Dont Please

Chapter one Matt’s pain

This fic was inspired by the song “Might as well be on Mars” By Alice Cooper.

As I sit hear alone thinking about you it’s hard to imagine we could have had a life together. You told me you were better alone without me in your life without me by your side. Where does that leave me who am I if I’m not with you, 4 weeks you’ve been gone it feels like a life time.

You told me no one else mattered to you, you told me there was no one else in your life, and you told me that I was the one you wanted to spend your life with. Yet here I am sat here all alone in a city a town a hotel room I haven’t I clue where I am.

I tried to call you on your cell the answering machine picked up the call “please I ask it tell me what I did wrong tell me why you went away” I feel like I don’t exist, I feel invisible to you, I feel like you’re a billion miles away from me when your across the hall.

I can hear the music I can hear the talking I can hear you laughing, r u laughing at me. Sitting here all alone thinking about you wanting you here with me wanting you to need me as much as I need you. I bet he’s there with you I bet he’s sharing the room with you, I heard the rumours I heard the boys talking I know he’s involved I know he took you away from me.

My light is fading now the drugs are taking hold of my mind of my body I’m drifting down in to the deep dark lonely space that my world has turned into since you left since you went away. I need you I can see you in my mind in my room your here I can feel you holding me close wanting me, needing me I know you’re not here I know it’s my mind I like what it shows me what it gives me.

I feel my mind drift the room becoming darker as I disappear; life will be simpler for you now no more answering machine messages each day. No more passing me on the stairs, no more looking at my face across the ring, I’m going, going for good out of your life. What will they find when they come, 5 words left on a napkin ready for you to read they will say

“I love you Ted” Matt