I Can't Look At You Anymore

****Gerard's pov****

I knew it would hurt Mikey but we couldn't keep fucking the way we were.

It is so wrong and surely we would get caught.

I fucking loved it but I had to get a job, get married, and make something of my life.

I had to stop fucking my baby brother.

I had to stop getting turned on by him.

I had to.

I had to.

I had to.

"Gee!" She cried as she ran up to me and swung her arms around me.

"Hey baby!" I said kissing her.

Melissa my girlfriend, tall skinny, sandy blonde hair dusty hazel eyes. She was a female version of my brother, without his glasses.

"Let's go get lunch." I said linking my hand in hers.

We found a dark corner of a restaurant just outside of the town square.

We ordered our food and waited.

Melissa sat next to me, close enough she might as well have been sitting on my lap.

"I missed you, baby" she purred in my ear.

She slid her hand up the inside of my thigh.

"But it's only been three days Mel,"

"I want you Gerard Way"

I sighed, she was always so forward.

"Can we eat first I'm hungry?"

Well she took my little hint and we ate lunch in silence.

I didn't want to rush the date, we had all day.

We went down to a lake and sat around holding each other and feeding ducks.

It was nice, kind of boring.

Around tea time I asked Mel to come back to meet my grandma.

She acted like it was some huge deal and got all excited.

Mikey opened the door, I forgot my key.

His eyes moved from me to Melissa and he turned and walked off.

I knew he hated her but I needed her.

It was normal for me to have a girlfriend.

It was not normal for me to fuck my brother.

It was not normal for me to love fucking my brother.

My Gran was so happy to meet my girlfriend and she immediately went to the bookshelf and pulled out the photo album of me and Mikey when we were kids.

I took the time to head upstairs to wash up before dinner.

"Why did you have to bring that thing here?" He hissed at me so Gran and Mel wouldn't hear.

"Not here, Mikey." I said walking into my room followed closely by Mikey locking the door behind him.

"That thing is my girlfriend Mikey! And I love her!"

"Oh really? In love comes honesty, right? Well then you've told her about us right? You told her how just this morning I had you on all fours fucking you on the bathroom floor?"

I shook my head.

"Ha I thought not"

"Mikey I keep telling you that we shouldn't"

"Well you should stop letting me do this"

He slid his hand down my pants and rubbed me till I was almost hard.

"For fucks sake! Mikey." I said.

Then there was a knock at the door.

"Gee, baby are you in there?"