night time talks

Carrie's pov





Carrie paused as she got to the bus, she could feel Amy right behind her. Something wasn't right, she knew she shouldn't be doing this.



'I...i don't think this is such a good idea now.........' Carrie turned seeing Amy right behind her.



'Yea well it's a bus......but im sure it's nice inside.....'Carrie felt the assistants hands on her hip as she pushed her forward.



'No I mean I don't think you should come in.......i want to be alone.........'



'No you don't.......Look can we go inside.....it's kind of cold out here.......'



'I don't think........'



'You don't have to think........'Amy interrupted. 'What's your heart telling you to do........'



'Run......'Carrie suggested.



'No....'Amy shook her head while her other hand moved to Carrie's hip. 'We know if something happens inside that bus I won't tell any one......no one needs to know.......'



Amy.......'Carrie shook her head in disbelief. ' I love my wife......nothing is going to happen inside that bus.......'



'Ok so you love her....but does she love you.......she wasn't even here on your opening night........' Carrie tried to talk but nothing was coming out. 'Not even a phone call......'Amy had her there. she hadn't heard from Kelly since the night before.



'I know she loves me.........'



'Or you know she loved you.......' Amy removed her hands from Carrie's hips, folding them across her chest. ' Can we go inside it's freezing......'



'She loves me......'Carrie said strongly.



'Yet she's not here........'Amy answered smugly.



'Amy can you leave........your not getting in the bus.......' Carrie moved closer to the bus door as she felt Amy's hand on her arm.



'Why are you fighting this.......'



'Fighting what?.,........'Carrie breathed out in frustration.



'This......'Amy waved her hands between their bodies. ' You know it's going to happen sooner or later.......' Carrie shook her head.



'Amy leave......I can't say it any clearer than that........'



'Well I can't......'Amy looked around the empty car park. 'The other bus is away........you going to leave me out in the dark on my own?.........'



'Damn right she is........'Carrie spun around hearing her wife's voice behind her.



'Kelly.?........' Kelly walked down the steps jumping from the last to stand beside her wife.



'Get on the bus Carrie.......' Kelly's voice was strong.



'Kelly......'



'Carrie bus.........'Carrie didn't need to be told again, quickly climbing the stairs carrie left her wife alone with the little she devil.





Kelly's pov.





Last year I met you........'Kelly folded her arms across her chest. She looked down at the blond in front of her, happy to be around someone smaller than herself. 'And even then I hated you......'Kelly smiled as Amy took a step back.



'I don't know what you heard but........'



'I'm talking not you.......' Kelly pushed the bus door closed so Carrie wouldn't hear. 'I knew the minute I layed eyes on you that you would be trouble.......just the way you looked at my wife........'Kelly smiled a little. 'Hell I even felt sorry for you......chancing something you would never get........i just thought you were a silly little girl...........but I was wrong.......' Kelly moved a step forward causing Amy to take a step back. 'Your one dangerous little bitch.........'



'You can't.......'



'I can do what I want here........' Kelly was now a few steps away from the bus, every time she moved Amy moved too. 'When Carrie was promoting her last album you went with her .......and that is where all this started......all my little doubts about my wife.....came from you.......you put them there......'Kelly pointed her finger against Amy's shoulder. ' And I let you do it......i let you make me think that Carrie was having an affair............and she's to trusting to do anything about it........she trusted you......and you almost ruined her marriage........' Kelly stopped talking as she watched the spark in Amy's eye at the mention of something wrong in their marriage. ' I said almost bitch.........you tried but you didn't win......You didn't get her.......'



'I still can.......you think she's going to let you control her forever......order her around......if she wants me she'll have me.......'



'She doesn't want you.....'Kelly couldn't help but laugh. 'Didn't you hear her....she doesn't want you....'



'I don't have to stand here and listen to this.....'Amy tried to walk back to the bus but Kelly stopped her.



'You don't have to......your fired......'



'You don't have the authority....... '



'I'll get it......but you will not be working with my wife again.....ever.......' Kelly turned to walk away.



'You can't leave me here........' Amy looked around the dark car park.



'There's a phone in those tress somewhere.......call a cab........'Kelly walked towards the bus.





