All this is for you

Title - All This Is For You
Author - despairsrae (LJ)/ Asphyziata (dA) / DespairsRae (AFF/JrockVisual.com)
Rating - NC-17
Warnings - Death
Pairings - Hizumi(D’espairsRay) x Kyo (Dir en Grey)
Summary - Kyo decides its time to get rid of another lover.
A/N - I don’t own them.


I thought you said seven at night under the tree. I swore it sounded this way, and yet here I am, waiting, as usual, for you to show up, and nothing but the cool winter wind floating across my chapped lips and through my hair. My eyes are lazily scanning the existence of the barren park only to find leaves wisping by in tattered shapes and the sound of the trees rustling their blackened branches.


I’ve been thinking about all this waiting I do these days for you to show up, and I’ve been thinking of taking pages out of other rock star’s books. Actually, one seems plausible right now, but I don’t have knife, so I can’t try it out. Pity. I thought that scene of you finding me laying on the ground with the blood on my chest and my hand laying curled on the ground would be enough for you to realize that this wait literally killed me.


So tired. Can you go any faster or is this how you’ve treated all your lovers, in the same obscure fashion that wants the perks of bedding you only to find that you can’t even keep a simple date in a wooded area in December. Now that I think of it, I bet you planned this. This whole thing was planned because this is how you lose your lovers and move onto the next one.


You let them die in the cold weather of December waiting for you under trees with hearts beating the love and affection that you have faked for the last few months. Well, Kyo, I suppose this is how you wanted it right? I’m so tired that I don’t want to move from my position on this cold, wet ground, but that’s how you wanted it right?


I’m thirsty though, where is that flask? I took one with me and it contains that coffee you said was really good. Only this time it doesn’t take like that vanilla flavor, its taste it grotesque and almost almond. The sky is pretty this time of year, I almost regret this being the last time I get to watch the colors dance across the sky, but its been a nice night to watch it one last time.


I close my eyes slowly, taking in the last few droplets of red and orange. A single tear drops down my face as I feel the sensation become my last. My hand, is where I hoped it would land, on the cold existence that is winter and the regret in my heart that I thought this could work.


Lyric #5

anything at any price
all of this for you

– Diary of Dreams -- Butterfly:dance!