Best friends can also be best lovers

A/N: This is a piece of work which was originally in one part but I then decided to put it here separated in three (or maybe four) chapters. This is the first one, and I would really appreciate it if you all reviewed so I know what you think. Nothing is more annoying than see many people have read the story yet there aren't any reviews.

Warning: Lemon

Chapter 1

"Okay, I think this is enough for this day", Kaoru stated and put his guitar aside, and rest of the band mumbled something in agreement. Their practise session had been hard, but Kaoru didn't really have any complaints for everyone had given their best as always. He started searching for his cigarettes in his pockets and nodded at Kyo and Toshiya, who were already making their way to the door together with a haste. Those two had spent quite much time with each other lately - doing what, Kaoru actually didn't want to know. It was a common knowledge that Toshiya was bisexual, and besides Kaoru was well aware of the fact that the bassist had developed very deep feelings towards their grumpy little singer, for some odd reason.

"Bye then", he said. "And don't forget we have a practise tomorrow also."

"We won't!" Toshiya answered happily and Kyo muttered something that could not be heard because of Toshiya's loud yelling. "Don't you worry, Kaoru-kuuuun!" Kaoru watched as the two of them left the room and put a cigarette in his mouth. Shinya told he was also leaving, and soon only the two guitarists were left. Kaoru swore in his mind when he noticed he had lost his lighter and made his way to the old sofa where Die was already sitting - not very surprisingly - with a burning cigarette between his lips, looking somehow... odd. Actually, now when Kaoru really thought about it, the younger guitarist had acted very weird during the whole practise, being quiet and somehow distant, not at all himself. Usually Die was always joking around and making them all laugh, either because his jokes were so funny or then so stupid. But today Die had been different, so something must have happened.

Kaoru sat beside his friend and made a quick glance at him. It seemed like Die didn't even notice he was there.

"Do you have a light?" he asked and only then did Die notice he was not alone. He looked at him with a lost expression on his face and then nodded, looking confused.

"Oh... Yeah, I have a light..." he mumbled.

They were smoking in silence until Kaoru finally forced himself to say something. Maybe it was because he was the oldest in their bad or maybe it was because he was the leader, but he had always felt like it was his responsibility to try and support his band mates whenever they seemed to have a hard time. Toshiya, for example, had cried against his shoulder a couple of times.

"Die-kun... Would you perhaps... want to tell me something...?" he asked hesitantly. "You haven't been acting like yourself today. Is something wrong?"

Die just shook his head and then answered with a so tiny voice Kaoru only barely heard him. "I am just fine, Kaoru-kun..." Kaoru sighed and stubbed the rest of his cigarette out in an ashtray.

"Well, if you happened to feel like talking sometime later, you know you can always come to me, no matter what it is about. We are best friends after all, right?"

"Y-yeah..." Die whispered, and then suddenly he seemed to crack up completely. Kaoru stared at his friend frightened when he was gasping for breath as if he was going to burst into tears - and then he did exactly that.

"What will I do, Kaoru...?" Die whispered, tears wetting his cheeks. "We broke up... What will I do now...?"

"You broke up? Who did you broke up with?" Kaoru managed to ask with a completely thunderstruck expression, wondering if he should have known something he most definitely didn't. Had Die had some woman he had been dating with? Kaoru knew Die was always flirting with any woman who he found even one bit attractive but he had been completely oblivious that the younger guitarist had had something serious going on with some chick.

"I know our relationship wasn't working very good, it stopped working already some time ago but still... I didn't want to break up..."

"Who are you talking about, Die?" Kaoru asked now already the second time. "Who was it that you broke up with? Who... Who left you...?" Die looked at him with his lips trembling, he looked so miserable and ashamed, Kaoru had never seen his friend like this, and then he whispered a name.

"Shinya..." Die let his head hung down, sobbing quietly. "Shinya left me..."

Kaoru could only stare at Die shocked, trying to understand what he had just heard. He was partly expecting for Die to grin with his familiar manner and say he was just kidding. Die had to be kidding! Had Die and Shinya really been together?! How on earth he had not noticed anything if that was the case? He saw his band mates every week, even more often, he sat hours and hours in a tourbuss with them and yet he didn't know a thing about his two band mates being together? This has got to be some sick joke, Die and Shinya didn't even have anything in common except for drinking, but that's about it. Besides Kaoru hadn't have any idea neither Die or Shinya were interested in men at all.

"You and Shinya were together...?" he finally asked but his voice didn't sound half as calm as he had hoped it to sound. He just couldn't imagine Die and Shinya together... The whole idea made cold shivers run down his spine. Die just nodded and wiped his wet eyes with his hands. Kaoru realy didn't want to hear the answer for his next question but he asked it anyway.

