Lass mich nicht im Stich

for in case you don't know Tokio Hotel, which shouldn't happen but the world isn't perfect...their a german poprockband who's really big in Europe....and i really mean BIG ... they've got millions of fans and won a lot of awards, their songs are awesome in both english and german but i'm partial to the germanversion...
it's my first ever... so I have like no idea if it's good.
It's twincest....don't like then don't read cuz i'm not forcing you to read this...
Btw the poem underneath is mine. From my time when I was really depressed. I like writing poems. :)

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You don’t look at me anymore.

I don’t know why… What happened, Tomi? That caused you to stop looking, laughing, talking and sleeping in the same bed with me?
Why did you stop hugging me when I’m sad? Why Tom, why?! What did I do wrong!! Tell me, ‘cause I feel so alone with none to save me from falling down. It’s in my mind the whole time and I can’t stop thinking about it. I’m afraid that I’m losing control of it, come back to me…

Even Gustav and Georg noticed it as well. They asked me what’s wrong. If we perhaps had a twin fight. A twin fight Tomi, a fucking twin fight, mein Gott. What went wrong that they would think we fight. We never fight. We’re twins for heavens sake. Twins!!! But yet twins shouldn’t argue as much as we do, shouldn’t avoid or ignore one another like you do.

You’re me older brother. I might dislike to admit it out loud and look put out when people point me to it, but you are. I always look up to you, you were my hero when we were children. You made me feel better when I didn’t win StarSearch saying that for you I was the only real star.
You still are my hero. You’re always so calm and rational when I’m all hyped up. Except when you’re drunk from a night out then I’m the rational one, which is a scary thought.

At least before you still let me know that I’m your little, younger brother. I like being your little brother Tomi, wouldn’t want anyone instead. Twin or not, I would chose you everytime. Family is forever…. Twins are forever!

Do you remember the moment we made our brother-pact? I do. Just before Andreas found us by that small creek in the secluded area of the park, we made our first and still sacred promise to eachother. You can still see the scar if you know were to look and really pay attention to it.

Do you remember that fight you had with Oliver in the 9th grade? I’m sure you do after all you came back home with a split lip and a black eye. Oliver had it worse though. Gott, mom was so angry at you for fighting, she grounded you. You weren’t even allowed to play your guitar. But you never told her why did you? Only Oliver, you and me know.

Do you remember the time I called you Tomi and Tomcat in front of the Gustav and Georg? You were so embarrassed by it that you retaliated with calling me Billa and Billanda. Man, Georg and Gustav teased me about it for days. They still do actually. But secretly you didn’t mind me calling you that, did you?!

Where did it go Tom? Our closeness, that made people wonder how close we were? That made us sense if something was wrong with the other? I want it back Tomi, I want US back. Don’t you?
Maybe … maybe you’ll be happy again if … if I left … I’m going to miss you, big brother.

Say bye to Gustav, Georg, Saki and David from me, you’ll find another singer for Tokio Hotel. Someone better than me…

I’ll miss you …… my twin ………

Your little twinbrother,
Bill


If only
You take the time
To look
Past this shell
A indestructible wall
Made out of anger
Hurt and despair
To keep me safe
Of the insults
And guilt
Because all you see
Is a happy face
Everyday going
on and on
seemingly not caring
about everything
inside I’m falling
deeper in the depression
of keeping up appearances
someday I’ll be able
to take away the wall
my shell of safekeeping
but today is not yet
that day


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i know i know it's short... i'm working on it..well for the other chapters at least *grins* so be kind will you