save a horse, ride a cowboy

hey sorry for taking so long to update- i really dont have an excuse but if it helps, i am ashamed of myself!

written as usual for my angel karin!

Moving purely on instinct, Bam wrapped his arms around Ville's waist, drawing him deeper into the kiss and moaning as a shy but inquisitive tongue met his own. They kissed hungrily until the need for air broke them apart but even then, their hands never stopped tracing each others bodies,almost as if they were afraid that it would all disappear if they stopped touching each other.

Bam knew what he wanted to happen, where he wanted their relationship to go at that moment but he wasn't sure if Ville would agree to it considering how difficult it was for him admitting to his sexuality, but as Ville started to nibble on his neck, he decided it would be worth trying to convince him.

"Hey pretty." He whispered, allowing his lips to gaze Ville's ear. "Do you feel up to finding out what it's like to make love to another man?"

Ville's head snapped back and startled green eyes met his. "I...I don't think....I'm not sure if I'm ready to have anything inside me. That idea still freaks me out a little."

"I thought it might. That's why I was actually suggesting having you inside me and not the other way around."

The 'deer about to be hit by a truck' look was still present on Ville's face but it was slowly being pushed out by the look of lust that was beginning to creep over his delicate features.

"Really? You want that?"

Bam arched his hips so that Ville could feel the evidence of his arousal against him before replying. "What do you think?!"

Sitting up, Ville moved to give them both enough room to remove their clothes before gently pushing Bam back against the blanket and leaning over him. "Show me how to prepare you." He whispered, only the slightest hint of nervousness colouring his voice.

Taking Ville's hand in his own, Bam raised it to his mouth, taking in two of the long slim fingers and and sucking on them gently. Flicking his tongue around the tip of each finger, he released them from his mouth with a wet pop and guided Ville's trembling hand down between his legs.

"Just take your time and stretch me out first. You can't really do anything wrong then."

Ville nodded, smiling weakly at him as he moved his fingers to Bam's entrance. "You have to let me know if I need to do something differently, I don't really know what I'm doing."

"I'll help you." Quickly slicking up his own fingers, Bam moved his hand down and laced his fingers with Ville's. He slowly helped Ville prepare him, taking time to make sure his body would be relaxed enough for something bigger and to make sure that Ville wasn't going to back out.

When he decided that they were both ready, he positioned them so that Ville was resting between his legs. "Ok babe, I need you in me now, just take it slow to let me get used to it."

Ville pushed himself gently into Bam, stopping nervously as Bam whimpered. "Did I do something wrong? Did I hurt you?"

"No, god no don't stop. You feel so fucking good inside me Ville. I need more, please." Bam was practically begging, desperately wanting more of the incredible feeling of Ville filling him.

Feeling more confident, Ville pulled out and pushed back in harder, smirking with satisfaction as Bam yowled in pleasure, making it obvious that Ville had found his prostate.

"Oh fuck yes, Ville, harder please..so good, want you so much" Bam started babbling as the pleasure started to overtake him and he grasped his erection, jerking himself roughly, unable to focus enough to find a steady rythm. Ville was panting above him, brown curling locks falling into his face as he held himself up, thrusting into his body erratically as he tried to hold back as long as he could so he wouldn't have to give up the pleasure he was feeling.

Neither man could hold on for long though and soon they were both howling their releases, thankful that there was nobody living nearby to hear them. Ville pulled out of the exhausted body beneath him and dropped bonelessly onto the rug, using the corner of it to wipe both their bodies clean. As they lay side by side getting their breath back, Bam couldn't help but laugh.

"The one time I do something with no sexual overtones since I got here and we end up like this. I love irony!"

When Ville didn't laugh with him, Bam glanced over to him, afraid he was freaking out again, only to find that the heat and their recent exertion had exhausted him and he'd fallen asleep.

"Lightweight." Bam muttered affectionately, before deciding that a nap might not actually be such a bad idea, and curling around Ville's sleeping form, he drifted off a few moments later.

