Thunderlight - me, you and them
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Category:
Dir en grey › General
Rating:
Adult ++
Chapters:
14
Views:
2,853
Reviews:
22
Recommended:
0
Currently Reading:
0
Disclaimer:
This is a work of fiction. I do not know the members of Dir en grey. I do not make any money from the writing of this story.
Thunderlight
I don't own Dir en Grey.
This chapter will only be diary mode.
Thank you to readers and reviewers.
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Damn it! Why was I writing here in the first place?........ oh, sure, no one else should know what goes in my mind, but then again, neither I know that.
Today everyone left the studio, I stood there for my own sake... apparently I can only get something well done when I'm alone... I care, I do care... about the band, about them... but they shall never see my preocupation 'cause anyways, even if I'd show them, they wouldn't understand I guess.
You know I care about you, right?
I want to show my preocupation more than anything, but I can't, even if I wanted, I just can't... I end up seeming very distant and cold... Toshiya doesn't like that... I noticed the way he glares whenever I do that. Maybe the others feel that way too.
I worry about them... a lot... you know... I'll show my preocupation to Kaoru, but he will not be ready for it... eventually I will.................... no................ seriously......... I will!!! I'm telling you I will!
You know that story of the table, the glass and the dice???? Well, it's like this: you have 2 dice inside a glass, you shake the glass and throw the dice on the table, when the dice touch the surface of the table you can clearly realise and understand that the table is the floor, the dice are two stone blocks and the glass was a basket. Hm... it's easy to understand, you can always make an effort and do it by yourself....
I have something to tell you... I checked the pics again I took from the net, and even from some of our photobooks........................................... maybe I'm just being paranoid.................... maybe I'm just so obsessed I can't even imagine anything else...................... it would be perfect.................. but it's hard of course....................... we all know that if something is hard to get it means it's good....... if I ever get what I want, it means it will be perfect. We see the degree of perfection of things when we consider the dificulties we have to go through to reach them, right? Right!
What was that I was going to tell you....... my beloved Thunderlight II???????????????
Do you even pay attention to what I write?
In some pics I've collected, Kaoru keeps looking at my neck............. just thinking about it makes me shiver....... I never thought I could act like a fan myself.... I became a fan of Kaoru for a year now..... I guess it's being painful... oh.... yes it is....... but when I reach him, it will be perfect, because it's being a HELL to get him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm going to work now......... hopefully, I'll talk to him..... maybe one day, he'll play me like he plays Ganesa.
This chapter will only be diary mode.
Thank you to readers and reviewers.
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Damn it! Why was I writing here in the first place?........ oh, sure, no one else should know what goes in my mind, but then again, neither I know that.
Today everyone left the studio, I stood there for my own sake... apparently I can only get something well done when I'm alone... I care, I do care... about the band, about them... but they shall never see my preocupation 'cause anyways, even if I'd show them, they wouldn't understand I guess.
You know I care about you, right?
I want to show my preocupation more than anything, but I can't, even if I wanted, I just can't... I end up seeming very distant and cold... Toshiya doesn't like that... I noticed the way he glares whenever I do that. Maybe the others feel that way too.
I worry about them... a lot... you know... I'll show my preocupation to Kaoru, but he will not be ready for it... eventually I will.................... no................ seriously......... I will!!! I'm telling you I will!
You know that story of the table, the glass and the dice???? Well, it's like this: you have 2 dice inside a glass, you shake the glass and throw the dice on the table, when the dice touch the surface of the table you can clearly realise and understand that the table is the floor, the dice are two stone blocks and the glass was a basket. Hm... it's easy to understand, you can always make an effort and do it by yourself....
I have something to tell you... I checked the pics again I took from the net, and even from some of our photobooks........................................... maybe I'm just being paranoid.................... maybe I'm just so obsessed I can't even imagine anything else...................... it would be perfect.................. but it's hard of course....................... we all know that if something is hard to get it means it's good....... if I ever get what I want, it means it will be perfect. We see the degree of perfection of things when we consider the dificulties we have to go through to reach them, right? Right!
What was that I was going to tell you....... my beloved Thunderlight II???????????????
Do you even pay attention to what I write?
In some pics I've collected, Kaoru keeps looking at my neck............. just thinking about it makes me shiver....... I never thought I could act like a fan myself.... I became a fan of Kaoru for a year now..... I guess it's being painful... oh.... yes it is....... but when I reach him, it will be perfect, because it's being a HELL to get him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm going to work now......... hopefully, I'll talk to him..... maybe one day, he'll play me like he plays Ganesa.