Exiled My Heart

 

Edge swung his car into the arena parking lot and killed the engine,slumping into the wheel. He mumbled to himself,"What the fuck is goin on with everyone today?? Barrett and Cena are goin psycho...Drew's goin all spacey and weird on me...even though...that's kinda...my fault...maybe I shouldn't have fucked with him like that...but...somethin bout him...damn..." Edge bit his lip as he thought about his sexy sinister Scotsman.He always had a secret fondness for him,loving how ruthless and aggressive he was in the ring,not to mention that scorching accent.



He growled low at the thought of dominating his Scotsman,however,knowing somehow that Drew wanted him to do that to him. Edge was sharper than most would be on the phone and he caught those minute moans that the Scotsman was so desperately trying to choke down from him. Edge smirked at the thought that the mere sound of his voice was enough to turn Drew on all to hell,growling,"Heh...damn,Drew...didn't know ya wanted me to fuck ya that bad...heh...well then...ask and ya shall receive,babe...after I'm done with ya...ya'll never want anyone BUT the Rated R Superstar ever again...I guarantee it...once I claim ya,my Scotsman...I'm keepin your sexy ass...heh..." With that vowed,Edge chuckled darkly and got out of his car to make his way into the arena to find Randy,hoping that he was still somewhat sane.



Edge sighed softly as he found his best friend in the most vulnerable of positions,curled up against John Cena's locker room door. Randy looked as though he had cried himself to sleep too and Edge shook his head in sadness at seeing his friend's pain,kinda glad he didn't call thus waking him up.

However,he came to help Randy out so he slowly knelt down by Randy and put his ear to the door. He heard John's faint,hoarse cries of anguish along with what sounded like him throwing things against the walls. After a couple of minutes,he finally heard John start to sob out Wade's name as well in pure need and then sounding like he fell to the floor with a loud thud. Edge sighed out softly,swallowing down sudden tears,"Damn,Cena...you're actin just as fucked as Barrett was...I guess ya really DO need Barrett bad...fuckin hell,man...how the fuck are we supposed to help ya if ya won't let us in??" Edge rubbed his eyes in frustration and gently shook Randy by the shoulder,"Randy...hey...it's Edge...I'm here,man...s'ok..." Randy blinked and seemed to uncoil from his curled up position,keeping his head down,"Edge...is...did McIntyre...get Barrett in his right fuckin mind...? Cause...John is still...freakin the fuck out! Hell...I think he's gettin worse...I know you heard him just now..." Edge nodded,"Ya...I heard him...damn...now he's screamin for Barrett....but...ya...Drew's been a fuckin...damn good...almost a miracle worker for Barrett...so,now he and The Corre are on their way as we speak so...hopefully...once Cena hears Barrett...is here...ya..." Randy looked up and smiled psychotically,"Heh...don't be surprised if Barrett just gets yanked into that room without even havin to hardly say anythin to Cena..." Edge chuckled,"Heh...I won't be...shit,man...in that case...bet ya 10 bucks they'll be fucking all the way up till the time RAW starts!"



Randy snorted,"Pfft,why bet against something that I KNOW is goin to happen?? I mean,shit man... ya just now heard him sobbing out Barrett's name for fuck's sake!! Don't try to cheat me outta 10 bucks,ya conniving shit!" Edge chuckled,"Damnit,Randy...fuckin ruined my fun...killjoy..." Randy suddenly narrowed his eyes at him,"Hey...since when did ya get all first name on McIntyre...?? A-nd why the FUCK are ya blushin?" Edge gulped as his heart pounded at that slip-up at over-praising Drew and calling him by his first name,just attempted to cover it up with a laugh of,"Randy...your voices are tellin ya weird shit again! I said nothin different bout Dr...I mean...Mc...Intyre...and I aint fuckin blushin...fuck you!"



Edge mentally slapped himself for once again botching on Drew's name,but he didn't want to call him by his last name anymore. Technically,since he asked Drew out,he was sort of his boyfriend now.But,he was unsure about telling Randy how he truly felt about his sinister Scotsman,afraid that Randy would either not approve or mock him.'But,' Edge thought,'He's gonna see me with Drew soon...and damn...the way we were actin on the phone...I dunno which of us is gonna be able to keep their fuckin hands to themselves...cause damn...I'm gonna wanna...make out with him...sooo fuckin...bad....I wanna...hear those fuckin moans for me again...goddamn..." Lost in his lustful fantasies of fucking his Scotsman hard and hearing him scream for him in that luscious accent of his,he never noticed Randy's hand waving in front of his face till it started slapping him around the face.



