Slow Motion

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brendon's cell phone ring's as the boy is driving to william's house. he anwseres it even though it's a number he doesn't recongize.



"hello?" brendon ask's his car stopped at a red light.



"brendon?...it's pete." the boy's mouth drops open as he hear's pete's voice.



"hey-hey, pete...what's up?" brendon can't fathom why pete is calling him, why his voice sounds so deep.



"are you busy brendon?" is all pete replies and brendon isn't sure what to say. he can't very well tell pete where he is going.



"no...i'm not doing anything...this isn't your phone number pete...where are you?" brendon's brain is clicking with different anwsers, he hope's pete didn't go anywhere to get drug's, he hope's pete's still clean.



"oh, yeah..patrick made me get a new cell...incase you tried to call me." pete admits and brendon sigh's despite himself, it seems like something patrick would do.



"than why are you calling me?" brendon asks. he's smiling because their conversation's sorta sound like how they used to.



"i...i want to see you again." pete says and he's rushing it out like he's afraid of what brendon would say in response.



"what?..." brendon honestly can't believe he's hearing this, he think's it's like some sick joke that's being played on him but at the same time he know's that it isn't.



"i want to see you...like we used to see each other." pete repeats and a chill travels down brendon's spine. he doesn't know where this is coming from, this isn't the same pete from yesterday.



"pete..." brendon start's because he doesn't really know how to anwser that, doesn't know what to say.



"you don't have to anwser right now brendon, i-i just want you to think about it okay? and if you decide you want to see me again...like we used to...than just call me alright?" pete says and his voice is clear and painfully honest like that night in the hospital and that scares the shit out of brendon.



"okay, pete." he whispers and his chest feels tight and his heart is beating too rapidly.



"okay." pete replies and brendon hear's him hang up. he doesn't know what to say or think, he's unbelieveably confused. he wonder's what happened to the pete who wanted to give everything he had to patrick. where did that pete go? brendon know's he can't go to pete...can't go to him without them ending up fucking, without brendon ending up cheating on nate.



brendon pulls up infront of the house, parking out in the street. it's chilly today and brendon shoves his hand's into his hoodies pocket. the man he had called is already out on the porch waiting for him, waiting to give him what he needed so badly.



"long time, no see brendon." william say's as he drops off the cement porch of his house and saunters down the driveway. brendon think's he should be freezing in the small t-shirt and low rise jean's that william is wearing, but he doesn't seem to mind the weather as he sling's an arm around brendon's shoulders.



"yeah, sorry, william." brendon mutters as he sink's at the weight of william's arm. he doesn't tell william that he was attempting to get clean. william shrug's.



"it doesn't matter. you're here now so, just don't leave me alone too long." he say's and he presses his face down into brendon's hair and breathes him in. brendon nod's and william lowers his hand to brendon's wrist, taking a hold of him and tugging him down the cement driveway and toward's william's black car.



"william, where are we going?" brendon asks, he didn't think they were going anywhere. william looks down at brendon and smiles.



"we have to go to gabe's place...i happen to be out of supplies." william mutters before he prances to the driver's side of the car and slides in. brendon wonder's if william's been having more business or if he's just been dipping into his stash more than usual. brendon climbs into the car and they duo drive off to gabe's place.



brendon rest's his head against the cool passenger side window as william yammers about something that brendon can't follow. he's still feeling guilty, he's feeling guilty for what he know's he's about to do. brendon knew he was going to break one way or the other. he could've either cheated on nate with pete or do drugs. he chose the drugs, he was doing this for nate. it sounds insane, but he is.



the drug's are so brendon won't pick pete. so he won't cheat on nate. it's a lose, lose situation but at least brendon won't cheat on nate.



they pull up at gabe's large white house and brendon tries his best not to remember the event's that took place the last time he was here. william saunter's ahead of brendon and they spot gabe leaning over the metal railing of the porch, persumably waiting for them to arrive.



"there's my boys!" gabe calls and as usual he's decked out in all white, the perfect vision of an evil angel. he move's down the stairs and wraps william in a tight hug, brendon doesn't miss him kissing william on his cheek. gabe releases william and proceeds to move forward and he too pull's brendon in for a hug.



gabe breaks's away from brendon and he motion's for the two boy's to follow him into the house. brendon feel's uncomfortable but enters the house all the same. it look's the same as the last time he was here, he doesn't see victoria anywhere though and he wonder's if gabe dumped her for the stripper hayley.



william seem's to read brendon's mind "hey, gabe, where's vicky?" he ask's and gabe turn's back as he's heading to the living room. he shrug's.



