then happened something, that shocked Kyo beyond belief – Shinya helped him to release with his hand.



After that it happened from time to time, but not as much as Kyo would have wanted. And Kyo also helped Shinya to release, but not only using his hand.



So now, walking and watching Shinya from behind, Kyo wondered what was really the problem. Was it that Shinya was still in love with one of the guys in the band? Or was it that he was truly in love with Kyo and was just being shy? Or was it that Kyo really wasn’t as attractive as he thought of himself to be?



Kyo sighted. Shinya heard that and stopped, turned to Kyo and smiled.



“Are you tired?” he asked.



“Yeah… It was a hell of a day. And the concert’s tomorrow. And there won’t be any rest after that because the tour will start from tomorrow.”



“I know.” Shinya surprised Kyo by suddenly taking his hand. “Let’s better hurry and go home. I want to stay at your place tonight.”



“Ok.”



As Kyo was driving, Shinya sat silently in the passengers seat and was dreamily looking out through the window.



“You are very silent today,” Shinya said suddenly. “Is everything ok?”



“Yeah…”



“Why do you still lie to me, Kyo? You know I can already distinguish when you tell the truth and when you don’t.”



Kyo grunted unhappily and the car twitched noticeably. Shinya’s grip on the seat-belt became tighter.



“I’m not lying!”



“I’m not stupid, Kyo…”



When Kyo didn’t say anything, Shinya sighted. “Ok, be a stubborn little bastard if you want so.”



Kyo glared at him, but when he saw Shinya’s reflection on the car’s window, he saw that Shinya was smiling.



“You sink into such bad moods from time to time and I know that it’s useless to make you say or do things that others want. But I know I just have to wait until it passes by… I think I already know you better than anyone else in the band…”



Kyo again didn’t say anything, but looked back to the road again.



“And why are you so happy today?” Kyo asked.



Shinya smiled warmly. “I don’t know. I just feel happy and that’s all…”



Kyo didn’t comment and drove them to his place. When they were finally in bed, it was already late. Kyo snuggled close to Shinya trying to get warm and closed his eyes.



“Are you sleeping already?” he heard Shinya ask and felt that Shinya’s hand was on his tight dangerously close to his crotch.



“Uh… yeah…” Kyo muttered into Shinya’s chest.



“Kyo…”



“What?”



“I just… um… I really, really am happy that we’re together…”



Kyo smiled warmly and hugged Shinya even tighter.



“And I’m happy to hear that because I really love you, Shin-chan…”



“Kyo?”



“Yeah?”



“You know, if there’s anything you want to ask me… anything… you can… You know that I won’t lie to you…”



Kyo stiffened immediately knowing what Shinya had in mind. Now was the moment he longed for. He had asked him that question once. Months before. But didn’t get any answer. Shinya immediately stopped smiling and the look on his face told Kyo that he won’t get the answer.



And now he could hear it. Now he could know who was it that Shinya was in love for so many years. He could hear it right now at this moment.



Who was it? Who from the three of the other guys was it? Or perhaps it was him after all?



Kyo relaxed and smiled gently.



“There’s nothing I want to ask you, Shin-chan…”



“Really?” he heard the surprised tone in Shinya’s voice. “Are you sure?”



“Yes. What could I possibly want to ask you? I know all I need…”



He felt Shinya’s hand gently go up his thigh and caress his manhood with the tips of his fingers.



“You are being naughty today, Shin-chan!” Kyo laughed.



The fingertips stiffened and Kyo smiled. “I didn’t say I don’t like it.”



“I know you do, Kyo.” Shinya smiled and began caressing Kyo again. “Kyo?”



“Hmm?”



“I think I’m ready?”



“For what?”



“For taking our relationship into a different, deeper level…”



“You mean…”



“Yes, Kyo, I am ready to make love to you…”



Kyo tried to look Shinya in the face, but the darkness was so thick that it was impossible to see anything clearly.



“Are you sure?”



“Yes.”



“That’s… that’s great news…”



“I thought you would think so!” Shinya laughed. “But just not tonight, ok? I’m really tired… Though I also like the feeling of your… of that part of your body right now…”



Shinya’s fingers were caressing Kyo’s shaft without hesitation now. “I love your body from head to toes…” Shinya whispered and Kyo felt himself shiver from anticipation.



“Then don’t tease me so if you want to rest tonight…” he breathed heavily. Shinya giggled and withdrew his hand.



“Ok, Kyo-kun… Goodnight.”



“Oyasumi, my love…”



Kyo closed his eyes and relaxed in Shinya’s embrace. And he couldn’t help but smile until he fell asleep.









THE END





Author's comment: I didn't really decide myself who it might have been that Shinya was in love. I would guess it could have been Die or Kyo. I know it might sound irrational, because I'm the one who wrote it, but I just couldn't decide. So I left some place for imagination even for myself :P



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