Backstage Pass

"Ian actually thought they were real??" Billie said with a hint of a laugh. Ian was Anna's new "boyfriend". She called him a boyfriend and I called him a fuck buddy. Ian was a forty-two year old roadie. He was slightly attractive but nothing compared to Billie Joe.


I swept my teal bangs to the side so I could get a better look at Billie. It's odd but I still felt like the little girl who just got the crush of her life. I wasn't over the God Period as I referred to it. I called it that cause he seemed larger than life..even though I had fucked him...multiple times...it seemed like a dream.


"Tell dad." I said. "Do it, do it." I rang out in the Starsky and Hutch way*if you know what I'm talking about*.
"You are so immature and yeah I'm telling dad."
"Go on, scoot."
"NO! Don't tell!!" Billie screamed.
"Oh, I will." Anna snickered.


I smiled when she left the bus but my smile faded as soon as I looked at Billie. He looked like he had just tasted something extremely sour . "Where's your clever idea to fix things?" I asked nervously. "I don't have one." Billie mumbled and I knew at that moment that I had just piled some more shit on top of the shit that was already building up. I bit my lip and looked over at Billie again in a sad attempt to cry for help. It's like we were planning what we should do. Blank. My mind was blank which didn't surprise me but I needed it to have some idea. Then a thought popped into my head as if it was sent from Billie's mind. "Run after her. Get her before she can get to anyone or a phone or a computer." I nodded at Billie and he looked at me like I was insane.


I ran off. I suppose we weren't as close as I thought we were because I was running alone. Then it finally got into Billie's thick head, no not that head.., to run after her as well.


We tackled Anna like a couple pro quarterbacks. I felt a sudden tinge of pain in my right shoulder. My shoulder had managed to hit a small crack in the concrete so perfectly that it injured my shoulder greatly but just like a pro I managed to hold Anna down as Billie attempted to lift her. I suppose fake boobs weigh a lot because it took both of us to carry her and she's heroine chic thin.


I collapsed as we released her in Billie's locked tour bus. She was like a deer in headlights not sure were she was because it all happened so fast. Her eyes were so blue that which made them look just as obviously fake as the rest of her eyes darted back and forth. She was taking in all her surroundings as if planning her escape. "Oh you're not going anywhere sweetie." I smiled. "You better not tell dad!"
"Why shouldn't I?" she asked calmly.
"Because I'm you're my sister."


She remained quiet like she finally respected me. Even if she didn't she was doing a fine job of faking it. "Don't tell and I'll do whatever you want."
Anna's eyes pierced deep into mine and she opened her mouth wide, scream ready, but then she stopped. Her eyes went from me to Billie. As soon as her eyes caught Billie's his back tightened and he quickly looked down. She turned back towards me with an unhealthily huge smile and said the most chilling thing I've heard "I won't tell dad if you let me be with Billie."

The first thing I could think of wasn't a way to kill her or a way to torture her to the point of no return. The first thing was "my god she is gorgeous" . It's not in the sexual way it was more of the way too honest with yourself way. The light shinning through the half closed blinds shinned on her deep tan face in slits that seemed to hit her in all the right places. Her eyes were gleaming brightly as if they themselves were smiling. Everything on her was fake but everything was perfect.


I was wrong about what Anna said being the most chilling thing I've ever heard. What came next was. "If it'll get her to shut up, it's worth it."Billie muttered to my surprise. I couldn't believe that he was considering it. In my book my dad finding out was well worth him not gaining any kind of relationship with my sister.

"Tell dad Anna."
"What?"
"Tell him. It doesn't matter anymore. Either way I won't be with Billie."

I tried to exit the bus as smoothly as possible to make what I said all the more earth shattering but of course nothing ever does work that simply. I stumbled over a pillow that had been thrown on the ground and then I couldn't unlock the door. I ended up having to ram into it to open it because Billie was walking towards me with those sad puppy dog eyes and I knew I'd give in if I let him get into my head again.