Moving On

Jen left work at 6 that evening and went home before she went over to Sean’s. She wanted to take a shower and grab a quick bite to eat. Before she left she checked herself in the mirror. She looked like shit she thought. Her eyes were all red and swollen like she had been crying too much and from her lack of sleep the night before. She left for his house at 8 that evening.

She pulled her Escape up to Sean’s house and sat for a few minutes thinking was this the right thing to do. She had to tell him, she had kept this pent up for 5 years now and it had ruined every relationship she ever had. She stepped out of her SUV and walked to his front door hesitant to ring the door bell, but he opened the door before she even had a chance.

“You made it, come on in.” he said letting her in.

Jen followed him into the house into the kitchen.

“Drink?”

Lemonade if you have any.”

Sean made her a glass of lemonade and handed it to her. She walked into the living room and she sat down on the couch sipping her drink. Sean sat down next to her and she gazed at him.

“I don’t know where to start.” She finally said looking down at her drink.

“Where ever you want.” He gave her a reassuring smile.

Jen sat her glass on the end table next to her and clasped her hand in front of her, wringing them together feeling nervous about what she had to tell him.

“Well it happened 5 years ago. I had met the most wonderful man, and we were engaged to be married. He treated me like such a princess, spoiled me and everything. I thought I could trust him, but they all changed in one night.”

“What happened?”

“This is where it gets hard for me to tell.” She said.

Sean put his arms around her drew her up against him. She sighed at the feeling of having his massive arms around her.

“Well the week before our wedding, he went out with his best friend for a night of drinking and partying. I had stayed home to watch some movies and have some time to myself. I had fell asleep on the couch that night, and at 4 am I heard him and his buddy come home, completely wasted the both of them. Then my fiancé, Josh that was his name, started asking who the guy was that I had been fucking behind his back. Of course I didn’t know what he was talking about. He said his friend there had heard otherwise. I was in complete shock of course; I would never cheat on him or anybody I was with.”

Sean was running his hands along the length of her hair smoothing it as she told her story. Her hair was so soft under his touch, and smelled of apples.

“That’s not the worst of it.” She started to say feeling the tears start to build in her eyes.

“What did the fucker do to you?” he asked. She could tell he was getting angry with Josh even though he did not know him.

“Well after I accused him being a fucking liar this pissed him off big time. Next thing I know…..”her voice started to break “He and his friend….”she felt the tears spill down her cheeks this time and she took a deep breath before going one. “He and his friend beat the shit out of me in a drunken rage.” She cried. “After they finished beating me up, Josh drug me to the bedroom and his friend followed and they both raped me several times, laughing the whole time. God, it was horrible. They left me pretty much battered and violated on that bed.” She cried burying her face into Sean’s chest.

Sean rubbed his hands up and down her back trying to comfort her.

“Did you turn him in?”

“No, I couldn’t I was too scared. Then a month after that I found out I was pregnant by one of them, so of course I got an abortion not wanting anyone to know what happened. I would not have done that, but I was so scared. I left him the next day. I never told anyone about this, you are the first.”

“I’m so sorry you went thru that baby.” He said looking down at her.

“That is the reason I acted like I did last night. I’m so scared to let anyone get close to me, I have never been with anyone….sexually… since that night, and it has always ruined my past relationships. I really want to learn to love again, emotionally and physcially.”

“We can work on that” he told her brushing the tears off her cheeks with his thumb.

She gave him a weak smile before laying her head on his chest, listening to the beat of his heart. She felt herself growing sleepy and her eyelids fell closed. Sean looked down and saw her breathing had slowed, and that is when he noticed she had fallen asleep. She looked so beautiful when she slept. He leaned down and lightly kissed her forehead not wanting to disturb her to much.

The car that had followed Jen’s SUV to Seans and parked near it pulled away from the house. He would get her back he thought, come hell or high water, he would have her back.