Baby Can I Hold You

Kelly lay in the hospital bed her head was filled with questions no one seemed to know the answer to, she had watched her mother and Ashley go out their way not to look Kelly in the eye. She knew something serious was wrong, the doctor said she had some memory lose but she couldn't have forgotten that much, her head felt pretty clear for what she had been through. She heard the door open in walked a blonde girl, another nurse thought Kelly. They have been in and out since she woke up, sticking needles in her testing her for all sorts.



Kelly waited for the blonde to speak but nothing was happening, Kelly thought she might be fan or something. It was happening more and more, fans coming up to her and completely freezing, their minds going blank, Kelly knew what that felt like now. Deciding to give the nurse a brake Kelly spoke up first.



' I don't think I have any more blood left for you to take.....the other nurse got it all.' Kelly smiled causing the blonde to burst out crying. ' Hey OK OK.......I was joking take all the blood you want' The blonde shook her head moving closer to the bed.



' I'm not a nurse.....My names Carrie....I'm....I'm' Carrie didn't know what to call herself, she really wanted to say girlfriend but knew that would freak Kelly out. 'I'm a friend of Ashley's....Yeah I'm a friend of Ashley'



'Is she OK?......she and my mom seemed pretty upset when they left.' Carrie smiled, something never changed. Even losing her memory didn't stop Kelly worrying more about others.



' She was really worried about you....we all were..'



'we've met?' Carrie shook her head, it was better not to confuse Kelly. 'Well im Kelly' Kelly held out her hand for Carrie to take which she did. She closed her eyes feeling Kelly's soft hand in her own, the feeling was overwhelming. Opening her eyes she saw that Kelly had closed her eyes too, when she opened them she quickly pulled her hand away offering Carrie a small smile.



'Yeah well I just wanted to see how you were......I'm leaving now' Kelly watched Carrie closely as she made her way towards the door.



' You'll come back though?' Carrie turned smiling.



'I'll be back......just get better.' Carrie looked at Kelly once last time before walking out the door. Ashley was standing waiting for her, holding Elle in her arms. Carrie took Elle back. 'I'm your friend' she told Ashley.



'And im your friend' Ashley said in a child like way.



'No .....she thinks im your friend......I didn't know what else to tell her.'



'Oh....I can go with that.'



Carrie and Elle said goodbye to everyone before leaving the hospital hand in hand. As she put Elle in her car seat she realised she had no clue how to look after a child, She killed the goldfish. Panic suddenly set in what if she forgot to feed Elle or something, God they shouldn't have made her the child sitter.



'Elle how often do you eat?' Carrie waited for the little girl to think.



'When im hungry....or when there's really nice cake.......I'm always hungry for cake......You got any cake Auntie Carrie?' Carrie looked through the mirror.



'no honey but I will have.......we'll buy some, and anything else you want.' Carrie watched Elle nod before laying her head back against her car seat. She knew it had been a long day for her, her whole world had changed in a matter of hours.



The three hour drive to Carrie's house was surprisingly fast, Elle had slept the whole way which Carrie and thought was a good thing. That was until they got home and Elle suddenly became very awake, she had insisted Carrie play every game she could think of before finally giving in and crawling into the bed in carrie's guest room. After twenty minutes of Carrie trying to remember how the fairy tale Little Red Riding Hood went Elle was happy enough to go to sleep again, as long as Carrie left the Hall light on.



Carrie lay in the dark of her own room, her mind focused mainly on Kelly. When the day had started she hadn't expected it to end this way, instead she had expected them to be laying in the bed together. Safe away from the world just them and Elle together, No one would know they were there. Carrie had planned to get them all up early in the morning, she would take them to the beach and give Elle her first lesson in swimming in the big sea. She envisioned Kelly standing on the sand watching them,the sun in her hair. Carrie could see her there, hear her laughing at whatever Elle was doing.



Carrie heard little foot steps coming closer, she looked at the clock, the red letters flashed 4:23. She was amazed it had taken the little girl that long before coming in, she had expected her soon. Pulling herself up onto Carrie's bed Elle tried her best to be sneaky, Carrie smiled to herself letting the little girl thinks she had gotten away with something. Feeling her little body cuddle up closer to Carrie, she felt herself relax completely. She knew Kelly believed that Elle was to big to be sleeping in the bed with anyone but she knew Kelly would be the first to welcome her daughter in,the little girl needed to feel safe and Carrie knew it was her job now to give it to her.





Kelly lay in her hospital bed, everyone had gone home a few hours ago leaving her with only the nurses for company. Not that Kelly wanted any one around her, she had to think. There were so many things missing, the doctor had explained to her what was happening and promised to fill her in with any questions she had, but only when she had rested. Her mind kept going back to Ashley's friend, the blonde. She was a nervous thing, it had been quite funny to see, she had questioned Ashley about her but she insisted she was just a girl she knew.



Ashley had been different with her, maybe it was something to do with the accident but it seemed like her friend kept wanting to say something but couldn't bring herself to do so. She tried to sleep but her mind was going over and over trying to remember something, anything that would trigger something inside her. She lay still in bed praying for sleep to come but every time the blonde would come causing her to be wide awake again.