When Ville woke a few hours later, he panicked for a moment about what he'd just done with Bam but swiftly decided that it was probably more appropriate to worry about the fact that he was naked in the middle of his orchard and when Beryl came looking for him as she always did when she delivered his food, there was a chance that she wouldn't survive the shock.

As he scrambled to distinguish his clothes from Bam's so he could get dressed, he accidently nudged the skater, automatically waking him. "You're not freaking out again are you?" Bam asked wearily.

"Yes." He snapped back, before realising what it was that Bam had meant. "No, I didn't mean it that way, I've already panicked about that and gotten over it. I'm panicking because we're naked and the woman who cooks for me should be here by now and she'll be looking for me. I don't particularly want her finding us like this."

"Oh good point, pass me my clothes." Bam got dressed quickly and started packing up the picnic things. Just in time it seemed because the moment the picnic basket was closed, a motherly looking woman with a grey, old fashioned perm came into view.

"There you are, I've been looking all over for you. Your food is in the fridge, ready to be heated up when you want it and I've lit the fire because it's going to get cold this evening and I know you won't think of it. Oh who's this?" She exclaimed, finally noticing the skater standing quietly off to the side.

"This is Bam, he's staying with me for the week. Bam, this is Beryl, the angel who makes sure I don't starve or give myself food poisoning by attempting to cook."

"Hi, it's nice to meet you." Bam said politely, in his first attempt at respecting his elders in years. It paid off as well as the woman practically beamed at him.

"Such a polite young man." She exclaimed happily. "You don't get many of those around nowadays, except for Ville of course who's always a perfect gentleman even after that horrible woman treated him so badly. But at least now that he has love back in his life, everything will be ok."

Ville's brow furrowed in confusion. "Uh, I think you might be confusing me with someone else because I don't know what you're talking about."

"I'm talking about you two of course, You make such a lovely couple." She turned to face a shocked looking Bam. "Now don't you go breaking his heart, you hear? He's had enough of that already in his life. He deserves to be loved properly."

All Bam was capable of was nodding dumbly as she turned her attention back to Ville. "Now dear, I'm not one to judge, what you do in your own time is your business but you should really make sure you put your clothes back on properly if you don't want people to know about your relationship."

Both men looked down at themselves, mortified when they realised she was right. Ville's shirt was buttoned up wrong and even more embarrassingly, Bam's boxer shorts still sat, abandoned by one of the apple trees.

"I'm off home now dear, I'll see you tomorrow with extra food for you and your boyfriend. You need to keep your energy levels up after all."

As she walked away Bam winced, waiting for the backlash now that someone had caught them.

"She knew what we were doing." Ville muttered, stunned.

"Yeah she did."

"And she was ok with it, she didn't mind." Ville spun round to face Bam, a huge grin on his face. "She didn't care as long I was happy."

Bam laughed at Ville's relief as he was gathered into strong arms and a bruising kiss was placed on his lips. "You're not angry?"

"Why would I be angry, she didn't care. She didn't make me feel like I was doing something terrible."

"That's because you're not. You need to stop thinking like that."

"I know. But honestly, I'm scared. I never thought I'd be with anyone else after Jonna especially not a man." Ville admitted.

"That's because you analyze things too much, you need to stop thinking so much about it and just follow your feelings instead of that complicated little mind of yours."

"Ok, so what happens now?" Ville asked, smiling shyly at him.

""Now we go to the nearest supermarket to get you stocked up on food so you don't have an excuse not to eat anymore."

"Bam, I don't have time to eat." Ville groaned.

"Well then, you're gonna have to start making time aren't you. Come on, we'll take my car."

He wasn't quite sure how it happened, but Ville soon found himself being bundled into the red Hummer as Bam quizzed him on directions to the closest supermarkets.

"Bam, it's a 45 minute drive, is this really worth it?"

"Yes. Now buckle up cause I don't want your pretty face getting hurt if I have to brake quickly." Bam instructed as they pulled away from the curb.

Rolling his eyes at Bam's mothering, Ville did as he was told, not wanting a lecture. Tossing Ville a large cd holder fit to bursting, Bam spared him a quick grin. "We're gonna be in here for a while so pick something good."

