Slow Motion

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Gabe drops him off outside his house, telling the younger boy that he owes him, bigger than any other favor he's ever done before. Brendon nod's and climb's out of the car, he doesn't know what he'll one day have to do for Gabe and he doesn't really want to know.



Brendon's car is back in the driveway and the light's are on in the house. As soon as Gabe's car squeals away the front door is pulled open and a figure is rushing out on to the porch. It's too tall to be Nate and too short to be Ryan so Brendon hurries up to the door because fuck, Spencer is standing on the porch.



"Brendon...where were you?" Spencer half shouts and Brendon's eyes widen before he moves up and shoves Spencer back into the house, his eyes scanning the driveway. Spencer look's half shocked and maybe a little scared. Brendon probably shouldn't have shoved him.



"Spencer! Why would you come outside? Jon could see." Brendon tell's him in a quick hushed breath. Spencer recovers quickly as Brendon shut's the door.



"He's sleeping I think." The younger boy replies. "But anwser me...where were you?" He says, he steps forward as Brendon scrub's a hand across his face. Brendon's sure his knee's are dirty, his wrist's have bruises from when he was handcuffed. Brendon guesses that Spencer caught sight of his bruised wrist's because now he's touching the underside, gently tipping the older boy's hand palm up, finger's running over bruises. "And how'd you get these?"



Brendon look's up at Spencer's expectant face, at how intently the younger boy is staring at him. Brendon jerk's his wrist away and take's a few casual step's back. "Where's Nate?" He's asking and Spencer look's towards the window.



"He's out looking for you." Spencer replies and he moves forward again, his hand on Brendon's shoulder. "What happened tonight?"



"Why do you care Spencer?" Brendon snap's, he doesn't mean to, he know's that Spencer is skiddish. Spencer doesn't shy away though, his eyes grow hard and he glares at Brendon.



"Because I was worried about you!" He says suddenly and their close, closer than they've ever been before, closer than they should be. Their staring at each other and it's just as sudden when Spencer kisses him. It's all soft and light and Spencer smell's really, really good.



Brendon pull's away though because Nate, Nate his boyfriend whose worried about him, his boyfriend that he should probably call. The two boy's pull away and Spencer is looking at him with wide eyes. "I-Uh-I'm going to call Nate." Brendon tell's the younger boy before he moves to the table and grab's up his cell phone, dialing his boyfriend.



It take's Brendon five minutes to convince Nate that yes, he really is alright and to come up with the story that William had come and picked him up to hang out. Nate still sound's pissed but also releaved that Brendon is actually okay so he tell's him he's coming over.



When Brendon's off the phone Spencer is still standing in the living room, watching Brendon with scared eyes, his arm's wrapped around himself in his typical kicked puppy fashion. The older boy just want's to ignore that the kiss every happened, call it a momentary laspe of judgement on Spencer's part and forget all about it. "I'm sorry." Spencer says moments later and Brendon sighs, apparently this is one subject that won't be dropped so easily.



"It's fine." Brendon tell's him and he has to keep in mind that Spencer is used to a relationship, is used to the notion that even looking at another guy is enough to get a few slap's, that he has to be a one guy-man. Brendon's used to getting kissed by people who aren't Nate, Gabe for example. It doesn't bother him and he's not going to tell Nate so why bother with this conversation at all?



Spencer perches himself on the arm of the chair and slip's his hand's into his hoodie pocket's. "It's not okay. I shouldn't have done it." He says and Brendon sighs.



"I told you it's not a big deal." Brendon is hoping that that will end the discussion.



"It's just that you've been so nice to me..Nate too and you let me stay here. You basically saved my life Brendon. And I don't want to ruin that, I just got carried away." Spencer is looking at him and Brendon look's back. There's a small silence between the two of them before Brendon speaks.



"Look, I'm not going to kick you out or anything. You're allowed to stay here for as long as you like Spencer." The younger boy smiles at that, light and easy and maybe finally, finally he's breaking away from Jon's spell over him.



"Oh! Brendon!" Spencer starts suddenly and Brendon look's up surprised. "It's Ryan. He did something great today." The boy continues.



"What'd he do?" The older of the two says. He's generally interested in what Ryan did because it's Ryan, his Ryan.



"He talked today without his stutter." Spencer informs him and Brendon grin's, a ridiculously big grin, the kind that Ryan used to make fun of. "It wasn't too much, just a few simple sentences you know? But he did it and I think he knew he did...he was really happy." The younger boy tell's him and it remind's Brendon of a overly proud parent.



