Taking Back the Life You Stole

A/N:So here's the long awaited chapter.
Don't kill me when you've finished, just read my note at the end.

It's funny the things you remember, and the things that you don't. I don't remember Mikey arriving with Jenn. I don't remember Gerard screaming in rage and throwing a chair through the room. But I do remember the smell, the smell of coffee in the air from when I dropped my paper cup. It's so funny; I can't remember her name, the doctor who gave us the news. And still I know that I grabbed her by the shoulders and screamed at her. I can't remember what I screamed, but I know I did.

I don't remember how we got home, how we decided what to do with her body. Which of us who decided she should be cremated and buried next to Gerard's grandmother. I don't remember the look on Jenn's face as she found out her sister was dead. But I do remember the searing pain in my heart when I realized she was gone.

I and Gerard thought we'd make it through anything, that as long as we had each other everything would be fine. We also thought Ellie would survive, and we were wrong about that. I think that a relationship can only take so much. Out relationship broke when Ellie died. When the doctors told us they did everything they could.

I still love him, and I always will, but I knew I had to go away. I knew I couldn't stay there. I kissed him goodbye, and then I left. I didn't even bring any of my things.

I regret it some days, but other days I know I did the right thing. For all I know Gerard still lives in that house with Jenn. For all I know he's still single. For all I know, he's okay. But I'm not, and he knows that. He knows that I had to go; he knows that I needed time. He knows, and he doesn't judge. Gerard knows I'll be back, once I've sorted everything through, and he's willing to give me that time.

I left my fiancée after our youngest child died, and I know it's horrible. But Gerard understands. Gerard knows. And so do I. I would've died if I had stayed, I would've been eaten up from the inside. I couldn't do that, I had to escape. I wasn't mature enough to face some things just yet.

I still am not. But I will be. One day I will have worked things through, and I will return to them. I will return to Gerard, because he's the only thing in my life that has ever given me this much happiness. And I just hope that when I return he will still love me as much as I love him.

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He left. Frank left. All he left behind was a letter.


Dear Gerard.
I know saying this through a letter isn't the right thing to do, but I can't stand to see your face as I tell you this. I love you, I always have, and I always will. But I need to get away. I need some time, I need some space. I love you and Jenn, and I'll miss you with every breath I take. You two are the only light left in my other dark life, and I wouldn't want to lose you for anything. But I know I'll die if I don't leave, and I can't do that. I can't die before you and I get married. I can't die before we grow old together. That's why I have to leave. I don't know where I'm going, but I'm begging you not to find me. I'll be back once I've sorted things through, once I'm ready to face this. Please forgive me, and know that you've saved my life so many times. Just this time you can't. I love you, and I'll always be yours. I'm so sorry.

Frank.


I don't hate him, even though maybe I should. Jenn doesn't hate him either. How could we? We still love him with every bone in our body, and we always will. I'll always wait for him, because I won't give up on him. I know he'll come back, he has to. I need him.

I can't wait until he comes back.


The End.


A/N: So, I know you probably hate me for doing that, and for just ending it. But here's the deal; it's going to be a trilogy. So it's not really the real ending. There will be more. So don't unsubscribe, 'cause I'll give you information here about the sequel once it's out.

Once again, I know you might be pissed off for me killing Ellie, but I did what I felt was right. And yes, the part about Frank leaving is losely based on the last CSI episode where Sara leaves. But the letter is my own words, and so is the reason for Frank leaving. But yeah, I was inspired by that episode.

I hope you will stay tuned for the sequel.