Slow Motion

i got this done sooner than expected. well, enjoy and reviews make me happy and a better writer so leave them if you feel like it. :)





so it came to be that spencer started living with brendon, kind of like how ryan started living with brendon after his father died. the older boy thought it was good for spencer, good for both of them really. spencer could live day to day and not worry about getting his ass kicked if someone was in a foul mood and brendon could actually leave the house and not have to worry about ryan, because spencer was more than happy to care for him.



jon was still looking for spencer a week after he unoffically moved in with brendon. brendon would see him when he was leaving, the older boy would be sitting on the porch or out in the driveway, seemingly waiting for spencer's return. he's spot brendon but rarely said anything, except for the occasional hopeful look in his dark eyes when he'd see brendon, like maybe brendon had information that he didn't. little did he know that brendon did have that information.



the boy didn't feel bad for jon, he figures the older boy had it coming. spencer was a good person for the most part, whose only flaw seemed to be that he had stayed with jon for such a long time. brendon didn't think he had much room to talk though considering he'd stayed with pete for such a long time himself. if brendon was feeling any sort of sympathy for jon it would all fade away when he remembered seeing the black and purple bruises that decorated spencer's body.



brendon was also spending more time with nate. now that the porno secret was out in the open their relationship was stronger than ever. the boy still felt that sense of perfection when he was with nate, it didn't matter that nate had sex and got paid for it. the only foreseeable problem was that brendon had neglected to tell nate about his many vice's, how he was tangled in so many drugs that he was sure he needed them to survive. brendon didn't know how nate felt about drugs, he thinks he should ask but maybe he's afraid to find the anwser.



brendon was currently at nate's apartment, laying in bed with his boyfriend, attempting to catch his breath after a paticularly hot session of sex. "brendon?" nate says when brendon is mere moments from falling asleep.



"hmm?" the younger boy mumbles back. nate smiles at his boyfriend and turns into his body and presses hot kisses to brendon's neck. brendon stretches and cracks open his brown eyes.



"i was thinking." nate whispers, his breath ghosting over brendon's skin. "what if you came to work with me one of these days?" nate asks and he's propped himself up on his elbow and he's looking over at brendon, prepared to gauge the boy's reaction.



"go to work with you?...like watch you fuck?" brendon asks, he wasn't expecting this from nate. sure he's told his boyfriend numerous times that he likes the videos, that he is turned on by nate's profession but could he handle seeing it first hand?



"yeah." nate starts and he's sliding closer to brendon and rolls himself so that he's straddling his younger boyfriend. "the actors do it all the time." nate tells him and his hands are drawing invisible figures on brendon's chest as the younger boy looks up at him uncertain. "besides" nate starts and he drops his face close to brendon's kissing the corner of his mouth. "it will help me. if i know your there, watching me...god, i'll be hard for hours." nate is whispering and brendon's getting hard just from nate talking about it.



"okay, yeah, i'll go with you nate." brendon says, his hands slipping around nate's waist as he rocks his now hard cock against his boyfriend's leg.

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the duo decided that brendon will go with nate to his next video project, which happens to start the next day. brendon's back at home and he's willing himself to remember that it's actually a good idea.



"so, your boyfriend is a pornstar?" spencer asks from his position on the couch.



"yeah," brendon anwsers, he dips his head out of the bathroom to peek at spencer. "didn't i tell you that?" he asks and spencer shakes his head before he looks over at ryan who is on his stomach on the wooden floor, playing with the game that nate bought him.



"does it bother you?" brendon says and again spencer shakes his head.



"as long as your fine with it than i am too." spencer tells him and ryan looks back for a moment at spencer before he goes back to his game. brendon is smiling, he's rather enjoyed having spencer around these last two weeks. it reminds him of times back when ryan was normal and how the two of them talked about whatever was going on in their lives.



brendon never realized how much he missed having someone to talk to.



a noise emits from the game that ryan is playing and he sits up and he's grinning, a look of pure excitment on his face. "bren-brendon! i-do-i-do-good" he exclaimed and brendon came out of the bathroom to see what ryan was talking about.



the older boy was holding the game in his hand and brendon could only assume he meant that he had done something good on the game. "good job ryan." brendon says as he stops by the boy and ruffles his now shaggy brown hair. ryan beams up at brendon and moves forward to hug the younger boy's leg.



spencer watches this transpire and he looks up at brendon. "i-i was meaning to ask...i mean if you don't mind, uh-what happened to ryan?" ryan looks at spencer at the sound of his own name and spencer smiles at him before he looks back up at brendon.



brendon's face falls, his hand is still playing with ryan's bangs. "he got involved in some heavy drug shit a few years back...it fucked up his mind." brendon tells spencer and the other boy's face falls too.



