love calling

sorry about the shortness of the chapters, i havent been getting much feedback on the other site i'm posting it on so im not sure whether i will be carrying on with it.


The next few months were hell on earth for Bam. He had hoped it would be as easy for him to get over Ville as it was for him to get over Jenn, but it was proving to be impossible. From the moment he had arrived home the next morning, after waking up in his car, right up until September, almost three months later, he was unable to focus properly on anything in his life.

He spent most of his days locked in bedroom, only coming out to film scenes for the show, faking smiles and laughter, then returning to the hole of dispair he was wallowing in. It was made harder byt the fact that HIM were stated as the best new band around and Ville's face was everywhere Bam looked. He'd gone out and brought the album, unable to stop himself and he played it on repeat, laying on his bed crying and listening to Ville's beautiful voice until he couldn't listen any longer.

His family and friends kept trying to convince him to call Ville but he couldn't pluck up enough courage, scared that the Finn would hate him despite his words that night. His birthday rolled around without Bam even noticing which worried his mother as Bam always made a big celebration out of his birthday and made sure everyone was aware of it weeks in advance.

Ape took a tray of breakfast up to Bam's room, sighing heavily as she saw the food she'd taken up the night before hadn't been touched. She placed the tray on the floor and sat down on the edge of the bed.

"Bam sweetie, you need to eat."

"M'not hungry." came the muffled reply from somewhere under the duvet. Ape pulled back the covers slightly until she could see her sons face and tried not to wince at the sight. Even after some of his infamous nights out he hadn't looked that bad.

"Honey, you need to get out of this room, it's been two months now."

I went out a couple of weeks ago." Bam protested

"Yeah and then you saw a magazine with him on the front and you came straight home and shut yourself back in here. It's not healthy, Bam."

He didn't answer for a while and Ape begun to think that maybe she'd gone too far and managed to really piss him off but then his voice broke the silence.

"I knew Jenn for years and I got over her in two weeks. I knew Ville for a few days and I'm still not over him. I think he may have been the one and I fucked it up." Ape fought back tears at the brokeness and defeat in her youngest son's voice. "It hurts so much mom."

The dam broke at his words and he clung to her, sobbing so hard she thought he might break, even as she tried to bring him as much comfort as she could. Once he'd cried himself into an uneasy sleep, Ape took the food back downstairs where Phil greeted her.

"How is he?"

"He's not good. It's my fault, I caused this." She said softly, guilt laying heavy in her words.

"What are you talking about? None of this is your fault Ape."

"If I hadn't stuck my nose in, they'd be ok. I should have let them have their relationship the way they wanted it."

Phil didn't argue with her as he knew there would be no point. Instead he just held her as she grieved for their child. She pulled away after a while, comforted as always by his presence.

"Ok, let's get all his presents and the cake into the lounge and see if we can get him to come down long enough to open them."

Ape and Phil started bring presents and a cake through to the lounge while Dunn and Novak went to try and coax Bam out of his room. A few moments later they heard a loud bang and lots of swearing coming from the direction of Bam's room.

"Maybe I should go and check they're alright" Ape said nervously.

"Stop worrying, I'm sure they know what they're doing." Phil replied soothingly.

At that moment, Dunn and Novak came into the room carrying a struggling Bam by his wrists and ankles. Ape turned to her husband with a look that clearly said 'you've just been proved a complete idiot' before turning to the guys.

"We said get him to leave his room, not drag him from it."

"Well, he's out isn't he?" Dunn sighed, accidently dropping Bam's wrists in his frustration causing Bam's head to hit the floor. "Oops, sorry dude!"

"Well anyway, now that you're here why don't you open your presents?" Ape urged, anxious to see him smile for a few moments at least.

Bam sighed wearily. He really didn't want to this, all he wanted was to crawl back into bed and stay there until the pain went away. Instead, he sat down and started opening his gifts making the appropriate sounds of gratitude as he uncovered the thoughtful presents everyone had got him. He smiled for the camera as Ape took photos of him blowing out his candles and cutting his cake but the whole thing was exhausting to him.

He tried to appreciate what they were doing but he just wanted to be left alone with his thoughts. He was glad when the doorbell interupted them and he rushed to answer it, glad to be out of the forced happiness. He allowed his fake smile to fall as he left the room, his cheeks and jaw hurting from the effort. He answered the door not even bothering to look at the person.

"Yeah?"

"Happy birthday Bammie." came a familliar voice uncertainly. Bam's head snapped up in shock and he found himself looking straight into Ville's green orbs. "Can we talk?"

Bam only nodded silently and allowed Ville to enter the house, his entire body warring between nervousness and hope. They both heard frantic whispering coming from the lounge and they both turned to see seven pairs of eyes watching them through the door.

"Lets go up to my room to talk cos I don't think we're gonna get much privacy down here."

The walk to Bam's room felt like it took forever and Bam's stomach wa doing nervous flips as Ville sat down on his bed next to him. They sat in silence, neither one knowing what to say.

"So...uh...how've you been?" Bam asked lamely.

"Like hell." Ville replied honestly. "How about you?"

Bam let out a sigh of relief at Ville's answer, thankful that he wasn't the only one. He looked up at Ville and saw unshed tears shining in his eyes.

"The same. I've missed you." He admitted. Saying the words seemed to unlock something inside of him and all the words he'd wanted to say to Ville since the night they'd fought came pouring out.

"I'm so sorry Ville. I never meant any of those things I said to you, I just reacted badly when i realized you were going home because I was scared I'd never see you again. I know that's not an excuse but I never meant to hurt you I promise. I wanted to call but I thought you'd hate me and I was too much of a coward to try. It hurts so much without you. I know you'll probably never forgive me and I don't blame you but..."

He was cut off by Ville's fingers against his lips. He could see silent tears falling down his face but didn't realize he was crying too until Ville used his free hand to wipe away his tears.

"You still babble a lot huh?!" Ville said softly, a small smile on his face. Bam didn't reply, scared that if he did, ville would move his hand and the fingers that were now absentmindedly stroking his bottom lip would disappear.

"You hurt me so much Bam." Ville muttered

"I know." Bam choked out around the lump in his throat. "I'm so sorry."

"I know. I'm sorry too and I'm sorry I hit you." His hand moved from Bam's lips and gently touched his cheek. I love you still. That's why I'm here, I needed you to know even if you don't want me back."

"Really? even after what I said to you?"

"I can forget it if you can" Ville whispered, moving closer so their foreheads were touching, lips only inches apart.

"I love you Ville." Bam replied before pressing his lips gently against Ville's in a soft kiss.

i hope everyone enjoys where this is going, please let me know what you think.