Sad but True
Savin' Me
A/N: Hahaha. Those of you that noticed, yes, I did two chapters in one day. That's because I didn't have anything to do, and no where to go. Please don't expect another one like that, but maybe I'll keep you guys guessing. So, here is chapter Four! Oh, and if you have a song that you like, give me the name, and maybe I can use it as a chapter title. Now, on to the story!
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They were still at the park, sitting by the same stream. Neither of them had said a word for about an hour now.
Benji sighed. He wanted to tell Joel so bad, and this was his chance.
"Joel?"
"Yeah?"
"This guy I like...."
"Yeah?"
"If me and him went out, would the guys mind? That I'm gay?" He couldn't do it. /What the fuck? This is harder
than it looks./
"No. They love you, Benj. Whatever makes you happy is fine by them. Unless you start killing people, cuz that's
scary." They laughed, and Benji and Joel unconsciously scooted closer to each other.
"What if it was....a band member that makes me happy?" Joel straightened up at the news that it was one of the
guys. He was scared now, because he was still mad at the guy who didn't like his brother. /I will force them to
like him if I have to./
"Then I say you should tell him."
"And if he hates me?"
"You can beat me up."
"Cool." The time for telling Joel had passed. Getting up, he decided to head back home. "Joel, can I borrow your
car? I wanna go home."
"Yeah....just, be careful. It's my baby!" Laughing, he handed Benji the keys. Then they walked back to the
studio together. After watching Benji drive off, he headed to Wal-Mart. /I can't take it anymore. Knowing that I
love him, but that he loves someone else. How am I supposed to get over that?/ He bought several razor blade
refills and put them in his pocket. He went back to the studio, and got a ride home from Billy.
When he got home, he went into his bedroom and broke open the razors. Pulling one out, he thought about what he
was going to do. /It'll be messy, I should do it in the bathroom./ Taking off his shirt and shoes, he headed
into the bathroom. Sitting down on the edge of the tub, he put the blade on his wrist.
Benji heard Joel come in and decided that telling Joel the truth would be better than having to lie to him. He
got up and walked into Joel's room. He looked around and saw the bathroom light on. Opening the bathroom door,
he found his brother about to slit his wrist. He ran over to Joel and grabbed the blade, only cutting himself a
little.
"Joel, what the fuck do you think you're doing? What are you, stupid?" His face softened as Joel began to cry.
Pulling his brother onto his lap, he bagan to rock him back and forth.
"I'm sorry! I couldn't...stand these feelings inside of myself, and they've only been there for two days!"
"What feelings, Joel? You gay too?" His heart was lifting at what he knew *had* to be true. If only he could get
up the courage to tell Joel the whole truth. He didn't know that Joel was ready to tell, too.
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A/N: YAY! Another chapter finished! So far I have kept to my goal of adding a new chapter everyday. So if you like it, hate it, or just don't know: push that little button that says review! I can't write new chapters if you don't tell me you like it! Good or bad comments are welcome! Keep the poor gay author alive!!! And thanx to those who already *do* review my story. *dances* I'll be back....