He flicked through the cd's happily, grinning as he found a lot of his favourite bands in the case along with quite a few bands he hadn't even heard of. Soon, both men were happily singing along to the sounds of Iggy Pop that was blasting out of the cd player.

They drove along like that for a while, enjoying the music, warm weather and each others company until Ville had an idea which, even up until a few days ago would have horrified him to even think about. Casually, he placed his hand on Bam's leg, gently rubbing and he was rewarded with a beaming smile before Bam returned his attention to the road. He kept stroking Bam's thigh lovingly until the skater was so used to it that the feeling faded into the background, before moving on to the next part of his plan.

Bam was contentedly humming along to 'lust for life' when the feeling of Ville's hand sliding between his legs and cupping his crotch made him nearly jump out of his skin.

"Ville, what are you doing?" He gasped, as nimble fingers started to undo his pants.

"What does it look like I'm doing?!" Ville asked mischievously.

"It feels like you're trying to make me crash the car." Bam responded, smiling wryly. "So as much as I love the fact that you're touching me without me having to make the first move, You're gonna have to stop if you want to make it to the supermarket in one piece."

Rejectedly, Ville drew his hand away but, as if reading his mind, Bam caught his wrist and pulled his hand up to his lips, kissing it softly before letting it go.

"You didn't do anything wrong ok? It's just that I wanna be able to focus completely on you when you do something like this for me and somewhere more comfortable so I can return the favour."

They pulled into the carpark as Bam was talking and as he switched the engine off and looked overe, he could see that Ville remained unconvinced.

Unbuckling both their seatbelts, Bam practically pulled Ville over the seats so he was draped halfway across his lap and proceeded to kiss him thoroughly, enjoying Ville's whimpers and soft moans. When they finally drew apart, Ville's hair was beautifully messed up, he was flushed and panting and his gorgeous soft lips were pouting and bruised looking.

"Wow."

Bam couldn't resist a chuckle at Ville's breathless exlamation although he had to agree. "God you're sexy." He purred, eyeing Ville's form lustfully. "I almost wish I'd listened to you and agreed to stay at the ranch."

"Well then, lets hurry up and get what we need so we can get back and find a better use for our time." Ville grinned, getting out of the car. As they grabbed a trolley and headed inside Ville had to admit that despite his arguments about going to a supermarket in the first place, doing something so domesticated with Bam gave him butterflies and he couldn't help the brief fantasy that they were a fully established couple, with a house together and maybe a couple of adopted kids.

Shaking his head with a brief chuckle to himself , he looked around to find Bam fondling the bananas in a very distracting way.

"What the hell are you doing?" He whispered horrified, looking round to make sure no one was watching them.

"Testing them for firmness." Bam replied innocently, although the sparkle of mischief in his eyes and the grin tugging at his lips ruined the effect slightly.

"Yeah well, I think think that they've been tested enough, put them in the trolley if you want them."

Giving the fruit one more squeeze just to get a reaction, Bam obediently put them in the trolley and moved on to the next isle that caught his attention. Leaving Bam happily wandering up and down the frozen dessert isle, Ville wandered off to get the necessities such as bread and milk, things Bam didn't care about.

He was eyeing the shelves of bread with concentration when he felt someone grab ahandful of his ass and he spun round to see Bam grinning behind him.

"Was that really necessary? Someone might have seen..." He stopped, seeing the contents of the trolley. Bam had gotten a canister of whipped cream,a tub of fudge sauce that you had to warm before use, a tub of glace cherries and chocolate sprinkles. But there was one thing missing.

"You forgot the ice cream."

"Huh?"

"You forgot to get ice cream. You got all the toppings but you didn't get..." He slowly looked up from the objects sitting innocently in the trolley up to Bam's smirking face. "They're not.....they're not for ice cream are they."

"Nope."

"They're for....for..." He couldn't bring himself to actually finish the sentance, but Bam had no such problems. Stepping up close so that he was pressed flush against Ville's back, Bam leant forward so he could whisper in his ear.

