night time talks

Carrie's pov





'Well isn't this nice......'Carrie smiled at her mother as she heard her talk, her smile quickly fading as her eye's caught Jeanne's



'And cosy.....'Stephen added. All five of them squeezed into the same table on the bus as they ate the breakfast Kelly had cooked.



'Pass the salt.......'Jeanne's cold voice filled the bus as Kelly and Carrie both jumped for the salt.



'Oh that''s a very unhealthy thing to add to your food........' Carrie's mother shook her head. 'we wouldn't want you to get sick........' A very long silence filled the bus as both mothers looked at each other carefully. Carrie was waiting, just waiting for Jeanne to raise herself from the table and leave. She was also waiting for her mother to reach across and rip out the older woman's hair. Her eyes fell on her wife, sitting in the corner looking tired. Carrie knew this was taking it's toll on her, she loved her mother a lot and didn't want to see her getting attacked.



'Ca......can you pass the salt after you Jeanne......' Carrie could feel Kelly smiling at her as the older woman pushed the salt towards her.



'Nice try baby..........'





Kelly's pov





Kelly lay across the bed waiting for Carrie to get out the shower. Her mother went along with Carrie's parents to check out their seats for the night. Kelly was happy her mother was staying to watch the show. Of all the concerts Carrie had done over the five years Jeanne had never seen one.



'So....you think my mother will behave......'Kelly looked up to see her wife standing in just a towel in front of her.



' I hope.......my mother seems to be going all quiet while yours is acting up.......'



'Yea......i'll tell her to stop.......' Carrie grabbed another towel for her hair.



'I know she's trying to help.......but I just don't want another family fight.........'Kelly removed the towel from Carrie's hands. 'Sit......' Carrie sat on the bed while Kelly knelt behind her.



'We should be our own little family ......forget the rest of them.......'



'We try.......'Kelly began gently rubbing the towel over Carrie's wet hair. Her fingertips softly digging into her scalp as she began to dry her hair.



'Yea.....'Carrie laughed. 'They keep following us..........'



'Yep.....the only thing we could do is move........' Kelly let the towel drop as her hands weaved their way into Carrie's long hair.



'Like to London........' Carrie suggested.



'Rains to much.......'



'Egypt.......'



'Too hot......'Kelly giggled. Grabbing the brush from the bedside Kelly began slowly running it through her wife's hair.



'Australia?.......' Kelly's eyes lit up.



'I love it there.....'



'I know.....'Carrie smiled.



'A beach house........'



'On a nudist beach?......'Carrie asked with a smile.



'You want to enjoy your morning coffee by watching the over 60's enjoy their morning naked walk......'



'Ewww......'



'Exactly.....'Kelly giggled. 'But a beach house would be great........we could bike ride every morning........lay on the beach reading in the afternoon.......eat dinner on the deck.......'Kelly was getting excited now. 'Oh fall asleep under the stars.......' Kelly continued to brush Carrie's hair.



'Kelly.....Kelly......'Carrie turned taking the brush from her hand.



'Sorry.....i got excited.......'



'We started as a joke.......But.......'



'I know I know.....'Kelly interrupted. ' sorry.....i got a little serious.....'



'You did.....'Carrie agreed. 'sounds like something you might like doing though..........'



'Maybe....'Kelly shrugged. 'You do know I love it there......'



'I know ....'Carrie smiled ' would you like your life to be like that.........' Carrie turned to let Kelly brush her hair again.



'It sounds nice.......calm......no stress......'



'No family.......' Carrie added.



'And no family.....'Kelly giggled.



'No career.....'Carrie pointed out.



'What?.....'



'When you described it all.......you didn't say anything about a career......so singing......'



'We would sing......'



'On stage?........'Carrie quizzed.



'Or in the shower.......I don't know......we don't know what the future holds.......'



'True.....but that's your perfect future.........'



'One of them......'Kelly stopped brushing as she began pulling it into a loose ponytail.



'You have more than one future......'Carrie asked as she tried not to laugh.



'More than one dream.......i also dream of staying in texas raising a few kids and only singing when I want to.......'



'Kids......'Carrie smiled. ' you always told people you didn't want kids........before I met you I would read that you didn't want them......'



'I used to say that.........'



'You told me when Jakob was born that you thought about it.....'Carrie pointed out.



'Yea......i think about it.......'



'And you want to.........'



'Yea.....'Kelly sighed as she lay flat against the bed. Carrie quickly lay behind her pulling Kelly into her body.



'So why did you always say you didn't want them.......'Carrie rested her chin on Kelly's shoulder. ' ive always wondered why you said that.......'



'I was preparing for the future.......'



'By joking with interviewers that you would be a horrible mother?.......'



'In a weird way yes........i didn't think I would find someone I wanted to spend the rest of my life with.......so the idea of kids was so far away.........' Kelly turned to face Carrie. ' I just didn't want people to feel sorry for me.........look at poor Kelly still not married ......still no kids......i guess I just

pretended not to want it.......so when I didn't get it I wouldn't look so pathetic.........' Kelly sighed as she closed her eyes. 'Pretty stupid right?,.......'



'No......'Carrie sighed. ' I get it......you were protecting yourself from disappointment........i get it.......' Kelly felt Carrie's lips press lightly against her own before she moved back a little. 'But.....you have that relationship.......you've got your soul mate.......'



'Mmmm I have......'Kelly lazily ran her hand over Carrie's thigh.



'So it's ok to admit you want kids........You don't need to protect yourself now........' Kelly lay silent watching her wife closely.



'I want.....'Kelly whispered quietly.



'Me too.....'Carrie whispered back. 'But.....' Kelly closed her eyes as she heard the last word.



'But not now.?'



'Not now.....'Carrie answered.



'I get that......we need to fix us first.......'



'Exactly.....'Carrie smiled. 'and when we do......kids will be the first thing we talk about........'



'Four?.....'Kelly asked with a smile.



'Four what?.....'



'Kids......'Kelly answered.



'Four.......'Carrie laughed.



'Yea.......'



'God help us.......'Carrie giggled as she pulled Kelly towards her.