Temptation

We woke up early the next morning, it was the first day of the North American Tour. The first tour in 10 years. We both got in the shower and washed each other. Despite the urge to jump his bones I held myself back, there was plenty of time for that later. There was rehearsals for Richard to get to. I wore a simple black Rammstein tank top, a jean skirt and knee high boots. I decided to accompany him to hang out with the guys some more, get to know them. We arrived at the arena at around 2pm, Richard and I walked up to the bus where Paul and Ollie were standing.

“Hey, they gave out the passes already, I snagged yours.” Paul said giving Richard two passes.

Richard handed me mine, it was so cool to have a crew pass to go where I pleased in the arena.  It had my name on it, printed in simple type, but the background was a very cool Rammstein logo.

“Rich, were late, we need to sound check, come on in.” Ollie said

Richard gave me a kiss goodbye and left to go inside. I attached my pass to my skirt and I looked around to find the line where people were hanging out. I walked around the arena through the parking lot. I followed some people to find the line because I was hopelessly lost. The people I was following got into a line that was clear across the arena parking lot and almost into the street.

“Holy shit.” I said out loud.

I text a few friends I knew that were going to see where they were. Alix was already in line so I went searching. Alix started to wave frantically at me.

“Hey!” Alix said.

“Hey you.” I said back.

“Ha, special you, got a crew pass. I didn’t know they gave those out to band members girlfriends.”

I nodded and chuckled.

“Have you been inside yet?” Alix asked.

“Nope actually we just got here.”

“Ha Richard fashionably late?” Alix said with a chuckle.

“Well if you could say that.”

I looked around to see people listening into our conversation. People were shooting daggers at me. The green eyes they were giving me. I could see the jealousy, it made me laugh. I grabbed my phone and text Richard. 'Hey, how's the catering in there, I'm hungry, oh and Alix is here, can you get a backstage pass? Please.' Richard text back a few minutes later. 'Yea sure, I talked to security, tell Alix to show ID and they’ll be let back.'

“Alix, come with me, lets go inside.”

Alix's eyes lit up. I spotted someone out of the corner of my eye waving to me. I looked and it was Jon.

“Meet me at the door, I'll be right there” I said to Alix

I walked up to Jon

“Hey, long time no see.” I said to Jon.

“Definitely too long, so is the rumor true? Are you Richards girlfriend?”

I nodded. His jaw dropped.

“I have to go meet Alix inside. Ill see you inside?” I said to Jon giving him a big hug.

Jon nodded and I walked away. I felt like everyone in that line was killing me 100 times over in their mind, and for good reason I guess. I was in their way of  'happiness with Richard', I chuckled out loud and stuck my tongue out at them. I met Alix at the main entrance and opened the door to walk in. The security saw my pass and let me in. Alix showed ID and was let in also, given a special bracelet. We walked into the GA area which was completely empty except for a scattered member or two of the crew. I spotted Joe from Combichrist. I went up and said hello.

“Hey Joe, long time no see.”

“Oh hey Rebecca. Indeed it has been a while. Oh hey Alix, long time so see also. Can I get a pic of you two?” Joe said

“Sure why not. Don’t put some stupid caption under it on the tour journal though”

“HA, since when DONT I put stupid shit under pictures.”

We both nodded as Joe took the picture. I turned toward the stage and Richard and the rest were checking their various equipments. I looked at Richard and smiled, I also looked at Paul and gave him a little wave. I always liked Paul and his smile. He gave me a wave back and a big smile. Richard tested his mic by saying “Fleisch, fleisch” I gave a little giggle remembering that video from way back when. Richard seemed to see my giggle and said into the mic,

“You!” and pointed at me

“ME!” I yelled back.

“Joey, bring her up here” he said.

Joe picked me up and threw me over his shoulder, I was surprised at his strength, he was a tall, lanky skinny little dude. He brought me backstage and up the ramp and onto the stage. He threw me down and I landed on my butt.