Carrie's pov





Carrie sat biting her nails as she sat on the bed, her heart was beating so fast she could feel it running through her finger tips. Kelly had heard her, She now had to face whatever her wife had to say. She could hear the door open and shut, Foot steps walking towards her. She prayed they were Kelly's, a sick feeling at the bottom of her stomach was telling her it could be Amy. Kelly could have gave up and walked away. As the bedroom door opened Carrie closed her eyes tight, to afraid to face the reality of it all. The door closed again, the bed dipped as someone sat beside her. A warm hand on her thigh, Carrie let out a shaky breath.



'Kelly........'She knew her wife's touch any where.



'Yea.....open your eyes.......' Kelly soft voice fill then small room as Carrie turned to look at her.



'I'm sorry........'



'You should be........'



'Dont hate me.......'Carrie shook her head lightly as tears began to run down her cheeks.



'I don't hate you......'Kelly sighed, her hand down gently running up and down her wife's thigh. 'I just get so mad with you........'



'I know.....'Carrie bit her bottom lip as she tried not to cry.



'You do really stupid things......some times it's like your trying to ruin this marriage.......'



'I'm not.....'Carrie choked out.



'I know your not.....'Kelly sighed. 'You just do stupid things.......' Carrie felt her wife's hand move from her thigh as she stood. She watched the blond move towards the door.



'Kelly...pl...please don't leave me.........'Carrie couldn't keep it together now. Kelly ignored her as she went for the door handle. Carrie let out a loud sob as Kelly left the bedroom. She listened carefully for the door to slam shut but didn't hear anything. She could see movement as Kelly walked back into the bedroom with a box of tissues in her hands.



'Did that feel bad?.......'Kelly's voice was different now. Colder.



'What?.....'



'Not knowing if I was coming back or not.......' Kelly handed her wife a tissue. 'Not nice is it......'



'No.....'Carrie whispered as she wiped her tears away.



'Try doing that every night........try sitting up wondering if your wife is going to come home or not........' Carrie looked up at her wife.



'I didn't mean to....' Carrie choked out.



'Maybe not but you did........i sat up for hours waiting for you........and when you did get home I got some excuse without any real reason for you being out.........'



'Im wrong........' Carrie looked down at her hands again.



'And im wrong.....'Kelly sighed as she fell to her knees in front of Carrie. 'We're so pig headed.......'Kelly's eyes began to well up.



'I want to fix this.......'Carrie kept her eyes focused on her hands in her lap.



'Me too.....'Kelly whispered softly. 'But I need you to hear some things first.........'Carrie lifted her head. The look in her wife's eyes made her think this talk wouldn't be an easier one.



'Ok......'Carrie felt Kelly slip her heads into her own.



'When you went to New York for those meetings last year.....remember.......i couldn't go with you......'



'I remember.......'Carrie breathed.



'Our marriage started going wrong then..........'Carrie looked at her wife in shock.





Kelly's pov





Flashback.





'She's on......'Kelly rushed towards the living room as she heard Ashley shout.



'God she's so sexy .....'Kelly sighed as she watched her wife on tv.



'I'm eating.......'Ashley complained.



'But look at her.........'Kelly couldn't take her eyes off the screen in front of her. Carrie sang in front of the small crowd of people at Mtv.



'Not really my type......'Ashley commented.



'I wish I was there........'



'And why aren't you?.....'Ashley quizzed.



'Cause that silly little assistant didn't arrange her...........i'll never understand why Carrie insists on keeping her around..........' Kelly complained. Carrie's new assistant Amy wasn't really the type to deal with being an assistant but Carrie had told her it would all work out. The girl would learn her job.



'Maybe cause she's close to her age.........'Ashley suggested. ' look you have me when your away from home......Carrie's usually around a group of middle age men......maybe having someone her own age is good for her...........'



'Maybe.....'Kelly sighed.





End of Flashback





Carrie's pov





Carrie thought back to that weekend,All of it coming flooding back





Flashback.





'Great set Carrie........'Carrie smiled at the little blond in front of her.



'thanks Amy........Did Kelly call?.....'Carrie removed her cell from Amy's hand.



'Not yet........but enjoy the freedom.......'Amy bumped her hip with Carrie's.



'Ha.....yea my marriage isn't really like most........i happen to enjoy it.......But I should give her a call......make sure I was singing in tune back there.........'Carrie dialled the number as Amy stood beside her. She was hoping the blond would have walked away, give her some privacy but no such luck.



'Yellow.......'Carrie smiled at her wife's way of answering the phone.



'Did your idol do good?........'Carrie could hear Ashley gag on the other side. ' im on speaker phone right?.....'



'Totally.....'Kelly giggled.