"How long were you two together?"

"A year... Or a little bit longer actually..." Die whispered. "And I know that you... must find me disgusting... You must be so disgusted to sit here with me... You must be disgusted now that you know that your best friend is a... a filthy little... faggot..."

Die's words created very uncomfortable feeling inside Kaoru. He had been shocked to hear Die's confession about him and Shinya - he was still shocked -, but did he feel also disgust? He didn't want to believe that. Of course he had always thought Die liked women, the way he flirted with them and talked of them, so now that Die had told him he wasn't a hetero and that he had also dated their drummer, of course it had been shocking thing to hear. But was there any reason to feel disgusted? As a person, as his friend, Die wasn't any different than before even though he knew now that he liked men. Kaoru reproached himself for even having to wonder if he found his best friend disgusting. Of course it didn't matter at all whether Die liked men or women.

"Die-kun, it's alright", he said gently and reached to pat his friends back in a comforting manner. "I am sorry if I seemed shocked. I just couldn't even imagine that you like men.And I... find it very hard to imagine you and Shinya being together too. But if you like men, it is completely okay with me. No-one can choose their sexuality. I don't find you disgusting at all."

"You don't...?" Die breathed, trying to smile but it seemed more like a grimace, and almost immediately Die had hid his face to his knees and was muttering something that could not be heard. Hesitantly Kaoru shifted little closer to his friend wanting to show him his confession wouldn't restrain him for being close to Die, wanting to show that no matter how gay Die was, it didn't matter to him one bit. He whispered in a comforting voice: "You must feel bad because you and Shinya broke up, but maybe... you two just were too different...? When you get over this, I'm sure you'll find someone who is more like you. Right?"

"I feel so dirty!" Die sniffed but didn't raise his face from his knees. "I knew we were too different... I knew and yet I still... I shouldn't have, I shouldn't, but I was so lost, just jumped into a relationship..."

"Die, everything will be alright", he whispered as assuringly as he could. "It feels bad now, but you shouldn't worry too much. You can't -"

He fell silent when Die leaned closer to him, he pressed his body near his own, leaned his head against his shoulder the same way Toshiya had done so many times when Kaoru had comforted the bassist, but as it was Die who did this, it felt really weird. Kaoru could hear him sniffing. Was Die crying again?

"Thank you, Kao-kun..." he whispered. "For not... hating me..." Kaoru stroked Die's back soothingly and said only: "I could never hate you, Die-kun..."


***


Kaoru was laughing stupidly to some joke Die had just told him and made signs for the barman to get them more drinks. He felt fuzzy and nice because of all the alcohol he had already drank, it felt like he was light as a feather and he just wanted to be kind to everyone and tell the whole world he loved them. He gave the barman the money and threw the drink almost immediately down to his throat. Die did the same and Kaoru noticed despite his very drunken state that his friend had relaxed greatly since they got to the bar and was having very good time.

It had been only yesterday that Die made his great confession about his sexuality and his relationship with Shinya, and Kaoru, being as he was, had thought the best way to forget your worries and heartache was to go to a bar in a good company and get drunk. They were talking about everything that came to mind, laughing, smoking - Die had already smoked almost the whole case - and Kaoru just continued ordering drinks. Before midnight they both started to be so drunk that the bartender started giving them warning looks.

"Let's order last drinks and then we can head home, yeah...?" Kaoru slurred drunkenly.

"Aagh, I need to go to men's room. You'll wait for me...?" Die slurred back and tried to get up, but his balance wasn't very good as drunk as he was, and so he just ended up falling to the bar's floor at his butt. Kaoru started to laugh and Die did the same, starting to crawl as walking seemed to be too hard. Watching this Kaoru started to laugh even more but shut his mouth when he felt the doorman's strong hand on his neck.

"Alright, gentlemen. I think it is time for you to go home", the doorman said and soon Kaoru found himself standing unsteadily outside the bar. Soon Die came too, almost being carried by the doorman, laughing hysterically. The younger guitarist threw his arms around his neck so he could stay up and Kaoru staggered. Die most definitely wasn't light, he was much more broad-shouldered and muscular than him and when they were both so drunk it wasn't easy to stay balanced while other was hanging from your neck. Kaoru tried to think which was the right direction to go so that they could get to his apartment. Thank god he didn't live more than one kilometer away because it really seemed like he maybe had to carry Die there, the younger guitarist was totally wasted.

"Come on, Die-kun, let's go. We have a kilometer to walk", he told to his friend and tried to pull his arms away from him. There was chilly outside and the sooner they got to leave the sooner they would be home. He staggered again and giggled as he felt Die's hot breath tickling his neck.