“Thanks Joey.” I said sarcastically.

Richard gave him an ugly look and I saw Joe retreat down the ramp. Alix seemed to enjoy this exchange because I looked and Alix was nearly on the floor doubled over in laughter. Till reached his hand out and I grabbed it and was erect in a second, he was so strong, much more than I imagined.

“Danke” I said to Till.

Till gave me a nod as I walked over to Richard and I wrapped my hands around him. He grabbed his guitar and lifted it over his head and gave it to me to put around me. I was in awe, I was holding the RZK-2 the custom guitar of my dreams. It was much heavier than I imagined. I put it around me and it was so low on me it was at me knees. The entire band giggled. I turned around towards Flake, and Christoph and gave them an ugly look and they stopped. I turned back around toward the empty arena, threw my arms out and soaked this all in. I felt like a rock star, heck I was, I was the girlfriend of one.

I took the guitar off and handed it back to Richard, he gave it to a stagehand and ran up to me and hugged me, lifted me in the air and spun me around. I was on cloud nine. They were done with the sound check and we left the stage and Combichrist's equipment was set up. I watched Combi sound check in the GA area with Alix and Richard.

“Richard, I'm going outside to see if my other friends are here yet, then I'm going to merch to look around.”

“OK hunny” he said taking out his wallet.

He gave me his credit card. My jaw dropped.

“Get whatever you like.”

I took his card and safely put it in my pocket. I went out the front doors to look at the line. It was getting really long. It was close to doors, it was maybe an hour or so away. I looked through the line to spot my friend Danielle. I ran up to her and hugged her.

“Girlfriend its been years since I saw you. You look amazing.” I told her

“Girl you look great yourself. No wonder Richard loves you.”

I smiled. We chatted for maybe 15 minutes before I was called back inside, doors were going to open in half an hour or so. I gave Danielle a hug and ran back inside. I stopped by merch and picked out a tank top, a hoodie, a Combichrist shirt and a lanyard to put my pass on. I gave them Richard's card and they rang it up. It was close to $150. Spoiled I was when it came to Richard. I smiled and took my merch and made my way back to the GA area. I greeted Alix again and gave me stuff to Ollie who was walking around to give to Richard. I kept his card just in case I needed a drink or a snack. Alix and I chatted a bit until the doors opened and there was a mad rush for the stage. I wasn’t squished at first, but as more people piled in I felt a bit cramped. I took my pass off my skirt and threw it in my bag to prevent it from being stolen.

Combichrist's set was the usual songs, Throat Full of Glass, What the Fuck is Wrong with You, Fuck this shit, Get your body beat. I was being squished a bit from the pit that formed in back of me. I felt a deep rumble in my belly. A bit of a cramp, I figured it was from being squished, or I was just hungry.

After Combi's set I managed to get out of the GA area, bag in tow, for some food. I got a soda, and some nachos, put on Richard's card of course. I ate the food outside the area because I was going to end up with it all over me if I brought it back with me. I was gonna have a hard time getting back in place, since they wont let me through, those determined fans. So I went around, showed my pass and asked the security to hoist me back in place next to Alix. I was made room and made myself comfy, or as much as I could being squished. About 10 minutes later, the lights went out, and the music started to play. They smashed through the walls, and everyone screamed their lungs out, including myself. I was GA, at a Rammstein show, front row. I was so excited. Richard and I occasionally exchanged glances and smiles. The girls next to me had said once “OH my god Richard smiled at me” I ignored it and went on enjoying the show. When it came to Engel, I was so excited, yet sad this monumental show was over. When the show was over, and the GA area was mostly empty except for my friends who decided to stick around to hang out with me, we all gathered together for a picture. Joey took it with my camera so it didn’t end up plastered all over the internet for everyone to see.

I wasn’t in the mood for partying, I felt a bit sick and was in and out of the toilet most of the night. We made our way back to the bus to make our way to the next town, I climbed into the bunk and immediately fell asleep.