"in the shower i think." he replies and the trio move into gabe's living room. gabe flop's down on the end of the red couch while william sit's beside him and brendon on the other end. "so...brendon came to you to get a fix william?" gabe ask's and william nod's, brendon wonder's if gabe is upset by that. both gabe and william are drug dealer's and brendon's been going to william longer then he has gabe but he occasionally buy's from both.



"and now you're coming to me to get more supplies and to get brendon his fix?" he add's and again william nod's. sometimes gabe can be a scary person but william never seem's to be afraid of him. brendon can't lie and say that he's never been afraid of gabe.



gabe saporta is one of the most unpredicatable people brendon know's. gabe's mind is always going, always's plotting and you don't want to be on his bad side.



gabe leaves briefly to grab his supplies, while he's gone william snuggles himself into brendon, his head resting on brendon's shoulder. "i missed you bren." he whispers and kisses brendon on the cheek. he doesn't really think william mean's anything by it, he's just an overly friendly person.



gabe return's with his case of drugs and pop's it open, setting it down on the glass table. william look's at it greedily and slide's up to gabe's side. the oldest of the three boy's chuckle's a bit as he divides the drug's, for them to use now and for what he'll end up selling to william and other's.



brendon isn't really focusing on the conversation. his head's still foggy with guilt and his heart is beating too fast. he can't stop thinking about pete's call, pete want's him back and it's hard for him to take. brendon doesn't think it's very fair, he broke up with pete first but he always loved him and pete was the one who said they should just be friends, but now he want's more.



gabe's voice pulls brendon from his thoughts and he look's over at the older boy's. he see's gabe is offering him some cocaine, one of brendon's favorite's. the youngest of the three look's at william, his head down to the glass table and he's snorting up his drug. brendon take's a deep breath and covinces himself that he's doing this to save his relationship before he take's the drug from gabe and lean's down to the table, copying william's actions.



brendon doesn't feel so bad afterward's, doesn't feel much at all. he think's it's because he's gone longer than usual without the drug so now it's effects are stronger. his entire body feel's numb and he's perfectly content to lean back against the couch, his eye's fluttering opened and closed.



he know's gabe and william are talking but he can't really make out what their saying. it take's him five minutes before he's fully able to soak in his surroundings.



"you back with us bren?" gabe says and he's laughing and brendon grin's and nod's. "well, i was trying to tell you something very important." gabe add's. and brendon is focusing on the older boy because if gabe says it's important than it probably is.



"what is it gabe?" brendon is worrying now, he can't help it, he think's it might be a side effect of the drugs. gabe crosses his leg's and lean's forward so he can see brendon over william.



"remember those two cop's that were snooping around you?" gabe starts and he slides his hand in his shirt pocket and lift's out a cigarette tucking it between his lips. brendon nod's.



"blackinton and higgenson." he recalls and either william doesn't care or already know's more than brendon thought he did because he's not even paying attention to either gabe or brendon. gabe nod's and lift's a red lighter off the glass table and light's his smoke.



"yeah, well, i talked to ryland recently and he told me that he can't hold tom off any longer. they're planning on coming back around to ask you some more questions." gabe tell's him, he inhales deeply and exhales, letting the silvery smoke swirl around his head.



that was rather important and brendon wishes gabe would've told him that earlier. he think's that this is it, this is when he'll get caught for killing brent, not that he doesn't deserve it but he just doesn't see any other way out.



gabe must spot the scared look on brendon's face because he laugh's and reaches over to pat brendon on the back. "don't be scared brendon, i'll think of something." gabe says and brendon doesn't even want to imagine the day when gabe want's to call in all the favors he's done for him.



being around william and gabe jog's something in brendon's mind, it make's him recall something from the past few week's.



"gabe?" brendon start's and gabe is watching him with an eyebrow raised as acknowledgement. "do you know if travis has a cousin?...a guy named tyga?" brendon is asking because he's really fucking curious as to whether or not that was really travis's cousin that he met back at the porno set. william look's up at the mention of travis because afterall they're still friend's and gabe's eye's go slightly wide.



