Slow Motion

sorry, it's been so long since i've updated. i was recently on vacation out of state so here it is and i would say to expect another new chapter really soon.



chapter twenty six: don't hate me when you learn the truth



brendon and nate began filming their movie two weeks later. in that amount of time brendon had to come up with a porno name, after much debate he decided on brenny bare. nate likes to laugh at brendon's name but the younger boy thinks it's far better than nate the great.



the younger boy also picks up a multitude of tips from nate about how to fuck porno style, because doing it normally isn't good enough. nate tells him to remember to keep himself in the camera angle, to overexaggerate every sound, every sense of pleasure, that and brendon had to actually remember the cheesy lines that were written for him.



their movie was called 'the adventures of nate and brenny'. brendon was in the movie and he barely remembers the plot, something about him being a bored male model while nate was his assistant or something.



brendon thinks he did a good job in the movie, he moans extra loud as nate fucks him against a white mirrored vanity set. he tosses his head back and let's loose a string of obscenities when nate bends him over a table and fucks him senseless. he doesn't even complain when he's giving nate a blowjob and it's required that he let his boyfriend come on his face.



all in all brendon feels like it was a good movie. it's strange that once you start it's almost like the camera's aren't even there. he never believed that he could actually forget that there were people watching them, filming them, that any person with twenty bucks or internet access could see them.



after the first movie brendon is paid and he goes back to living a normal life, porno free. one where he can have sex with nate and not worry if it's good enough to keep or if he'll have to redo something over and over again.



a few weeks later brendon gets a call from sam, their director. sam tells brendon that the movie was selling better than expected and that people were asking about him, important people. this surprises brendon, he never imagined he'd make much of a splash in the porn industry, he thought it would be a one time thing, something to experiment with and than move on. but now, now sam was talking about doing more movies, movies with nate and with other people.



brendon thinks that sam is a persistent bastard but he tells the older man that he'll have to think it over, talk to nate about it all. that's what he's doing today, nate's over at his place, the two of them snuggled up on the couch while spencer was trying to teach ryan to fold clothes.



brendon still likes having spencer around because the younger boy is good at domestic things like cooking and cleaning and washing clothes.



"nate, baby, i got a call from sam today." brendon starts, he looks up at nate from under the boys arms.



"you did?" nate replies, he sounds half interested and completely surprised.



"yeah, he wanted to tell me that my movie was selling well..."



"well, you are a hottie bren." nate says, like it's all the explanation he needs. brendon smiles and slides his hand around nate's neck, his fingers brushing the hair at the back of nate's neck. nate smiles and leans into the touch.



"he also told me that some big names were after me..." brendon says softly, he's not sure what nate's reaction will be. nate turns and looks at him, surprise written across his handsome face.



"he wants you to do more movies?" nate asks and he sounds just a tad bit hysterical. brendon nods.



"he told me that he wants me to do more movies with you...and other people." brendon wasn't too worried about telling nate about sam wanting him to do more movies, he was worried about telling nate that he was wanted to do movies with other people.



could brendon even do it? fuck or get fucked by strangers? he wasn't sure but the thought was enough to make his dick twitch. he was watching nate, trying to read his boyfriend's expression, trying to figure out what could be going through his head.



"nate, baby, what do you think?"



nate gives a little shrug. "what do you think bren?"



"i think...i think i want to do this." he says and he doesn't miss the look of surprise, or disappointment in nate's brown eyes but he doesn't care. he does want to do this. "nate, you know i love you and only you. like you said 'it's just a job' remember?" brendon says and he slides himself up close to nate, his hands cupping the older boys cheeks.



"i know brendon." nate says but he doesn't sound convinced. brendon scoots up and rest's his forehead against nate's, their eyes locking together.



"nate, it's money...good money and it's easy...there is no way i can pass that up." brendon whispers, his breath hot against nate's face. the older boy makes a face and searches brendon's deep brown eyes.



"you know if it's cash...i can help you with it." nate says and brendon shakes his head. he doesn't want someone to pay for him, that's not what he needs, he's young but he's used to taking care of himself.