"EDGE!! Wake up,ya shit!! The hell is wrong with ya?? Ya went all brain dead on me,shit!" Edge blinked and batted Randy's hand away with an annoyed snarl of,"The fuck,Randy?? I...I was thinkin!" Randy snorted and smiled psychotically,"Heh...yeah...right...thinkin...ya went all brain dead and flushed the minute I mentioned McIntyre...heh...more like thinkin bout fuckin him,huh? Don't lie to me either,man...I know ya..." Edge turned his head away from Randy,not wanting to meet those cold eyes of disapproval. Randy,however,turned his head to face him,voice softening,"Edge...seriously,man...ya really like McIntyre,huh?" Edge gulped and nodded shyly,murmuring softly,"N...not just...plain old...like,man...I mean...fuck..." Edge averted his eyes,suddenly uneasy at talking to Randy about stuff like this. Randy sighed,"Look,man...I aint that big on McIntyre...but,hell...you're my best friend...Rated RKO for fuck's sake...and if ya have any kind of feelins for the guy...then...hell...go for it before I have another psycho on my hands...I...only want ya to be happy,Edge...and if it has to be with McIntyre...so be it...at least tell me this aint no one sided thing!"



Edge looked at Randy finally with a shy smile and a faint blush,"N...nah,man...I...asked him out...after we get Barrett and Cena...all happy and shit...soo...ya...there's that to look forward to..." Randy smiled at seeing this different side to his best friend,looking so happy and his mind briefly wandered to the man that he was forbidden to ever have feelings for,thus he buried them down as deep into the recesses of his mind and soul as he could.He only allowed the image of a short crop of black hair with a sharp pierced face with a psychotic smile rather reminiscent of his own along with a heavily tattooed body also reminiscent of his own float across his mind for that brief second,feeling his heart shatter as usual as that image also shattered as his brain screamed only one word before becoming silent again,'Punk!' Edge looked in concern as Randy's face became eerily frozen,looking as though it was contorted in pain for a fraction of a second before becoming blank again like usual.



Edge shook Randy,"Um...hey...Randy! The hell..? Now,YOU'RE the one spacin out on me!! The hell is wrong with ya now???" Randy glared at him almost in hatred or perhaps even jealousy,"Nothin! Just...leave it,ok?? I only care bout Cena and you....THAT'S IT!" Edge was startled and tried to lay a comforting hand on Randy's arm,feeling him only flinch away from his touch with a snarl. Edge had never seen Randy act like this before,like he too was hiding his liking of someone from the rest of the world. Edge murmured softly,"Randy...if...you're goin...against...what you just told me...then...that's not fuckin fair...we all deserve to be  happy with the people we like....you said so yourself...don't hide what you feel...cause then...I dunno...Randy...you're not tellin me somethin...you've been in pain this whole damn time,havent you? For someone else...?"



Randy turned away,snarling,"Why do YOU give a fuck?! It don't matter...it aint NEVER gonna happen again cause one...it's...impossible here...and two....and it wasn't fair to have him have to hide it too...soooo...I let him go...so fuck off!" Randy bit his tongue hard to fight tears again as he remembered that last night with New Nexus leader,CM Punk,holding his own lil psychotic one in his arms as he took him hard until he bled,the way Punk loved for him to take him. The way Punk cried out how much he fucking loved him despite being all bloodied up. Sure,it wasn't the most purest of relationships,it was the most sadistic relationship he ever had and the best. But,once the roles went along,Randy realized that eventually their affair would be found out and it would not be fair to Punk to have to constantly sneak around instead of being out in the open.So,on that last night as he held his bloody lover in his arms,he told him straight up that they couldn't see each other anymore lest the rest of the WWE find out about them and he knew their relationship would never be accepted,it would always be considered shunned,forbidden and wrong.



Thus,he was the only man to have ever technically seen CM Punk fully broken. After he gave the love of his life one last bloody kiss goodbye and a promise that perhaps in the next life they could be happy together,he left Punk a crying mess in the middle of the New Nexus locker room as he walked out of his life.He had never been able to quite meet his former lover's eyes since,thus why he satisfied himself on taking out his anger and pain on his former lover's own team mates,which seemed to be what Punk was expecting out of him anyway.The most painful thing was that he still loved CM Punk with all his heart and soul,no matter how wrong their relationship might have been.He missed him terribly every day of his life,missed his maniacal laughter,the way he bounced up and down clapping like a psychotic little child when he got too excited,the way he screamed out for him how much he loved him every time he took him hard till he bled,the way he tasted and especially the way he would wake up to seeing the New Nexus leader vulnerable curled up against his chest with a sweet smile on that usually psychotic face.



And he knew Punk missed him too,he saw the way those maniacal eyes glazed over with the usual mix of love and lust whenever their eyes met before they went frozen again.Many were the times they passed each other and it was all Randy could do to hold back against yanking Punk out of sight to fuck him as hard as he could while Punk sobbed out his love for him once again.But,Randy knew the risk was too great and that he needed to just stay away from Punk for now,perhaps maybe even forever.



