night time talks

Carrie's pov





For the first few seconds after waking everything felt ok, that was until she opened her eyes and reality sent in. She saw the plain white walls and the night before events came flooding back. Carrie had never seen Kelly so cold before, every argument they had before was nothing compared to what they were going through now.



Her first thought was Jeanne, she knew the older woman would do everything in her power to turn Kelly against her. Carrie's only saving grace was Ashley, she knew her wife's best friend would act as a buffer against the older woman's rants. If Ashley was still talking to her that is. Grabbing her phone from her bag she quickly began pressing buttons.





Is she ok? Carrie x.





Even before Carrie could put her phone down it was ringing, Ashley's name flashing up.



'Are you coming home?....'Carrie didn't even have a chance to say hello.



'Does she want me home?........'



'She's still in bed......just come home'



'Ash she made it clear.....i don't want to push her........' Carrie could hear Ashley sighing into the phone.



'Show her you love her..........don't wimp out now.........prove it to her.......'



'She knows I love her........'



'Does she?........cause it seems to me you've went out your way to put those doubts in her head....'



'Doubts?.....' Carrie asked confused.



'If she believed you loved her...........that you care anything about her........would she have went into chat rooms looking for something?......' Carrie was speechless. Ashley was right, Kelly really had to be missing something to go try to find it somewhere else.



'She thinks ive been lying to her.....'



'You have.....you found out you were talking to her and didn't tell her right away.........you hid it.......god knows how long you would have kept it from her if she didn't find out.....but that's not why she's angry.....'



'It's not?.......'



'No...she's angry cause she now knows that you were going looking for something too........she wasn't giving you something and you went looking for it.........You see your problem isn't that you don't love each other........your problem is that there has been to many bad words said between you and now you both don't know how to have a disagreement without it going into a full blown fight............and you don't know how to say sorry any more.........' Carrie waited for Ashley to stop before answering.



' I know your right but I don't know how to fix it.........i don't know how we can move on.........'



'If you love her you'll find a way.......'





Ashley hung up before Carrie could answer her.





Kelly's pov.





Kelly jumped hearing her mother bang around the kitchen while she made breakfast. Her first thought was Carrie. She still held her phone in her hand, six times she tried to call her during the night but each time she hung up before it could even ring. Caving in and letting Carrie home would only lead the more trouble, they needed this time apart, time to see what they really wanted. The trouble was Kelly couldn't really envision herself coping well without her wife. Even when they were fighting it was a comfort to have the country girl around her, even if she did want to kill her in that moment.



'Kel?......' Kelly was dragged from her thoughts by Ashley standing at her door. 'Your mother is insisting that you come to breakfast.......'



'Tell her im sleeping......'



'She says if you don't come out she's coming in to get you.......' Kelly threw her covers back lifting herself from the bed.



'My mother has too much to say......' Ashley slid out of the way as Kelly moved towards her.



'Ah your awake......' Jeanne stood in the kitchen surrounded by food.



'Meat?........'Kelly looked down at the plates in front of her.



'I'll not be running around for fussy eaters im sorry..........if she wants to eat then she either eats what I make her or she goes else where........it's up to her........' Kelly's eyes met Jason's who was sitting at the table already on his second plate. He seemed to know what Kelly was going to do before she did. Grabbing his plate from the table he quickly stood as his sister walked towards him. Picking up the closest plate in front of her she moved towards the back door, opening it she took one last look at her mother before launching the plate into the garden. Each plate soon followed as she casually went back and forth till the kitchen table was empty. Jeanne stood frozen.



' Firstly mother.....she is my wife.......and my wife doesn't eat meat......so if she wants to eat cornflakes for breakfast in her own damn house then she will..........secondly this is not your house........this house belongs to my wife and I ........Carrie.......you seem to forget her name it's Carrie ..........so when you are in our home you will act like a guest and not like you bought the damn house.........' Kelly sat a bowl in front of her mother filling it with cornflakes before grabbing the milk. 'now sit and eat your breakfast.......' Kelly poured the milk till it was over flowing and spilling onto the floor. 'Enjoy......' Handing her mother a spoon Kelly smiled as her before leaving the kitchen.





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'Ashley entered the bedroom quickly, Kelly lay on her side looking at a small picture, Ashley couldn't see who was in it but she was sure it was Carrie.



'Jason's took Jakob and your mother for a drive............' Ashley lay beside her best friend.



'Gone out for breakfast?.....'There was a hint of playfulness in Kelly's voice.



'Actually....'Ashley smiled as Kelly rolled towards her. ' She ate the breakfast you made her.......'



'The cornflakes?.....'Kelly quizzed.



'Yea......every last bit of it.......she was in so much shock I think........She just sat there eating away with a pool of milk at her feet.......' Kelly hid her face in Ashley's shoulder.



'I can't believe I yelled at my mother like that.......'



'It was your plate throwing I loved.......'



'Oh god......she's going to hate me......'



'Na.......she needed it......she's spent to many visits making everyone feel like that are six years old again.........You did good.....'Kelly looked up at her friend with a smirk on her face.



'I did enjoy it.....'



'I bet you did.......' Kelly's face grew serious again as she looked back down at the picture in her hand. Ashley had a look too realising it was a picture from Kelly and Carrie's wedding.



'She know she's gone?.....'Kelly asked not looking up from the picture.



'Who?,.....'



'My mother.....does she know Carrie isn't here?.......'



'Ah that..........I told her she was at the studio........'Kelly nodded as she stood up.



'Good........i want to keep it that way......i need to figure out what I want to do before my mother finds out........'



'Your secrets save with me.......'



'And Jason?.......' Ashley smiled.



'You saw his face at the breakfast table......that boy will never cross you again........i think it's safe with him too. '



'I don't know what came over me.......ive never talked to my mother like that before. .......' Kelly lay back down next to Ashley on the bed.



'Your angry....and hurt ...........and you need someone to take it out on.......'



'And Carrie's not here......'Kelly interrupted.



'Exactly......so your mother got it..........'



'How is she?,.......'



'Your mother?........'



'Carrie......' Kelly said quietly.



'How would I know?......' Ashley moved her gaze away from Kelly.



'Cause I know you.....and I know her ......and I know she will be talking to me through you.......so how is she.......' Ashley smiled at her friend.



'She's scared........she didn't say that but her voice says it all........she's alone and you and I know how much she hates to be alone........and she's hurting..........Hurting cause she knows she's hurt you and she promised herself a long time ago she would never do that..............'



'You think im doing the right thing?......' Kelly's voice was now a whisper.



'I told her that she has to prove to you that she loves you..........and if she wants this marriage to work she'll find a way to fix everything........'



'You think she can?........'



'Guess we'll just have to wait and see......'