Thunderlight - me, you and them

I don't own Dir en Grey.



This chapter will only be diary mode.

Thanks to the readers and the reviewers.



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Hey Thunderlight II buddy, how are you?

I'm not really in the mood to know how are you, I just asked 'cause I didn't want to sound rude.

Anyways, Saturday... not Sunday... it's today... earlier I went out with some friends... we were talking about I don't really know what, and I mentioned the fact that I used to wet my bed when I was younger 'till I was 10. They all stopped and looked at me, then one asked if I knew what that meant, and I said: but of course! It means I was disturbed with something.

Is this really true? 'cause if it is, I need to quit Dir en Grey so I can find out what the fuck was disturbing me!

This pisses me off, I know also that if we are sleep walkers, it means we are also disturbed with something... gladly I don't wet my bed anymore, but I AM still a sleep walker...... eh.... just random stuff no? Who cares if I walk while I sleep? It's not like it interferes on others lives, right?

Reminds me of sheets and paper, we could say they all travel around themselves, but they are really not there... they just care about affirming and not really being. They are the so called "mirages by time" 'cause they escape people and people can see them escaping... just like I escaped yesterday night... but then again, I'm not a "mirage by time".

Because of what I just wrote, I am forced to mention if you know the situation when you have to save somebody from death... like, imagine, a fire, you are going in the fire to save that other person... but why is that? Because it is your duty? Because you love that person? Any other reason I should know? If it is because of your duty, you would save the person and save yourself too, if you loved that person you would save both of you or you would die with her... you only save that person because it goes well on others sight, you would be seen as a hero... you wouldn't really care about the other person, just about you and your reputation!

Like past present and future... godbye my friend goodbye... I will never see you again! Bullshit! This is so like: You have to leave and all of them will forget about you and the good moments they had with you!!! And I'll say: Fine, I will leave, 'cause at least I'll remember them, and they can always have new good times, right?

Almost like starting running around screaming over and over the number 7.

Number 7 has two colours: Purple and Yellow... they are great colours... gladly we have 5 fingers in each hand, right? Anyway, as I was writting, purple and yellow... purple was Kaoru's hair, yellow was mine... seven... we all know seven simbolizes a new beggining, the start of a new generation... that's me and Kaoru when we will finally be together... but it also means the seven deadly sins... which will actually be also when we are together... but I won't let it be this way!

HELP ME, FOR HIDE'S SAKE, HELP ME........................ I LOVE HIM.... so much...