"mama always said not to rely on anyone else for money." brendon tells nate. it's true his mother did say, but she said a lot of other things too, especially in the month's leading up to her mental breakdown. despite his mother's saying brendon was currently relying on someone else's money. his father pays the rent for the dumpy house, out of guilt brendon figures.



so it come's to be that brendon starts doing porn movies on a regular basis. he does a lot of them with nate, those are his favorites. but he also does them with people he's never even met before. his first movie with a stranger is awkward, especially because brendon is the one getting fucked. nate's there watching as brendon performs in his scene. it's all hard and dirty and brendon doesn't need to pretend to enjoy it because he already is.



it carries on this way for a month. brendon is raking in a substantial amount of cash and nate is settling into brendon being in the same business as him. the only time brendon really has a problem is when he has to fuck a girl. it's harder for him and it's times like that, that he's glad nate's there. a quick kiss or stroke from nate is enough to keep him steady for the scene, plus it's not like brendon's never fucked a girl before.



today is one of those day's. brendon is working with a girl, the same bleached blonde, fake breasted girl he saw nate work with all those weeks ago. except today nate isn't on set, not yet and brendon can't seem to get himself in the mood. the director is getting frustrated and the girl under him is complaning.



the director takes a break and brendon pulls off the girl and sit's back on his heel's. she sit's up and crosses her arms briefly before she bends and fishes on the floor for her robe. brendon think's she's going to pull it on but she doesn't her hand fishing in the pink satin pocket. the blonde girl pulls out a small silver case from her robe pocket and she pops it open.



"what are you doing?" brendon asks, he's still naked. working in porn kinda has that effect on people. the girl's blue eyes flicker up on brendon and she pulls a frown.



"helping you not to get fired." she says low and just a little pissed sounding. brendon's confused until she pick's something out of the case and hands it to brendon, his hand opening up to recieve her gift. what he find's is a small yellow circular tablet, a smiley face printed on the top. brendon isn't stupid, he know's what she gave him, ecstasy.



brendon's barely does ecstasy. he know's it's strange to say considering all the other drug's he's done or is currently doing but he know's it's because ryan used to do ecstasy. normally he wouldn't let that stop him but the ecstasy was the reason that he and ryan slept together for the first time.



brendon doesn't fully trust ecstasty, the last time he took it he had gotten a blow job from andy's boyfriend in the backseat of andy's car. but the way the girl is looking at him is suggesting it will work. he swallows hard and glances around before he tip's his head back and swallows down the tablet. the blonde girl grin's and he see's that she too is swallowing down a tablet.



it take's about five minute's for the drug to kick in but once it does it isn't like anything brendon's ever experienced. his entire body feel's warm, no, the whole world feel's warm and fuzzy and brendon doesn't have a care in the entire world.



they start the scene again and brendon feel's so much love in the room that it's not hard for him to kiss the girl, or to do anything else to her for that matter. the world passes by in a fuzzy cloud and by the time nate come's to pick brendon up the drug is all but worn off and the scene is finished.



brendon's getting ready to go when he see's a man enter the room. he's tall with light brown skin and dark hair that's cut low to his scalp. tattoo's are covering his thin arms and his neck. brendon can tell the guy is one of those gangsta type of people, his slightly reminded of travis and his skin tingles as he think's of the man who wronged ryan so many times.



"shay, come on girl." the man say's and his voice is light and kinda rough he sound's young. katy the blonde girl that brendon had been working with turn's back to look at the man and wave's him over.



"tyga, come here, i want you to meet my friend's." she say's her voice raising as she motion's for him to join them. the boy sigh's before he trudges over to where brendon, nate, and shay are standing. the man named tyga stop's before them and brendon can see that the boy actually look's young, maybe even younger than brendon himself.



"shay, we don't have time for this. we gotta meet travis in an hour." tyga say's his voice an aggrivated tone. brendon's eyes widen at the name.



"travis mccoy? brendon rushes out before he can stop himself. tyga's brown eyes widen a bit.



"yeah, he's my cousin...you know him?" tyga question's and brendon shakes his head.



"not well, just met him once." he's trying to sound convincing, he doesn't want travis to know he's doing porn. tyga's eyes narrow at brendon and he knows that kind of look, tyga is suppicious.



"what's your name again?" he questions and shay open's her mouth to tell him before brendon cut's her off.



"brenny! my name is brenny." he say's and he can tell that tyga is memorizing the name, making sure he remember's so he can ask travis about him later.



shay and tyga leave after that, tyga pulling the girl along behind him. brendon and nate leave too, nate giving a strange look to his younger boyfriend.



"so? who's travis?" nate ask's. brendon look's over at nate and frown's.



"what do you mean?" the younger boy ask's, playing dumb.



"come on bren, you might've been able to fool that tyga guy but not me...so...who's travis?" nate stop's them out in the parking lot, his hand on his boyfriend's shoulder. brendon look's away from nate and sigh's.



