Not So Broken Dreams
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Singers/Bands/Musicians › Green Day
Rating:
Adult ++
Chapters:
14
Views:
2,184
Reviews:
8
Recommended:
0
Currently Reading:
0
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This is a work of fiction. I do not know the members of Green Day. I do not make any money from the writing of this story.
Redundant..I don't want to relive this!
*Hope it's good!! Please review if you've got the time!*
POV-Kelly
I woke up the next day feeling groggy, just wanting to roll back over and shut my eyes. Then I felt this warm breath on the back of my neck. I turned around to find a smiling Billie Joe wide awake. "Morning gorgeous!" he said full of energy. "Mhmm.." I said without any energy at all. I got up and began getting changed in front of him. He was smirking.
POV-Billie Joe
"I love her." I thought as she got dressed in front of me. Then I remembered the look she gave me when I asked if she was a virgin. I could tell she wasn't by that look. I could tell it upset her. "What happened, I mean, who took your...virginity." I mumbled when I said virginity. I don't think she wanted to tell me. She had never mentioned past boyfriends to me. Kelly looked up and got a lost look in her eyes.
POV-Kelly
I hoped he had forgotten but he hadn't. I went back into the past mentally when he asked me what had happened. I wanted to cry. John....John Patter....he was what I thought at first to be my perfect match. I was dead wrong. "I met him at school. He was 16 I was 14. He was a year behind I was a year ahead in school." Billie was silent as I talked but I could tell he was absorbing ever last syllable. "I had seen him from a far and got a crush. He was good friends with one of my best friends. She introduced us and I should of known he was nothing but bad news as soon as he said he wasn't a virgin and went on about his many conquests but I always looked for the best in people. I was naive." Billie started nodding. I didn't want to continue but I knew I had to. Billie Joe deserved the truth. "He kept breaking up with me like every two weeks and I kept taking him back. Then after the third time I took him back he stopped doing that but he kept...he kept saying things. He was suicidal and he had been even before me. John, that was his name, after he began showing me his suicidal ways he started blaming me for them.
He acted like a victim to others when really I treated him like a god..he was my first real boyfriend. I had others but they were short, nothing, worthless, relationships. He would every other night threaten suicide and blame me. It would get so bad that I couldn't go to school the next day cause I spent the whole night crying. I started to realize it was a game..all to get what he wanted...sex....someone to show they care.....he said i didn't even though I always stopped him from suicide, it wasn't enough. He called me names, I bought him things, he said he loved me..I thought I did...I only did cause I was so insecure. He made me want to kill myself. I tried a few times..I cut myself.. a lot. Every time I'd tell him my problem he'd tell me one of his trying to get pity. I wasn't enough.....then two months into our relationship I finally gave in. He pushed me to have sex before even when my parents were on their way to pick me up from his house and he said "I can do it in five minutes! I swear! C'mon!!!" That was 4 weeks into our relationship. The day we did it I cried after he left for hours...I wanted to die..I was easy, a whore, a slut." Billie crawled over the bed to me and stopped me from continuing. "Your not easy..you weren't. You were scared..it was rape. It's ok babe." He wrapped his arms around me. "How long did the relationship last?" he asked.
"6 months if you count it all."
"So you put up with him for that long??"
"Yeah, he only got worse....the name calling....god it never ended. When I broke up with him he swore he'd change. I gave him a million chances and it was never enough..he would complain saying I didn't give him enough chances. He had the audacity to tell me I was "too nice" that's why he was an ass he couldn't take it." Billie was nuzzling me. "John still talks to me..."
"Its been 2 years!"
"I know" I said quietly as I began crying.
"Does he still say shit??"
"Yeah....I mean he gets jealous when I'm with other people. I've only had two boyfriends since him..you and Dillon. He was jealous of you back when I was daiting him."
"What do you mean?"
"He was always like 'oh....you;d leave me for Billie Joe wouldn't you...just cause I liked your music and had a few pics of the whole band on my wall and I admitted you were attractive after he went on and on about Kittie."
"You found me attractive then too??"
'Yeah."
"Can I use that fact against our dear friend John??"
"What do you mean?"
"Oh you'll see."
POV-Billie Joe
I hated seeing Kelly crying. I hated knowing some guy is the reason why Kelly hates herself. He didn't deserve her. I grabbed Kelly's arms and looked at her wrists. There were scars..lots of them. I couldn't believe that I hadn't noticed them before. I guess I didn't want to see them. They were fading pretty well actually. They were a light pink on most people they wouldn't stand out but Kelly was pale. She had beautiful peaches and cream Irish skin. I kissed her wrists. "He's gonna pay for this Kel." I said quietly. "I don't want you to do anything..just get him jealous" she smiled evily but I could tell on the inside she was crying just thinking about John. I wanted to get him and I was going to no matter what she said....