"Die, stop that!" he laughed. "Let's go already."

"Mmm... Kao-kun... Go where...?" Die asked confused.

"My apartment. It will take a little walk to get there. Come now..." Kaoru giggled again and scratched his neck from where Die's breath had tickled him. Somehow they started to stagger along towards Kaoru's home.

It seemed to take an eternity to get to Kaoru's apartment and Kaoru and Die had to stop often because walking was just too hard. Other people who were out that night didn't see them in a very good light and Kaoru heard how some man who passed by them whispered under his breath: "Damn, hairy gay people!"

"I'm not that hairy", Kaoru muttered little offended, trying not to fall when he and Die were walking hands on each others hips for support. They stopped again soon when Die insisted that he had to smoke and so Kaoru decided to smoke one too and burned his finger while lighting his cigarette.

"I need to go to bathroom..." Die whined leaning his head against a lamppost.

"Just three more blocks and we are at my house", Kaoru said and sucked at his finger. "You can hold until there if you just - Hey, you can't piss there!" But his words were too late, since Die had very wisely - at least he himself seemed to think it was wise - to do exactly that against the building wall. At first Kaoru swore in his drunken mind but then he actually thought this was quite funny and started to laugh out loud. Until he realized his stupid friend didn't know how to get his pants back on. Great! How the hell Die was so wasted even though they had drank the same amount and Die was bigger than him?

"Let me help..." he finally sighed and wrapped his arms around the taller man from behind, trying not to think about too much what he was doing when he put his boxers back on, closed the zipper of Die's jeans and even managed to close the button.

He realized closing his eyes as he pressed his body against Die's own and for some reason it felt very nice to feel the warm skin of Die's firm abdomen against his fingertips - how his hand had gotten inside Die's shirt, he didn't know, but neither did he care. And somehow it felt so very natural to press his face against Die's neck and feel the softness of the skin, to smell his scent...

"Kao-ru... Aah..." the younger guitarist moaned with a trembling voice and Kaoru grinned when he felt how Die pressed his bottom against him.

"Ew! Go and fuck somewhere else!" some passer-by hissed.

"Disgusting!" said another passer-by.

Kaoru was soon back to reality with those words and a little puzzled he let Die go, stepping away from him, shaking his head to clear his mind. Had he just been caressing Die's bare skin...? No, he was losing his mind! He was too drunk and so was Die, and they should head home right now. Home, so they could go to sleep and sober up.

"Come on, Die-kun..." he sighed and grabbed his arm gently. Die grinned stupidly and wrapped his arm yet again around his waist. Kaoru felt the younger man's lips touch his cheek lightly, but when Die let his head lean against his shoulder, he thought that it might have been an accident. Or was it maybe something else? Kaoru didn't know, but he had a feeling he wouldn't have cared much if it was done on purpose. Wrapping his own arm also around Die's waist the two of them started to head towards his home.

Soon they were standing at the stairway and Kaoru was trying to get his key into a keyhole, but it wasn't such an easy task, first because the key was so small and in his drunken state he couldn't get it to the keyhole right, and second because Die was giggling like a mad and was hanging on him, making concentration he would have needed to get the door open very hard. They almost fell to his little hall when Kaoru finally got the door open - after five minutes of trying - , and then, after he had somehow managed to close the door behind them, they were lying on the floor, laughing even though neither of them knew why.

Kaoru however forgot to laugh when he suddenly realized Die's hand making its way inside his shirt and at the same moment when his fingers pinched around his nipple, Die's full and soft lips crushed against his own. He moaned in the kiss, answering to it almost immediately, feeling himself to harden when Die rolled on top of him. He raised his hips as Die's other hand reached also under his shirt, he groaned excitedly when Die made him feel pleasure he had known nothing about by pinching and twisting his nipples.Somewhere inside him Kaoru was, however, aware that this what they were doing could not be right, but he just couldn't make himself care at the moment... They were both drunk and this felt more than just good, why should they stop...?

He laughed when Die's lips caressed gently the skin of his neck, when his wet tongue touched teasingly his Adam's apple, and his hands fumbled and found their way under Die's shirt, he felt the skin of his firm stomach and chest, and when he touched the younger man's sensitive nipples, he made a pleased sound. Kaoru pressed their lips back together when they had stopped kissing only for a moment, he caressed Die's lips with his own, tasted him, they were groping each other shamelessly and then they were staring at each other with hazy eyes, panting, and Kaoru could feel that he wasn't the only one of them who was erect.

