Baby Can I Hold You

'And I stayed with him for so long' Kelly asked.



'I think you stayed with him for Elle......You wanted for her to have what you didn't have as a child.' Carrie watched Kelly as she snuggled more into the bed.



' But why didn't I say anything....why didn't I stop him?' Kelly couldn't understand why she had let this man control her so much, it really didn't sound like her at all.



'Kelly I can't say you didn't change after you were married you did....but you were still you deep down.....' Carrie needed Kelly to understand her own actions.



'God what have I done to Elle.....how could I keep her in a house with someone so dangerous.' Kelly ran her hands threw her hair.



'You did what you thought was right at the time........but your out of it now...you and Elle are free.'



'She must hate me.'



'Stop that.....Elle loves you...your her mommy' Carrie moved closer to Kelly placing her hand over her knee. 'You can't punish yourself for this....you've been through enough of that.' Kelly leaned back into Carrie's arms.



'You must hate me too'



'No...I don't...' Carrie made Kelly turn so she could look at her.' It's going to take more than last night to make me hate you....I don't even think you could make me.' Kelly was to numb to respond to anything, she couldn't get her head around what Carrie had just told her. She had married a man who beat and abused her and she didn't even have the guts to leave. She stayed, she stayed and let this man ruin her. It was the first time since she left hospital she had thought about her career, did she have a career. Carrie told her she had not been in the public eye much since the birth of her daughter, was that for her daughter or cause her husband didn't like it. Kelly couldn't put herself into a mind set where she would accept being abused, She had been so strong in relationships before, what did this guy have to make her stay.



'You should hate me ive ruined my life.....My Daughter will always remember this.....things like this don't go away.'



'Of course they do Kelly....Listen to me....The reason I didn't want you to know any of this cause it will stop you moving forward....your blaming yourself...this was not your fault...he did this...he is the one to blame.....but you will have some blame if you don't move forward right now....you have to help me create new memories for Elle....we can do it......You and me...we can give this little girl a great childhood.....what do you say?' Kelly knew Carrie was right, If they did work together Elle would grown up to remember the good times. If she created enough of them she could make every bad thing that happened go away.



'I say im in.' Kelly said with a smile on her face.



'Well I say thank god.....don't know how much longer I could keep you prisoner in your own home......Thought I was going to have to build a gate to protect the gate we already have.' Kelly smiled at Carrie's words, ever since they had got there she had been saying we and our to everything.



Mommy?' Elle stood at the bedroom door.



'Yeah baby?' Kelly's heart ached a little just thinking about what her daughter had witnessed, but Carrie was right she had to move on for her and Elle's future.



'Grandma Uncle Jason and Auntie Ashley are here......and they have lots of bags.' Elle turned to Carrie directing her next few words to her. ' And that's never good....' Carrie laughed picking up Elle.



'Yeah baby that's my fault...i called them last night.' She gave Kelly an im sorry look. ' I was worried.' she tried to say sorry but Kelly cut her off with a kiss.



'Don't worry I think its about time we have some family time.........' Kelly pushed Carrie towards the door. ' And your answering any questions she has.' Kelly whispered causing Carrie to moan and try get back into the bedroom.