"does he see doctor's or anything?" spencer is asking and brendon shakes his head.



"can't really afford doctor's plus, they can't do anything to help him."



"don't be so sure brendon, i mean some mentally challenged people live almost normal lives nowadays. i think i dunno, i think ryan has the potential to get better."



"spencer, look...i don't mean to be rude but i was with the doctors when they told me that ryan would never be the same person. he can't be normal...all he can be is...this." brendon says lowly, he gestures at ryan but the boy is looking at spencer, his long fingers still twisted into brendon's pant leg.



"i'm not so sure about that brendon, i mean i don't mean to impose but i've been trying to teach ryan a few things here and there. just little stuff like teaching him to say words and do simple things for himself." spencer tells brendon and he's looking at ryan like he's proud of him.



brendon looks down at ryan, the older boy is looking at his game, playing it with one hand. brendon thinks about what spencer's said. is it possible that he is babying the boy? that he doesn't have expectations for ryan? that he doesn't try to help him get better because he doesn't believe it can happen. what if all this time ryan could improve? what if all along all brendon had to do was take the time to teach him.



the dark haired boy shakes his head, he won't allow himself to get his hopes up. even if ryan does get better, it's not like he'll ever be the ryan ross that brendon knew. that ryan is long gone by now, brendon can never have him back. maybe, spencer has faith because he didn't actually know ryan, maybe all he wants is to make the boy a functioning member of society again, and to hell if he actually resembles the old ryan.



brendon doesn't like that idea.



"work with him if you like but he'll never be better." brendon mumbles, he removes ryan's hand from his leg before he goes back into the bathroom. he doesn't need a guilt trip from spencer about whether or not he's been properly caring for ryan.

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nate comes to pick brendon up the next day to take him to the porn set. it's pretty early, too early in brendon's opinion but he figures he can sleep in the car on the way there. spencer and ryan are still sleeping when brendon leaves but he told the younger boy before hand that he'd be gone for the day.



"hey, beautiful." nate says, he smiles at brendon as the boy climbs into the passenger seat in the car. brendon gives a weak smile and a silent wave before he closes the door and rest's back against the headrest, attempting to sleep.



nate doesn't seem tired at all and brendon doesn't think that's fair. he can smell coffee and toothpaste and the distinct scent of nate, brendon finds this all very comforting. "i can see your not a morning person." nate laughs.



"shh, sleeping." is brendon's reply.



"alright, sleeping beauty, i'll wake you when we get there." nate whispers and brendon smiles and nods and curls himself into the black leather seats.



it's about an hour later when brendon is shook awake. he opens his eyes and see's that the two of them have arrived at their destination. brendon isn't expecting the building to be so plain. it's a large brown brick building, set off by itself at the end of a backroad. there is a black sign hanging above the building's glass doors that says 'cobra industries.'



overall brendon is not impressed with the building, he won't admit it to anyone but he was expecting that a porn company to be a bit more flashy. maybe a bright pink building with a dirtier name, and perhaps some spinning dildos somewhere on the sign...okay, maybe expecting spinning dildo's was a little much.



"you alright?" nate is asking. brendon nods and nate moves and takes his hand, lacing their fingers together as they walk towards the building. "yeah.." brendon is mumbling and nate thinks he hears something about spinning dildo's but he puts it off as a trick of the wind or something and holds the door to the building open for brendon.



the inside of the building is the receptionist office. a multicolored carpet stretches along the floors, a few black seats are pressed up against the tan wall to the right of the door, the chair's are directly across from a brown wooden receptionist desk. there is a pretty young woman behind the desk, her dark hair is up in a cross between a ponytail and a bun, she looks up at nate, her fingers running over a black headset she is wearing.



"oh, nate! good morning!" the girl practicaly cooes, nate flashes her a smile.



"morning, jenny." he replies, she's still smiling when her gaze flickers over to brendon.



"who's this?" she asking and if brendon's not mistaken she's batting her eyelashes at him.



"this-" nate starts, he looks over at brendon with nothing sort of adoration in his eyes. "is my boyfriend brendon." he copies jenny's cooing and brendon rolls his eyes and grins.



"oh! so, this is the infamous brendon! nate's, told me so much about you!" the girl tells brendon, she's grinning and looking between the two boys.