'So......'Carrie took a few steps away from Amy........'If I tell you I want to run my tongue over your.......'



'Lalalalalalal......'Carrie giggled as she heard Ashley.



'Baby take me off speaker phone........' Carrie listened for the click.



'Ok it's just you and me.....'Kelly giggled, carrie smiled as she looked at Amy, she wished that was true.



'So my tongue.....'Carrie tried to say quietly.



'Where is it?.....'Kelly whispered.



'In my mouth.....'



'Oh my god....'Kelly giggled. ' you are hopeless at phone sex........'



'Kelly im in an mtv studio....really not the time for that.......'



'Bet you wish it was.....'Kelly whispered.



'Oh yea......'Carrie sighed.



'Want to know what im touching right now?......'Kelly's voice suddenly became very soft.



'Mmmmm......' Carrie couldn't talk.



'Well....'Kelly began.. ' it's holding........this really nice cupcake Ashley baked earlier.........' Kelly bit her lip so she wouldn't laugh.



'That....well that's just cruel........' Carrie tried to recover.



'Carrie....come on lets get back to the hotel........'Carrie turned to look at Amy.She couldn't believe the young blond had just said something like that. It made it sound wrong.



'Who's that?.....'Kelly tried to sound like she didn't care but her stomach turned at the sound of the voice .



'It's Amy......'Carrie was still looking at the blonde in shock.



'Well i'll let you go.....'Kelly was in shock herself,



'Kelly.....'



'No.....ash needs me anyway......call me later?......' Kelly's voice was forced.



'Yea......'Carrie nodded as she moved a step towards Amy. ' I love you Kelly......' Carrie made sure Amy heard. She didn't need any trouble from the new girl.



'I love you too baby........'





End of Flashback





Kelly's pov.





Flashback





'Just call her......'Ashley pushed the phone into her best friends hand



'But what if she's busy......'



'And.?....call her.......' Ashley sat beside her as Kelly dialled the number.



'It's ringing.....'



'That's a start....'Ashley smiled.



'Ehh Carrie?.........' Kelly was sure she dialled Carrie's number but this wasn't Carrie.



'She's not here right now can I help......'



'And you are?......'



'And friend.....'



'This is Carrie's wife.....'Kelly said coldly.



'I know....i recognise the voice.......'



'Ok.....who are you.....'Kelly was bored now.



'Amy....'came the happy voice.



'And why do you have my wife's phone.......'



'she's in the shower.......im just laying here on the bed waiting for her......we're going to dinner.......'Kelly felt like the wind had been knocked out of her.



'Ok...well...can you tell her to call me......the minute she gets out of the shower......'Kelly hung up before Amy to reply.



'What happened?.......'Ashley removed the phone from Kelly's hands.



'Amy informed me my wife is in the shower......'Kelly shook her head as she lay back against the sofa.





End Of Flashback





'That was the beginning.......'Kelly sighed.



'I......'Carrie couldn't talk. Her whole body shook from crying.



'It didn't hit me till tonight.......'Kelly continued. 'All these little doubts I have......she gave me them.......but you helped her......'Kelly watched Carrie shake her head. 'You did.....you might not have known it but you did.......every time you went out to dinner with her......every time you let her answer your phone.......i had to sit at home and think about what you could be up to with her.......'



'I never did any thing......'Carrie choked out.



'I know that now.....but for months I thought it was true.......'Kelly leaned up wiping a tear away from Carrie's cheek .



'All because of her?.....'Carrie asked quietly.



'She was the start of it.....'Kelly wiped away another tear from her wife's face. 'the rest of the damage we did ourselves.......now.....we need to decide if we want to fix it.......'Kelly whispered the last part.



'Of course I do.......i don't want you to leave me.......'



'Ok......'Kelly placed both her hands on Carrie's cheek. Leaving a small kiss on her wife's lips she lifted herself from the floor. 'That's enough for tonight......'



'What happens now.....'Carrie blinked back more tears that threatened to spill.



'Now we sleep.....'



'Together?......'Carrie asked quietly.



'Yea.....'Kelly nodded. Sliding the sheets back Kelly let Carrie in first before sliding in behind her. Carrie's body fit perfectly against Kelly's as they both settled together. Kelly's hand snaked round till it was resting gently on Carrie's stomach.



'Thank you......'Carrie whispered.



'For what?.....'



'Loving me......'Carrie answered. Kelly smiled softly before leaving a small kiss on her wife's shoulder.



'I can't help it......'Kelly admitted.