You Learn To Love the Pain You Feel

"Don't go! Tell me why the bi thing-a-majig bothers you so much."

"I have an ex ok.."
"He was bi huh?"
"Yep."
"He cheated huh?"
"Yep."
"With a guy huh?"
"Yep."
"I'm not like that."
"Yep."
"I love you Shirley."
"Yep."
"Can you say anything but 'yep?'"
"Yep. Wait, did you just say you loved me?"

I felt a lump in my throat. I fought hard to keep the tears that were appearing in my eyes from falling...I lost that battle. I closed my eyes and allowed the tears to fall down my cheeks. I was burning up and had to get away from Billie.


"I said I loved you." he mumbled behind me as I briskly walked off and into the hotel.
"I don't think you love me. I know you don't love me. It was only sex and it was fun while it lasted but I'm afraid I must take my leave. Thank you for the liquor and even more memories to haunt me for the rest of my life."
"God, your so cynical sometimes."
"Look who's talking!"
"Sorry, I just...trust me."
"Afraid I can't."
"You have to take a risk to learn stuff Shirl."
"I've learned enough in my life thank you."


I grabbed my things and walked out the door. I didn't stop until I reached the elevators and then pushed the button with the arrow pointing down. I heard footsteps coming my way and I started pressing the button thousands of times in a row in a frantic panic. A hand slid onto my waist.


"I really do, whether you believe me or not. You don't have to trust me. Just take a test drive and if you don't like it or if the trust level is so low that ,you know, you can't take it anymore, leave me."


I sighed as I heard the little 'ding' of the elevator. I stepped onto it and pushed the necessary buttons. The doors closed but not before Billie entered the elevator himself. I became claustrophobic and felt the like the walls were closing in on me. Then the elevator stopped. I looked up at the door and it wasn't opening. I looked at the screen that told you what level you were on . We weren't on level one, we were on level two.

I nearly drove myself insane trying to figure out what happened. I leaned in front of Billie to push the emergency button. He hand grabbed my arm before I could. I took a deep breath and reassured myself that Billie wasn't an ax murderer and wasn't going to kill me.


"I stopped it." he said as his voice shook.
"Why?"
"To get you to talk to me."
"I really think you should un-stop it so I can get out of this hell hole."
"It's ok, I promise. This 'hell hole' isn't that bad alright?"
"Maybe to you it-"


Before I could continue Billie kissed me. I didn't fight him but I did act as if I wasn't enjoying it. I couldn't let myself show a weakness. Eventually he got to me as pulled his pants down. I moaned when I looked at his fully erect penis and then let him take me.


"I love you" he whispered as I laid limp under him. "And..before you can go on another ten minute rant about your exes and such, I won't cheat with a guy or girl."
"What about an animal? Or a tree?" I laughed.
"No, I can definitely control my bestiality urges."
"I love you too."
"How could you not?"
"Very easily actually."
"You really helped me with my self esteem issues."
"Really, how?"
"By letting me realize I was right...I do suck."
"You can suck as much as you want as long as it's not on some guy."

~~Ten Commandments of Love(By:Ms.Shirley Manson)
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Thou shalt not covet thy neighbors wife.(Whether I'm out of town or not)~~

Yay! He said he wouldn't. This test drive is going to get bumpy; )..when the hell did I get perverted??