Show Me Love

Chapter 10:
I don’t know what’s worth fighting for…
Or why I have to scream…
I don’t know why I instigate…
And say what I don’t mean.
-Linkin Park

Benji’s Pov

My eyes snap open as soon as his offer sinks in. I look at him, he’s just sitting there, eyes searching mine while his fingers are gently caressing me through my pants.
I take a moment to ponder what he’d said.

“I want you to fuck me.” He repeats.

‘Is that all this means to him?’ I wonder as he moves to slide my zipper open. I think back then to what he’d said at the hospital. Smiling, I pull his hands away and I’m shocked to see the hurt that’s in his eyes.

I bring his hands to my lips, kissing them softly before I put my hand behind his neck, pulling him to me.

“No…I can’t fuck you…” His protest is silenced by my lips.

“…but I can make love to you. We'll save the fucking for another time when I don't feel like shit.” Once again, my lips claim his. Sliding my tongue over his bottom lip, I pull at the piercing that adorns it.

Pulling away, I smile at him before urging him to stratle me again. A slow smile lights up his face when I press up into him.

“Benji…I…” I press a finger to his lips before sitting up a little with a slight hiss as the aching in my chest reminds me of my bruised ribs.

“No Billy…no words…no thinking…just feel.” I say this as I start to nibble down his throat to his collar bone. I bite down playfully, enjoying how his body arches back, soothing the tender flesh, hoping that I’d left a mark for all to see.

Moving carefully, I urge him to take control of me, knowing by the hesitation in his crystal clear blue eyes that Matt had never allowed him this pleasure. I move slowly when he gently pushes me to lay back down and smile softly, closing my eyes when he slides his tongue down my neck.

I watch as he slides out of his pants, grinning wickedly when his erection is revealed to my wondering eyes.

“Why Billiam, I never took you as the commando type.” I say, knowing that it would drive him crazy.

“Oh shut up.” I just grin innocently at him.

I stare open mouthed at the beauty that was spread wantonly before me. His gaze darkens as I skim my hands up his body and I’m reassured by the tremors running through him. I sigh softly when he continues his path from earlier, sighing as he pulls at my pants, gasping as he runs his tongue gently over my marble hard newly exposed length.

He pulls away too quickly for my taste, and I watch as a smirk lights up in his eyes when he gets up, moving slowly, going into the bathroom to get some lotion. When he gets back, I'm running my hand over my shaft, tiny whimpers coming from my red kissed lips. It’s the sound of his quiet gasp that catches my attention. He looks at me, his eyes tracing every inch of my now fully naked body. He walks over to where I'm laying, my confidence high after seeing the way his eyes darken in intensity.

After climbing back onto the bed, he lean down and kisses me. He seems to be trying to suck my soul out of my body through my mouth. I pull back panting and watch as he reaches for the bottle he’d placed on the nightstand.

He coats his fingers in the cool substance and begins by pressing one into him. He hisses and his back arches when he presses the other two fingers into his body. He moans in disappointment when I pull his fingers out of him.

After coating me, I watch as he slowly lowers himself down on me, and I'm almost afraid that I was going to hurt him. He takes that fear away when he slams his hips into mine.

We lay there like that for a moment, each of us enjoying that euphoria that you get at the beginning of sex. He starts to move, gentle thrusts that designed to drive me up the wall.

“Harder!” I yell, my nails tearing down his back as he begin to pound his hips into mine. He squeezes his muscles around me every so often, getting tighter the closer he gets to orgasm, and it takes everything I have to hold off until he comes.

Placing one hand on the bed beside my head, he trails his free hand down his body to his leaking erection. He gasps and starts to move into his hand.

“Oh…Gods Benj…I’m so fuckin’ close.” He opens his eyes and meets my gaze and they seemed to glow.

He arches and sighs as he comes, the warm liquid coating his fingers and our stomachs.

His body spasms, squeezing me and the pressure is too much. I come screaming his name while he holds me close to him.
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Star: Please don't hurt me