"There are some things that taste better than ice cream and I'm willing to bet that you're one of those things, so when we get out of here I'm taking you home and spending the afternoon enjoying my own personal banana split, without the actual banana's. They weren't firm enough for my liking!"

Ville could hear the laughter in Bam's voice but he couldn't bring himself to care as the visuals that he had created left him with a very large problem in very tight jeans.

"How the hell am I supposed to walk round this place now? There's children and old people here, I'll get thrown out for public indecency." Ville grumbled as Bam pressed himself even closer to him to show him that he wasn't the only one affected by what was going to happen later.

"Just think of someone you really don't like, naked. Works every time." Bam grinned stepping out of their embrace. "Do we need much more because I really need to get you home now."

A few more items later and they were standing in line at the cashiers desk waiting their turn. "Ville Valo." Boomed a suprised voice. "Don't often see you out here, thought you'd turned into some sort of hermit."

Both men turned around to see a large man with a mustache and a scraggly beard standing behind them.

"Hey Brian, how are things?" Ville asked, shaking the other cowboy's hand. "This is Bam, a friend of mine who's been staying with me for a few days, Bam this is Brian, he owns the ranch next to mine."

"Nice to meet you Bam." Brian said warmly, taking Bam's hand in a death grip and shaking it enthusiastically. "So Ville, changed your mind on letting me buy that gorgeous ranch of yours yet? You know I'd give you a good price for it."

"I know you would and I know you'd take care of it but I'm still gonna have to refuse, thanks for the offer though." Ville smiled, turning his attention to packing the bags. "I'll see you some other time, give my love to the wife and kids."

"Sure thing. See ya round. It was nice meeting you Bam."

Both men were quiet and lost in thought as they took the bags out to the Hummer and loaded them into the boot but as they got into the car, Bam had to ask. "Why wouldn't you sell him the ranch? It seems the obvious choice to me."

"Really. How do you work that one out?" Ville asked, slightly irritated.

"You said it yourself, you can barely afford it, it keeps you up there all alone, it's full of memories of your ex bitch that you can't escape and it's obvious that this isn't what you want to do with your life. So sell it to him and make a fresh start."

"You're forgetting something, Bam. If he buys that then I'll be homeless. Yeah he'll give me a good price but you've seen the place, it's a dump. Even the highest price he could offer me for it isn't enough for me to buy a house in the real world and even if I could, how do you expect me to pay the rent or whatever with no job?"

"Move in with me."

"What? No. I don't want charity, especially not from you."

Bam sighed in frustration. "It's not fucking charity. I suggested it because I care about you, maybe even love you and I want you to be happy and you're not happy here. I suggested it because I WANT you to come and live with me, even if it's only up until you fnd a job and have enough money to get your own place. I want to be able to take you out to clubs and resturants for dates, I want you to meet people that aren't homophobic and make you want to hide who you are. I want you to be with me."

Ville just stared at him open mouthed and Bam sighed again. "Ok so as well as having an inner house wife, I have an inner drama queen that likes making impassioned speeches. I probably should have mentioned that."

He tried not to, he really did, but in the end Ville just couldn't stop the laughter that was bubbling up inside him and he practically doubled over with mirth, the look of resignation on Bam's face just making it worse. Finally he calmed down just in time to see Brian walking through the carpark to his Jeep.

Not even looking at Bam, Ville jumped out of the Hummer and ran over to where Brian was loading his car where both men stood talking intently for a few minutes before shaking hands, both men looking a lot happier than before. Walking back, Ville got inside the car before turning to Bam with a serious expression.

"So, do I get my own room or will I be sleeping with you?"

Ville could see the minute his words sunk in as Bam's eyes lit up and a beaming smile was directed at him. "YES!!!! you're fucking beautiful you know that?!"

He was swept into a passionate kiss and Ville couldn't even begin to care that it was in public, not when he made his skater smile like that.

"Come on then, let's go. I'm expecting help with the packing and you wanted something with cream and hot fudge sauce didn't you?!"

And as they drove out of the car park, Bam happily singing at the top of his lungs, their hands entwined, Ville realised that the dark memories of Jonna and his parents were now nothing more than fleeting shadows.