Baby Can I Hold You

Carrie sat still in the bed, the covers pulled up to her chin, she didn't understand why she was feeling so nervous. She was acting like it was her first time. Kelly had left Carrie alone in the bedroom to do something in the bathroom, Carrie didn't know what but Kelly had been gone for over 40 minutes now. They had both put Elle to bed an hour ago, the little girl loving the new routine of her mother and Auntie Carrie taking care of her. Carrie was sure the little girl had almost forgot her father existed, she never mentioned him and even seemed happier than Carrie could ever remember her being. Looking up when she heard the bathroom door finally open, Carrie was faced by the most beautiful thing she had ever seen. Standing in front of her Kelly stood in only a pair of panties and bra.



' I couldn't find the Pj's' She sounded almost frightened of standing there almost naked.



'I can see' Carrie really didn't know what to say, she knew if she let her mouth work something stupid would come out. Kelly timidly walked towards the bed her eyes never leaving Carrie. Carrie was busy trying not to stare to much to notice Kelly moving at all, she realised when she felt the bed dip and Kelly get in beside her. The both sat upright in bed not looking at each other.



'So Elle sleeps all night?' Kelly realised she didn't know the answer to that.



'Yep all night....she wont get up till morning.'



'Good'



Silence.



'And your sister wont be home for another two days?'



'Yep....another two days.'



silence.



'And we are both pretty pathetic right?'



'Ye....wait what?' Kelly turned to look at a smiling Kelly.



'we're acting like we've just met..... I mean come on lets try not to act like we are complete losers.' Carrie sat shook.



'I'm not a loser.....you might be but im not.' Folding her arms Carrie sat facing the wall.



'May not be a loser but your acting like a baby.' Kelly whispered.



'Loser'



'Baby'



'Loser who's not going to be having sex tonight.' Carrie smiled to herself knowing she had won that.



'Damn' Kelly knew she had won too.



'Yeah damn.'



'OK come on...Elle's asleep....your sisters gone.....and im in your bed......You really want to keep calling me a loser?' Damn thought Carrie, Turns out Kelly was the winner.



'That is a good point......' Both sat in silence once again, this time both wondering how to move to the next step. Crossing the line from friendship to lovers. Carrie knew it would happen but now that it was here it scared her. What if she did something wrong what if Kelly didn't like it, what if it drove her to remember Paul. As Kelly sat next to her in the bed almost the same thoughts were running through her mind. She knew Carrie had been in a relationship with a woman before, she had told her about a girl she was living with, Kelly didn't know if she could compete. She herself only had two sexual partners, well that she can remember. There might have been others before Elle's dad, maybe more after it. She could be deeply involved in a secret relationship right now and not know about it. That wasn't the best thing to think at that point in time. Now she was worried about cheat on someone she couldn't remember.



'Kelly stop thinking.' Carrie held onto Kelly's chin making her turn towards her. ' Lets not make this a big deal.'



'But isn't it a big deal?' Kelly was sure it was a big deal, it was a big step.



' It is in a way...sure ....but lets not turn it into a big deal that causes us both to want to run screaming for the hills.' Not the way Carrie wanted to say it but she thought she got her point across. Feeling Kelly's hand slip into her own Carrie relaxed a little, enjoying the simple feeling of their connection Carrie let herself breath, focusing only on Kelly.



Both laying down still holding hands and facing each other. Kelly started by leaving small kisses over the hand of Carrie's she was holding, she kissed each finger before kissing the palm. Carrie returned it by kissing the side of Kelly's face. First on the cheek before moving to the corner of her mouth. She could taste the strawberry lip gloss Kelly had tried on earlier, it tasted so good mixed with Kelly's lips. Feeling fingers gently crawling over her thigh Carrie allowed Kelly to take charge.





'This OK?' Kelly whispered into the dark.



'Better than OK' Kelly moved her hand up till it was resting on Carrie's stomach. The feeling was driving Carrie crazy, just one simple touch from Kelly and Carrie was melting. Her only problem was that Kelly was going painfully slow, Her touches were still timid.



Carrie decided to move things along a little, Pushing Kelly back till she was laying flat against the mattress Carrie then moved herself on top of her. Sliding her body till it fit perfectly over Kelly's, she continued kissing her again. Before long the kisses weren't enough causing Carrie to move her hand towards Kelly's hip, she rested it there before sliding it further down feeling the thin material of her panties she let her hand linger a little. Looking up towards Kelly's face she watched as she lay back eyes closed bottom lip sitting perfectly between her teeth. This gave Carrie enough courage to slide her hand inside meeting the warm flesh, this caused Kelly's hips to buck forward meeting Carrie's hand. Carrie could feel her heart beating so fast she thought it would explode inside her. She had never felt so much love in her life, sure she had been in love before but Kelly's was causing so much emotions inside her.



'Carrie....' Kelly couldn't get the words out. 'Carrie....stop please. '



'Sorry....sorry.' Carrie moved away from Kelly as fast as she could 'Sorry.' Kelly lay back against the bed to afraid to move. 'Kelly I'm sorry.' Kelly shook her head but couldn't talk. 'I'm sorry.....Kelly please look at me.' Kelly turned. 'Talk to me baby' Carrie tried to run her hand over Kelly's face but Kelly moved away to quickly.



'Don't......Sorry....I just I had an image.....something came into my mind.' Kelly tried her best to express what she was feeling.



'What?.....you remember?' Sitting up Carrie turned on the light.



'No.....it's just something came to me....not a memory I think...but just this horrible feeling when you were touching me' Carrie thought she felt her heart break at that moment.



'I'm sorry.......it's not you Carrie....just that feeling was to much....I sorry.' Carrie recovered enough to move towards Kelly again.



'It's OK......I know this is hard.....I know' Carrie tried again to touch Kelly's arm this time she didn't move away. ' Your mind is so messed up right now......we shouldn't be doing this.' Kelly nodded in agreement. ' Maybe we should sleep.' Kelly nodded again. Carrie slide down the bed opening her arms letting Kelly move into them, She was now relaxed as she slipped into a sleep. Carrie tried closing her eyes but sleep didn't come, she lay awake to worried to sleep.