So Much For Sanity

Six


Mikey remembered why he'd been there in the first place and stop kissing Gerard's neck. Gerard whined in protest. Mikey just chuckled and shook his head. He grabbed the wash cloth and soaked it again. He walked to the side of the counter so he could wash Gerard's back.

'I can't believe you let him do this to you, Gee,' Mikey thought to himself as he touched over some bruises, 'Well I guess you didn't let him...but I don't see what you saw in him. I really don't.' he rubbed on Gerard's shoulders. There was a handprint-shaped bruise on his skin. 'Goddamn...' Mikey leaned over and lightly kissed the deep purple bruise. 'I'll never let him do this to you ever again.'

Mikey told Gerard to stand up, and he did. 'You're so loyal...' Mikey thought with a small grin. Mikey turned Gerard to face him and rubbed up and down Gerard's smooth chest - not with the cloth, with his bare hands. Then he slid his hands down to rest on Gerard's hips. He pulled the older man closer to him and kissed him lightly.

Gerard set his hands on Mikey's sides, rubbing up and down a little. He slid his hands down and tugged on Mikey's shirt tail, a sign that he wanted him to take it off. Mikey smiled against Gerard's lips. He broke away from Gerard and slipped the shirt over his head.

Before Mikey could do anything, Gerard pulled him into his arms and attached himself to Mikey's neck by way of mouth, kissing and biting. Mikey moaned softly and wrapped his arms around Gerard's waist, resting his head against Gerard's shoulder.

"I love you, Gerard." Mikey moaned.

"I love you too Mikey." Gerard managed in between kisses. He started kissing Mikey's chest, stomach and sides. He sunk his teeth into Mikey's hips. Then he licked from his left hip to the center of his chest. Mikey moaned a bit louder. He pulled Gerard up to be face-to-face with him, forgetting his injuries.

"OW ow ow!" Gerard whimpered. Mikey had grabbed onto Gerard's arms too tightly, and jerked him up too fast.

"Sorry!" Mikey bit his lip. He looked at the ground nervously. "I...umm..."

"Forgot?" Gerard finished with an understanding smile.

"No I didn't forget!" Mikey chuckled. He knew Gerard wasn't mad or anything. Mikey decided to "make it up to him"...in his own little way.

He pulled Gerard closer to him, drawing their lips together again, while running his hand down his chest...stomach...down to the waistline of his jeans. He looked into Gerard's eyes, breaking the kiss, to see if it was ok where he was touching him. Gerard simply nodded and grinned. Mikey returned himself to the kiss while sliding his hand down Gerard's pants...

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Meanwhile, Ray was in his car, driving along a random road. His cheeks were streaked with tears. His eyes were red and bloodshot. He was clutching a whiskey bottle in one hand, and had his other hand on the wheel. He put the bottle to his lips and drained it, tossing it to the back once he was done.

He couldn't stop thinking about Gerard. He couldn't stop thinking about the breakup. Ray knew it was his own fault, but he needed someone else to blame it on. But whoever he thought of just made him see they had nothing to do with it. Ray knew...it was his own fault. He knew he never should have drank the alcohol...even though it was "just a dare", he shouldn't of done it.

["Oh come on Ray," Roger had said, "It's just booze and plus you're not even drinking that much of it!"

Ray hadn't been so sure about it. "Umm no, can I change to truth?" he had turned to Brian. Brian just shook his head.

"Nope." an eerie grin crept along his lips, "A dare is a dare."

"But I-"

"No buts!" Roger had tossed the bottle to Ray. Ray looked at it and bit his lip. "Drink it." Roger encouraged.

Ray sighed, defeated. He opened the bottle and smelled the containts. 'Ok that smells like shit..' Ray thought, wrinkling his nose. But nevertheless, he'd put the bottle to his lips and taken in the poison.]

"Why did I ever do that?" Ray asked himself, a sigh following it. He hadn't thought he'd hurt anyone...especially not Gerard. But he did. That was the point. He felt more tears of guilt stream down his face.

'I can't believe he'd do this to me.' Ray thought. 'Ehh...might as well listen to some tunes...' he clicked the 'random' button and the FM stations flickered in neon green on the radio screen. It landed on 94.9 "Star Country" and Ray growled under his breath.

"Great. Country." he turned the volume dial, but the wrong way, causing the volume to go up instead of off.

'One more day
one more try.
One more sunset baby, I'd be satasfied'

"Why did it have to be this song?!" Ray felt more tears start to fill his eyes. "Why did I ever start drinking? I never would have lost...him..." he whispered. Ray started sobbing again.

'But then again.
I know what it would do.
Leave me wishin' still for one more day with you.'

'You know what,' Ray thought, 'This song's right. I want Gee back, and I can't have him. If I did get one more day with him I'd only want more...' he sighed. 'If I just kill myself...I can end this pain. I brought it upon myself so I can end it myself.' he thought.

Ray's eyes landed on the on the ocean below the bridge he happened to be driving over. When his eyes looked back to the road - despite the blurriness from the alcohol - and sighed. 'I love you, Gee.' he thought. 'I always have. I always will. I'm sorry.' He turned the wheel and violently swirved right off the side of the bridge.

[A/N: Looks like the bros are enjoying eachother! Ray...umm...not so much. Thanks to reviewers! R&R!]