heartache every moment *RE-POSTED*

AUTHORS NOTES- sorry this is taking so long to get to the steamy scenes but this is a story not a pwp so bear with me!!

DISCLAIMER- I still own nothing! although if you own Ville and want to sell him, email me!!!!!


Bam excused himself from the room with the excuse of going to the cigarette machine down the hall, knowing that he needed to calm his anger a little before he did anything. After taking his frustrations out on the wall for a while, he went back in the room and locked the door, turning to find that Ville had passed out in the middle of his bed.

Grinning to himself, Bam looked around the room for something to use as restraints, finally settling on the ties holding back the curtains. He climbed on to the bed next to Ville, and carefully removed the singers shirt and tied his hands to the headboard, making sure not to wake him. Bam lay there for a while just watching the sleeping angel next to him but was soon itching to do a lot more than look.


Ville woke, startled as he felt ice cold cover him and opened his eyes to see Bam sitting next to him on the bed, grinning and holding an empty ice bucket over him. " What the hell..." Ville started until he realized that he couldn't move his arms.

"Sorry Ville, shaking you wasn't working and i had to wake you up somehow"

"ok, but why am I tied up? what are you playing at Bam?"

" I'M NOT PLAYING AT ANYTHING, I'M JUST FUCKING FED UP OF WAITING FOR YOU TO NOTICE THE TRUTH" Bam yelled angrily, unable to control the emotions inside him any more

" Bam, calm down. Just tell me what's wrong and I can help, you know I'd do anything to help you"

" You're what's wrong, but don't worry, it's gonna be ok now cos I finally have what I want"

A slight shiver of fear went down Ville's spine at how eerily calm Bam's voice was now and at his words, but Bam was his best friend, he wouldn't do anything stupid....would he?

" I don't understand what you mean, what have I done to upset you? and what do you mean, you have what you want?"

Bam absently started tracing the heartagram tattoo around Ville's nipple as he answered. " You flirt with every guy you see, you were practically humping that guys leg down at the party and yet you never even looked at me like I was anything more than a friend. If you care for me so much then how come you still don't realize how much that hurts? how come you don't see how much i love you?"

with that statement, Bam pinched Villes nipple hard, hard enough to bring tears to his eyes and for him to cry out in pain, sobering up quickly through the pain and shock he had just recieved

" Are you serious? I never realized you felt that way about me, you never said anything. I'm sorry Bam, I love you, but only as a friend and nothing more so let me up and we can talk"

" No. You teased me for years with those men that you probably don't even remember the names of. Well I remember, every single guy because every time, you hurt me more and more and I've had enough. I'm going to get what I want, and I want you."

Ville started to panic at the blank, uncaring look on Bam's face and the forcefulness of his words. "Bam come on, you don't want to do this, you're drunk and i'm pretty sure I saw you smoking a joint earlier, you just need to sleep it off and we can talk in the morning" Ville kept tugging at the ties round his wrists, hoping to break free but quickly realizing that even though Bam was drunk AND stoned, he'd still tied the ropes pretty strongly. He didn't stand a chance.

"actually I really do want to do this, I've wanted you for so long my love" Bam pressed his lips agianst Ville's, tounge begging for entry that was denied as Ville turned his head aside to escape Bam's kiss. Bam pinched Ville's nipple again, already red and sore from the last assault on it, and as Ville yelped in pain, Bam took the oppertunity to thrust his tongue inside the singers mouth.

He moaned in pleasure at the feeling of his first kiss with the man he loved, but it turned into a yelp as Ville viciously bit down on his tongue.

" Bastard!" Bam backhanded Ville in the face and spat blood onto the floor of the hotel room. " don't push me Ville, I don't want to hurt you, I love you, but I will get what I want, you're so willing to spread your legs for everyone else, it's my turn now"

Ville stayed quiet, realizing that saying the wrong thing might anger Bam even more and the throbbing in his cheek was telling him that upsetting Bam was a bad idea

Bam kissed Ville deeply and this time Ville let him, until he felt a hand undoing his jeans.

" Bam please don't" Ville begged, even as the last of his clothes were thrown across the room and Bam started to undress himself. Bam moved down the bed and took Ville's cock in his mouth deep throating him even as Ville reluctantly started to respond to the expert blow job he was recieving. Before long Ville was experiencing the most intense orgasm of his life, all the time hating himself for getting aroused in the first place and hoping that Bam would be satisfied with just that, but knowing deep down that he wouldn't.


I will finish this story eventually, i promise!, it's just taking longer than i thought, i will carry it on if people are enjoying it. please let me know, but if you are going to critisize please do so constructively, thank you!