"So I guess he really is getting better." Brendon states and it only serves to make him feel guilty, like he should've done what Spencer did. Spencer nod's and before much else can be said the front door open's and Nate is striding in, his gaze locked on Brendon's.



"Am I in trouble baby?" Brendon asks, flashing a grin at his boyfriend. Nate frowns for a split second before he grin's and move's over behind the couch. Brendon drop's his head back against the couch, staring up at his boyfriend.



"You're lucky you're so cute or I'd be pissed." Nate teases before he lean's down and kisses Brendon, hot and wet, Spencer watching with interested eyes.



"Bed?" Brendon asks.



"Bed." Nate anwsers and Brendon stand's and snuggles himself against Nate, willing himself to forget all about tonight event's. "Night Spencer." Nate says with a wave and Brendon echoes the statement, allowing Nate to lead him to the bed.



Spencer replies a good night and sit's in the living room alone. Ryan is asleep and those two will be fucking like bunnies in no time, something that Spencer doesn't really need to hear. He's been feeling kind of alone as of late, not that he isn't glad that he got away from Jon, it's just that now he has no one. Maybe that's the reason he kissed Brendon tonight, because he's been feeling so alone. It certainly doesn't help that he can hear Brendon and Nate fucking occasionally and that he found Nate's porn dvd. It's all leaving him horribly sexually frustrated as of late.



He goes to bed, or at least tries to moment's later, laying in the dark and trying hard not to listen to the sound's floating around from the backroom or how his dick is twitching. Spencer fall's asleep not long after that but he's woken up what feel's like moments later but could've been hour's by a body warm on top of his.



Spencer's first thought is 'Fuck, Jon!' and he's afraid that his older boyfriend finally found him. But the body is too small to be Jon so he think's Brendon? But his eyes flicker open and he's staring at the soft face of Ryan above him. "Ry? Ryan, what are you doing?" Spencer is asking, trying his best to ignore the way Ryan's body feel's so warm pressed tight against him.



"Brendon and Nate love each other?" Ryan asks curiously, or maybe he's stating, Spencer still isn't sure.



"Yeah, Ryan, Brendon and Nate are in love." Spencer is mortified by the fact that he's still hard, straining against his jean's. Ryan smiles.



"Ryan and Spencer are in love." Ryan tell's him with a smile and Spencer can only look confused before Ryan lean's down and kisses him, light and awkward like he doesn't know what he's doing but he can remember it, remember it from before the brain damage. Spencer's been wondering if Ryan and Brendon ever fooled around when Ryan was normal, he just hasn't been brave enough to ask.



This is all a little wrong, Ryan is like a child, innocent and isn't it fucking wrong if he let's this happen? Ryan doesn't really know what he's doing does he? Spencer might be lonely but can he really take advantage of someone like Ryan? Ryan slides his tongue along Spencer's bottom lip and the younger boy can't, he can't do this.



"Ry, Ryan, stop." Spencer tell's him, his hand's finding Ryan's chest and pushing him back lightly. Ryan move's back and look's at the older boy confused.



"Spencer, no love Ryan?" Ryan asks, his eyes wide and slightly watery. Spencer pushes up, reaches up and lays his hand on the older boy's shoulder.



"Spencer loves Ryan but in a different way." Spencer tells him and he doesn't expect Ryan to understand, know's the boy won't get it but hopefully his feelings won't get hurt. Ryan seem's to understand and he smiles and nod's.



"Can Ryan sleep out here with you?" Ryan asks quietly and Spencer smiles and nod's. Lay's back on the couch as Ryan curls up around him to sleep, Spencer's hand's wrapping around the small of Ryan's back protectively.



Brendon was still awake after he and Nate fucked. It looked like sex wasn't going to be enough to ease his thought heavy mind into sleep. He laid awake thinking about Tyga and Ryland, Tom and Gabe, and Ryan. What if Ryan did get better? What if he could be okay again? Thing's would change and maybe Brendon could apologize for fighting with him the night of his accident.



Thinking of Ryan lead's Brendon to other thing's, to about how he and Ryan used to fool around. About when he used to hold Ryan down and fuck him into the mattress, hard, until the older boy would scream. About how Ryan used to like to wake Brendon up with blowjob's in the middle of the night and Ryan would smell and taste like other guy's but Brendon wouldn't care.



Brendon won't lie, sometimes he misses those thing's, kissing Ryan and them fucking but he has Nate now and he love's Nate and he doesn't think that the older boy becoming right again can change that.