"travis...he was the one who made ryan what he is today." brendon says and nate give's his shoulder a squeeze. "that's not all though...he also...he also raped ryan." the boy break's off and he's waiting to see what nate will say, this is just one of the varity of dirty little secrets that brendon has kept from nate, if he can't handle this, than there's no way he can handle the other stuff.



nate doesn't say anything but pull's brendon in tight and hold's him close.

*****

brendon keep's doing porn's and along with the movie's he's developed a new habit, taking ecstasy. he does it whenever nate isn't around, or whenever is boyfriend isn't looking. brendon think's it's the perfect drug for porn star's because it give's you a feeling, so light and happy and you just want to love everyone on the planet.



it make's doing his scene's a hell of a lot easier.



today brendon is doing a scene with a dark haired boy named frank iero. brendon think's frank is pretty hot with his jet black hair that fall's heavy in his dark eye's, his pale skin that's decorated with a variety of tattoo's. brendon is sure he could do the scene without ecstasy, he know's he could, but he also like's the feeling that the drug bring's him.



he know's nate isn't around, he's working a shift at the stripclub. brendon's sure he won't be caught. it's pretty common knowledge that a lot of the porn star's have the drug and are willing to share, all you have to do is ask for it.



lately brendon has been feeling guilty about his drug habit. not just the ecstasy but all the drug's. he's been doing drug's since he was fourteen that's around six straight year's of drug use. brendon know's he's an addict, he know's he can't stop, his body crave's it like a normal person might crave chocolate or caffiene. it's for these reason's that the younger boy know's he can't tell nate about his drug addiction.



he feel's like nate wouldn't tolerate it, like the older boy would leave him the instant he found. that fear alone is enough to make him keep his habit a well gaurded secret.



brendon and frank start their scene and the boy tries to make it through without the aid of a drug. frank has brendon down on his hand's and knee's, his ass up in the air and his head resting on his arms. brendon can feel frank's warm wet finger's press inside of him but he doesn't really need it. he presses back and rock's his hip's letting a moan slip from his mouth.



frank decides that brendon is ready and he presses himself against brendon, the younger boy can feel frank's thick cock push up inside him. brendon moan's and pushes himself back, taking frank in deeper. the older boy rock's in and out and soon they have a steady rythm going.



frank fuck's rough, his hip's snapping against brendon's ass. he fuck's the younger boy rough and deep. frank is bent over brendon, his pale tight chest pressed against brendon's back.



"ah, frankie, mmm fuck me, fuck me hard!" brendon moans out an frank responds by biting brendon hard on the shoulder. suddenly the director yells 'cut' and the scene stops. something about lighting or something like that. frank slides out of brendon and the younger boy moans in protest, his dick twitching.



frank pulls out but he stays close to brendon. he's still draped over brendon's back, his red mouth pressed close to the boy's ear. "i think i'd like to keep fucking you." frank says and brendon laughs, deep and husky.



"i have a boyfriend." brendon replies as he feels frank lick the shell of his ear and he shivers. "but there is something you can help me with." the boy whispers.



"oh yeah?" frank asks "and what would that be?" he asks, his long pale fingers running across brendon's jaw. he tips brendon's face and places a brief kiss on the younger boy's lips.



"some E?" brendon whispers against frank's lips and he can feel frank shuddering and he thinks that people are watching them because they haven't quite stopped touching each other after cut was yelled. frank chuckles husky in brendon's ear before he reluctantly pulls away from brendon and goes somewhere that brendon can't see, he assumes that he's fetching the drug.



brendon runs his hands over his face in anticipation, he can't wait for the beautiful high, the one that makes the world seem so much better than it is. frank returns and once again he drapes himself over brendon, their pale skin sliding together. brendon turns to face frank expectant of his drug.



frank smiles and brendon watches as the older man takes a small white tablet and presses it firmly on his tongue. brendon makes a small noise of protest before frank presses a finger to his lip and he once again is leaned over brendon's back, his arms around brendon's neck. frank kisses brendon's ear and the boy feels franks finger press against his lips before it breaks through and is in his mouth, the tablet falling onto his tongue.



brendon sighs in relife and allows frank to kiss him on the cheek. it takes a few moments but he can feel the drug taking affect. brendon looks up at the crew, he wants to see if anyone is watching them. his brown eyes scan the people milling around and brendon spots someone in the corner, leaning against the wall, an angry look on his handsome face.



brendon's brown eyes widen as he see's nate is the person leaning against the wall and by the look on his face he knows what brendon has done, he know's that brendon took ecstasy. there isn't a drug in the world that can keep the fear from leaking into brendon's stomach.