"he has?" that surprises brendon, he never imagined that nate had been talking about him at work. jeny nods and nate looks slightly embaressed. "aww baby!" brendon joins in on the cooing and he moves over and kisses nate on the cheek.



nate laughs and pulls brendon in close, squishing their bodies together. "anyway, the new project starts today doesn't it?" nate asks jenny. the girl nods and her eyes flicker over brendon once again.



"yeah, but you're gonna let..i mean." nate raises a hand and stops her.



"yeah, brendon's cool with it." nate says and jenny nods, brendon thinks that the girl must be used to this kind of thing by now. "well, i'm gonna go on set so i'll see you later." nate tells the girl. she nods and waves just as the phone on her desk rings.



nate still has brendon pressed close to him and it makes it hard to walk, brendon going sideways with nate's arm around his neck. nate leads his boyfriend back through the receptionist office and through two wooden doors. beyond the doors was a huge room, almost like the size of a warehouse.



the floor in front of brendon and nate is grey, dusty cement. inside the room are people scattered around, brendon can see men standing around camera equipment, and racks of clothing near the far wall. to the right near the corner is a bedroom set, fake carpeted floor, bed, and three fake walls. the damn thing almost looked like a real room.



brendon thinks he see's different sets around the room, but he's being pulled forward by nate, over to a man sitting in a director's chair. nate taps the man on the shoulder and the thin presumable director turns to look at the two boys.



"ah, nate! my star has arrived!" the man says as he jumps from his sit and claps nate on his shoulder. nate doesn't get a chance to say anything before the man is speaking again. "we can finally begin, this epic creation!"



brendon tries really hard not to give the man a look that's equal to an are-you-out-of-your-fucking-mind? he thinks he succeeds. the director is tall and thin, with gray hair and a stereotypical porno mustache that was oddly enough, not gray. he's wearing a brown jacket and a sweater and brendon thinks that the man is doing a terrible impression of steven spielberge.



"aaand you've brought someone with you." he adds in a disappointed tone as he finally notices brendon huddled against nate.



"it's my boyfriend, sam. his name is brendon." nate says very matter of factly to the director, whose name is apparently sam.



sam's eyebrows shoot up and he looks at the two of them in surprise. "so, you've finally found someone special enough to bring to set." sam states and he looks happy. brendon looks up at nate in surprise. the boy had just assumed that nate invited all his boyfriends to the porn set, that it was something like an initiation. he never imagined that he'd be the first, and that thought makes brendon's heart swell.



"yeah, he's special alright." nate says softly and he leans down and brushes his lips against brendon's, soft and gentle. brendon's fingers tangle into nate's t-shirt and he can feel a heavy make out session coming on, maybe sam is used to that kind of thing because he has his hand on nate's shoulder and is breaking them apart.



"we need to start filming so go to wardrobe and pick up your script." sam tells nate and if nate's anything he's a professional so he nods and breaks away from brendon, he's still holding the boy's hand and he leads him away from sam and back to the racks of clothing.



they're quiet, brendon's too busy taking in everything around him to say much to his boyfriend. he feels slightly starstruck, like he's with someone important, brendon likes that feeling. the younger boy is happy to watch nate as he is fitted for his costume, something that looks like a prince outfit, complete with white tights and light purple pantaloons.



"you're enjoying this too much." nate says as he watches brendon watching him.



"how can i not enjoy this when the movie is called cinderfella?" brendon laugh, his finger covering his mouth. nate smiles and shakes his head and holds up his yellow colored script.



"cinderfella, i prince charmington have taken you to the ball, don't you think i deserve a little reward?" nate reads his line, his hand to his chest like he's some dramatic shakesperian actor. he looks up at brendon and waggles his eyebrows, brendon giggles again.



"have i told you that you're an amazing actor nate?" the younger boy teases, nate shrugs.



"i look hot though right?" he questions, brendon eyes his boyfriend and actually nate does look incredibly hot in his prince outfit.



"totally, think we can borrow the outfit?"



about an half hour later nate is being filmed and brendon's seated in a metal folding chair, next to sam, watching nate. he's watching his boyfriend get a blowjob. nate's hands are tangled in the young actor who is playing cinderfella's bleach blonde hair. nate's pantaloons are around his ankles and he's thrusting up into the boy's mouth, forcing him to take it all down.



if brendon thought that watching the dvd's was hot, seeing it in person was enough to give him an instant boner. brendon was hard as a rock while watching nate. he watched as his boyfriend's jaw was clenched tight and he could hear him, hear nate moaning and grunting and it almost sounds real, almost. except that brendon thinks he's overexaggerating it for the movie.



either way brendon is desperate for filming to end so he can go and get his brains fucked out by nate, possibly while he's still wearing the costume.