night time talks

Chapter one.


'It feels like I can't breath......I didn't want it this way' Kelly rested her head in her hands as Carrie stood over her. The taller blonds eyes were clouded with tears as she listened to her wife speak.

'I didn't do this to you......Im not to blame....'

'Well then who is ....'Kelly was on her feet now staring deeply into Carrie's eyes. She knew she shouldn't be angry with her but the truth was she was the only one to be angry with.

'All im doing is loving you.........'

'Well if this is what it feels like to be loved by you maybe im better off not being loved at all.....' The moment the words left Kelly's lips she knew she was wrong. The hurt look in her wifes eyes was to much to take. Grabbing her lap top from the table she stormed passed Carrie slamming the bedroom door after her.

' why the hell do you stay married to me then......?' Carrie screamed at the closed door. She couldn't even remember what had started this fight off, it seemed these days no matter how the fight started it always ended the same way. Doors being slammed and Carrie spending the night on the bed in her office.


Kelly pov.


Kelly stormed back and forth across her room as she searched frantically for her favourite night shirts. All she wanted was a nice quiet dinner but like always it had ended with a screaming match. She couldn't believe Carrie had became so selfish over the years, they had only been married three years and already she was feeling it was too long. Her mother had warned her not to get married, she told her it would end in tears maybe she had been right, Maybe carrie wasnt the one.

Finally finding her tshirt rolled up in a ball under carrie's pillow the short blond stripped. She could hear Carrie banging around in her office next door, probably hiding the evidence Kelly thought. Even though Carrie had sworn to her that she wasn't cheating Kelly knew the truth, she could feel it every time the blond left the house. Every time she came home two hours late cause 'traffic' was bad. There had to be someone else, it was the only thing that was making any sense. In a way it made what was happening to them now a little easier to deal with, If carrie was just a cheat then it was her in the wrong but if Carrie was to be believed and she wasn't cheating then maybe Kelly was to blame for the mess they were in. Maybe she was following the path her mother took with marriages, something she had promised herself she wouldn't do. Something Carrie promised her she wouldn't let her do.

Hearing the familiar sounds of her laptop being switched on Kelly breathed a heavy sigh. She had laughed at Ashley when she said it was fun talking in chat rooms, nothing Kelly would ever enjoy. But after one to many nights laying in bed waiting for her wife to get home Kelly gave it a try and she was thankful she did. Not only had it killed hours of boredom when Carrie was out the house doing god knows what but she had actually met someone. Well not met, it's not like she knew this person, but the person they choice to be late at night while she sat in her bed had helped her through . She smiled to herself as she saw the small box pop up on screen.

Tx101-(Hey Blondie)

Lonelywife- (Hey) Kelly typed back.

Carrie's pov


Carrie looked around the cold office once again, she had been spending to many nights laying there looking at the white walls. Sometimes she could hear Kelly crying from the next room and there was a time she would have broke down the door just to get to her, but now. Now she couldn't take the rejection any more. To try and hold the woman she loved only to be pushed away. Carrie knew it was all down to Jeanne. The older woman had been trying and trying for years to poison Kelly's mind, it looked like it was beginning to work. It wasnt the first time Kelly had screamed out in a rage asking why she had married her. The truth was if Carrie didn't love her wife so much she would have left months ago. The cheating question was coming up more and more and Carrie was beginning to question it herself. Had she had sex with someone else, no. She hadn't even thought about sex with someone else, the idea of letting another person touch her body repulsed her. But her mind, she didn't know if her mind was cheating. silly to even wonder that but Carrie had been thinking about it more and more. So when Kelly asked if she was cheating Carrie was asking herself the same thing.

Kicking off her boots Carrie watched as they banged off the wall before landing in a heap on the floor. She watched the screen on her computer load up as she stripped off her clothes. Again she had forgotten to grab her tshirt from under her pillow, which meant she was sleeping naked again. She looked around the office once more, the small single bed sat against the wall, she could feel tears in her eyes as she thought about her and Kelly's bed being pressed up against the other side of the wall. A small smile came to her face as she remembered Kelly trying to convince her to push their king size bed against a wall so she wouldnt fall out. It had taken Carrie months to get used to Kelly climbing over her body in the middle of the night when she wanted to use the bathroom.

Her eyes caught the computer screen as her IM popped up. It was the first thing she checked before anything else. She seemed to live for these little messages, short little words that seemed to brighten up her day. Maybe she was cheating after all. She heard the little noise telling her someone just signed on. She smiled seeing the name. Opening a box she began to type.

'Tx101-(Hey Blondie)

Lonelywife-(Hey) Carrie smiled settling herself against the seat as she began to type