Edge watched in concern again as Randy's eyes took on that faraway dead look. He knew though that Randy hid everything and did not break down in front of others that easily. He hoped to at least try to get Randy to confide who it was that was causing him all this pain. Edge gently laid his hand on Randy's shoulder,feeling him instantly tense up,murmuring soothingly,"Randy...I'm the last one...that would judge...on who made ya happy...but...ya shouldn't have had to brake up! That's fucked! Who cares what the rest of the WWE thinks? Ya think Cena and Barrett are gonna give a fuck about who sees em together? And I don't give two fucks WHO sees me with Drew! I fucking LOVE Drew and I will NOT give him up just cause some shitty 'popular opinion' says I'm supposed to hate him! Fuck em!"

Randy turned to look at him with eyes glazed over in both unshed tears and undisguised anger,"Edge...it's...it's...not that fucking easy,ok?? Ya...ya will ALL...think...I'm a fucking traitor,ok?? A GODDAMN TRAITOR TO THE WWE!!!" He screamed out those last words,finally reaching his breaking point.



Edge only had to hear that one word,traitor,to know who Randy's ex-lover was,none other than New Nexus leader,CM Punk.Edge sighed,seeing the complications but again,thought of the similarities with John and Wade. Seeing that John would essentially be associated with Wade's reputation as the former ruthless leader and founder of the Nexus who humiliated,shamed and broke him in front of the world thus always baring the mark of the slave returning to the Master. But,now John would also be considered somewhat a part,if not a member of,The Corre. Edge patted Randy's arm,"Again,Randy...I hold no fucking judgments...hell...you and Cena are in the same goddamn boat if ya think about it really...what with The Corre and all. And to be honest...I think Cena is wayyyy past giving a shit bout what the WWE thinks now...he wants Barrett back bad and that's all that matters to him anymore...and THAT'S what you and Punk should be thinkin bout...what YOU TWO want...not anyone else!"



Randy gulped,"E...Edge...I miss my lil psychopath soo goddamn much,ok?? I mean...sure...our relationship was...somewhat...very...ya know..." Edge cut him off gently,"Randy...heh...lemme guess? Ya two were a couple of kinky lil S&M players,huh?" Randy gave a somewhat watery,dark chuckle,"Man,Edge...ya wouldn't know the half of it...but...fuck,man...P...Punk...wanted...ME...to show HIM pain...only me...only I...was allowed...to see...that side of Punk...as I was...the one...that controlled him...and I fucking LOVED it!! We...both did. It was what...made us happy...it was...how we...showed our love...twisted...but true! It was the best thing...I ever had...EVER! And everyday...I regret walkin outta Punk's life....and leavin him...nothin but...don't tell no one...but a broken man...in the middle of his own goddamn locker room...the love...of...my fucking life...and I broke him...ME...and I don't think....this can...nor will ever be fixed,Edge...so,don't even fucking try...as I told Punk...perhaps in the next life...we can find each other again...and finally be happy together with nothin in our fuckin way...soo just...leave it the FUCK alone,Edge! I made my goddamn choice...so,let me fucking...live with my goddamn pain! I fucking deserve it for what I did to him!!"



Edge watched as Randy then punched the wall hard,leaving a bloody smear while turning his head away to choke down a sob. Edge didn't know what to do for once, having never seen Randy this broken before. But he saw how Randy's eyes lit up when he reminisced about CM Punk and knew he was not lying,he truly loved CM Punk with his whole heart still being completely devoted only to him. Edge wondered then if he could get a word in with the maniacal New Nexus leader,having no ties to him other than just going straight to him for answers. He knew this could be considered suicidal,but he hated seeing Randy like this and come hell or high water, he would get Randy and CM Punk back together like they were meant to be thus ending his best friend's pain for good.



Taking a deep breath,hating to go behind Randy's back like this,Edge stood up,"Hey,man. Imma get somethin to eat or whatever...maybe call Drew and see where the fuck they are...uhh...ya gonna be okay here,man? I can...bring ya back a beer or somethin...?" Randy choked out morosely,"Just a fucking...diet soda or somethin...Punk...never did....want me drinkin...always said...wanted me...to stay alive...in case...we ever wanted...to...ya know...move things forward more...make things...p...per...permanent..." Randy then put his head back down into his arms and Edge saw his shoulders start shaking violently,knowing his friend finally broke.Still shellshocked that from what Randy had just said,that perhaps CM Punk had been hinting at marriage maybe,he slowly stood up,deciding that now would be a good time to try and bring CM Punk to Randy. If Punk saw how much pain Randy was still in,maybe he would listen to him. Edge then slowly crept off towards the New Nexus locker room,hoping he would live to see his new-found lover by the end of the night.