POV-Kelly
I woke up the next day feeling groggy, just wanting to roll back over and shut my eyes. Then I felt this warm breath on the back of my neck. I turned around to find a smiling Billie Joe wide awake. "Morning gorgeous!" he said full of energy. "Mhmm.." I said without any energy at all. I got up and began getting changed in front of him. He was smirking.
POV-Billie Joe
"I love her." I thought as she got dressed in front of me. Then I remembered the look she gave me when I asked if she was a virgin. I could tell she wasn't by that look. I could tell it upset her. "What happened, I mean, who took your...virginity." I mumbled when I said virginity. I don't think she wanted to tell me. She had never mentioned past boyfriends to me. Kelly looked up and got a lost look in her eyes.
POV-Kelly
I hoped he had forgotten but he hadn't. I went back into the past mentally when he asked me what had happened. I wanted to cry. John....John Patter....he was what I thought at first to be my perfect match. I was dead wrong. "I met him at school. He was 16 I was 14. He was a year behind I was a year ahead in school." Billie was silent as I talked but I could tell he was absorbing ever last syllable. "I had seen him from a far and got a crush. He was good friends with one of my best friends. She introduced us and I should of known he was nothing but bad news as soon as he said he wasn't a virgin and went on about his many conquests but I always looked for the best in people. I was naive." Billie started nodding. I didn't want to continue but I knew I had to. Billie Joe deserved the truth. "He kept breaking up with me like every two weeks and I kept taking him back. Then after the third time I took him back he stopped doing that but he kept...he kept saying things. He was suicidal and he had been even before me. John, that was his name, after he began showing me his suicidal ways he started blaming me for them.
He acted like a victim to others when really I treated him like a god..he was my first real boyfriend. I had others but they were short, nothing, worthless, relationships. He would every other night threaten suicide and blame me. It would get so bad that I couldn't go to school the next day cause I spent the whole night crying. I started to realize it was a game..all to get what he wanted...sex....someone to show they care.....he said i didn't even though I always stopped him from suicide, it wasn't enough. He called me names, I bought him things, he said he loved me..I thought I did...I only did cause I was so insecure. He made me want to kill myself. I tried a few times..I cut myself.. a lot. Every time I'd tell him my problem he'd tell me one of his trying to get pity. I wasn't enough.....then two months into our relationship I finally gave in. He pushed me to have sex before even when my parents were on their way to pick me up from his house and he said "I can do it in five minutes! I swear! C'mon!!!" That was 4 weeks into our relationship. The day we did it I cried after he left for hours...I wanted to die..I was easy, a whore, a slut." Billie crawled over the bed to me and stopped me from continuing. "Your not easy..you weren't. You were scared..it was rape. It's ok babe." He wrapped his arms around me. "How long did the relationship last?" he asked.
"6 months if you count it all."
"So you put up with him for that long??"
"Yeah, he only got worse....the name calling....god it never ended. When I broke up with him he swore he'd change. I gave him a million chances and it was never enough..he would complain saying I didn't give him enough chances. He had the audacity to tell me I was "too nice" that's why he was an ass he couldn't take it." Billie was nuzzling me. "John still talks to me..."
"Its been 2 years!"
"I know" I said quietly as I began crying.
"Does he still say shit??"
"Yeah....I mean he gets jealous when I'm with other people. I've only had two boyfriends since him..you and Dillon. He was jealous of you back when I was daiting him."
"What do you mean?"
"He was always like 'oh....you;d leave me for Billie Joe wouldn't you...just cause I liked your music and had a few pics of the whole band on my wall and I admitted you were attractive after he went on and on about Kittie."
"You found me attractive then too??"
'Yeah."
"Can I use that fact against our dear friend John??"
"What do you mean?"
"Oh you'll see."
POV-Billie Joe
I hated seeing Kelly crying. I hated knowing some guy is the reason why Kelly hates herself. He didn't deserve her. I grabbed Kelly's arms and looked at her wrists. There were scars..lots of them. I couldn't believe that I hadn't noticed them before. I guess I didn't want to see them. They were fading pretty well actually. They were a light pink on most people they wouldn't stand out but Kelly was pale. She had beautiful peaches and cream Irish skin. I kissed her wrists. "He's gonna pay for this Kel." I said quietly. "I don't want you to do anything..just get him jealous" she smiled evily but I could tell on the inside she was crying just thinking about John. I wanted to get him and I was going to no matter what she said....