Die grinned down at him and pressed his hips a little harder against his own, curious, and Kaoru let out a lustful cry. He grabbed Die's long hair almost little too violently, pushing his lips to his own, and when the kiss was over he asked hoarsely, surprising himself with his boldness: "Do you want to go to bedroom...?" Die, however, didn't seem to be surprised at all as he nibbled his neck and whispered hotly in his ear: "As if you even needed to ask..."

And only moments later they were on his bed kissing passionately, groping and touching each other's bodies everywhere, Kaoru was moaning in the kiss when Die suddenly squeezed his ass, and then he noticed that the younger man was trying to remove his trousers.

Kaoru tried to force himself to think what was happening, he tried to understand that this was his best friend he was kissing and touching so heatedly, and he tried to think what they would do when they woke up in the morning and remembered... Why did Die want him? Why did he kiss and grope and tried to get in his pants? And why he, the one who was supposed to be hetero, did exactly the same to Die? What if this ruined their friendship and they could never again look each other in the eye...?

Kaoru made a pleased sound when he felt Die's warm fingers wrap around his now exposed cock, and he forgot everything he had just been thinking. When had been the last time anyone except for himself touched him there...? He didn't even remember, and he moaned willingly when Die started to stroke him forcefully, wonderfully, oh how great it felt... Kaoru's own fingers reached for Die's jeans, opening them as quickly as possible, he removed Die's boxers... Die raised his hips when Kaoru pulled his trousers down, panting and moaning at the same time as Die gave him the best hand job he remembered he had ever received, and then he saw his friend's standing cock and could do nothing but just stare. It was bigger in erection than he had thought it would be, and he wrapped his fingers around his friend's pulsing length, and he realized it didn't feel at all weird. It was good to hold Die in his hand, and as Die stroked his own cock, he too started to do the same for him.

Their bodies pressed more close to each other, Kaoru was kissing the younger man's soft lips, he panted in the kiss when Die touched him and his own hand rubbed Die's own, weeping cock. His other hand traveled to Die's bare, smooth backside and the younger man let immediately out an approving sigh.

"Kaoru... Yes..." he moaned and Kaoru didn't hesitate as his fingers reached for Die's tight opening and he pushed one finger inside of his friend testingly. Die was so hot and unbelievably tight and yet Kaoru could feel him opening for him, allowing him to go further and Die panted loudly, moving his ass against his hand. Kaoru's cock was so hard and the tight feeling of Die's muscles squeezing around his finger and Die's hand on his organ at the same time made him fear he would cum right then, but he forced himself to continue and he pushed another finger inside the younger man and then third, making his body stiffen, but then he relaxed, getting used to his fingers. Starting to finger him he jerked him off the same time, making Die to create such wonderful voices, panting and moaning almost in a girl-like manner, and Kaoru himself groaned in extacy as Die squeezed and rubbed his length with such skill...

"Kaoru... Ah, I'm going to cum..." Die cried suddenly, arching his back as his whole body started to tremble uncontrollably. "Oh fuck, I'm cumming... Oh, Kaoru... Kaoru...!"

Sticky semen came in powerful spurts all over his hand and his bedspread and his clothes as the younger guitarist came with a loud, high-pitched scream. Kaoru felt his muscles contracting around his fingers, he felt Die's hand squeezing his cock hard, and he pulled his fingers out carefully, giving Die's lips a gentle kiss. Die answered it, smiled faintly and then Die suddenly moved down his body and Kaoru felt a hot wetness enveloping his tip and then almost his whole length. He didn't protest, he raised his hips slightly, and moved his fingers to stroke the hair on the nape of his neck.

"Oh yes... Suck me hard..." he breathed allowing himself to enjoy the sensation when Die obeyed him and started to suck his cock with such force he knew he wouldn't last long. It felt so fantastic, Die took him deep in his hot mouth again and again and again and while sucking he hummed at the same time, making his throat vibrate so that Kaoru came before he could even warn the younger man.

He came hard in Die's mouth and the younger man drank every drop, swallowing everything greedily, and when Die wanted to kiss him after that, Kaoru let him do it. Die's wet tongue touched his own and he tasted his own semen in the other guitarists mouth and took Die in his arms, squeezing him tight against him, not wanting to let go. He felt so warm and cozy and completely satisfied. He started to drift into sleep.

Die kissed his hair and mumbled his name sleepily. Kaoru didn't have any strength to reply and soon they were both asleep, hands around each other's bodies, like lovers.

TBC...


A/N: Yeah, I made Die quite OOC in the beginning of this chap, making him cry and all. My friend who first got to read this actually burst out laughing when she read the part where Die's lips tremble, saying she couldn't imagine it. Oh well, neither can I, really, but I just had to do it! xD
Anyway, please review and tell me if you liked this at all. I really, really want to know! This was my first time I've written a sex scene in english though, so try to understand...