"yeah," he nod's and take's the cigarette from his lip's putting it out. "a young guy, his real name is stephen...i think i've met him a few time's...why do you ask?" gabe replies.



"i met him a few week's ago..." brendon doesn't mention that he met him while he was filming a porn, he know's that gabe and william would be the type of guy's to buy that porn and never let it go.



"did you mention that you know travis?" gabe ask's and now william is staring at him intently, almost like he can see the thought's that are cycling through the oldest boy's mind. brendon shrugs.



"i said i kinda knew him...i gave him a fake name though." brendon assures in case gabe was worried about that sort of thing.



"what name?" william asks, injecting himself into the conversation.



"brenny." the youngest boy replies and william stifles a laugh but gabe doesn't.



"not very original brenny-boy." he says but he's smiling so brendon figures it will be alright.



gabe goes quiet and he rub's his chin and isn't really focusing on either william or brendon. "you know what you should do brendon?" he start's and brendon perk's up and look's over at gabe. "you should get ahold of tyga and invite him over to your place." gabe says and his eyes are bright like it's a grand idea.



"what?...why in the hell would i do that?" brendon spout's because even if tyga isn't travis, he still doesn't want him in the house, around ryan or spencer. gabe just sigh's as if the point is obvious.



"because tyga most likely get's his stuff from travis so, what would hurt travis more than if you stole away one of his customers." he says and he's grinning like an evil genius but brendon doesn't see the point.



"don't you think travis would give him a better deal?" william interjects and gabe shoot's him a look.



"all dear brendon has to do is offer him something better than what travis has to offer." gabe shoot's back and it kinda annoys brendon that they're talking like brendon isn't sitting right beside them.



"i'm not sure gabe..." brendon says meekly. he doesn't like to go against gabe, he know's he has experience and that he's usually right but he just doesn't want to get involved with anyone related to travis.



william lean's back against the couch and gabe and brendon are staring at each other. gabe reaches over and touches brendon's cheek. "listen, brendon." he starts and he leans in closer to brendon, their faces inches apart. "it will all be okay." he says and his voice is low and deep and he presses his lips to brendon's in a chaste kiss. "i promise." he add's after he pull's away. it's the first time gabe's ever kissed brendon and he doesn't like it, doesn't want it and he know's he's going into a dangerous territory but still he really want's to trust gabe.



brendon's eyes land on the clock that hung over the television and his heart jumps up. it's only an hour before nate get's out of work and he has to get going if he want's to beat his boyfriend home.



"i-i gotta get going." brendon mutters and he stand's up and brushes his hand's along his jeans. william look's up at brendon before he turn's his gaze to gabe and he lean's in and kisses the older boy slow and deep, almost like he want's gabe to remember it after he's gone.



william get's up after that and he hand's his car key's over to brendon before asking if he's okay to drive. brendon is okay to drive and he touches william's elbow and lead's him out of gabe's living room and back to the driveway. on the way out gabe call's out to brendon.



"bren, just call me before you call tyga alright?" he ask's and brendon look's back and nod's. he know's he basically has no choice in the matter.



brendon drives william home and picks up his own car. he's about halfway home before he remembers that he told spencer he was going out for groceries so he has to go back to the supermarket, the one where matt gave him a blowjob in the parking lot.



he buy's random items, it's more about speed than what he's actually buying and he leaves after having one bag full. he arrives home and find's that nate isn't back yet. brendon rushes into the house with the bag of groceries and he see's spencer and ryan looking up at him.



"i've got the groceries." he says and he tries not to sound out of breath. spencer stand's and ryan follow's much like a baby duck would follow it's mother. spencer sift's through the bag while ryan races to brendon and hold's out a picture book, one brendon doesn't recall ever seeing before.



"bre-brendon, spenc-spencer is te-teac-teaching-me!" he says and honestly ryan sound's better let alone happier than brendon's heard him in a while.



"that's great ryan, i'm proud of you." brendon smile's and ryan throws himself in brendon's arm's hugging him tightly. spencer is looking at the two of them and he's smiling too and brendon tries his best not to feel bad for letting down everyone important in his life.