The Secrets Between us

Waking up to the cold light of day carrie couldn't get over her childish act from the night before,she had went out her way to destroy something Kelly had worked hard at to get.Carrie knew kelly would know it was her right away and that made it even worse,kelly would really hate her now.

Walking into her bathroom she studied her face in the mirror,she really hated what she had become she had a good thing going and she ruined it with her lack of control.Six monthes ago she was ontop of the world, happy with her life someone to love but she let all that go for one night and had hurt the one person that could love her for just being herself.everyone else around her wanted something from her but not kelly,just one look from kelly and carrie was jelly.she felt loved needed, wanted now she was just alone no one loving or needing or wanting her.



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Ashley came bounding into kellys dark room glass of water in one hand pain killers in the other,she had managed to get kelly home and into her room but getting her undressed and into bed had been more trouble that it was worth.Kelly had been unusually quiet all the way home something ashley knew was never a good thing so instead of pushing her to bed she allowed the singer to do as she pleased and what she pleased was laying flat out on her king size bed one shoe off one shoe on, with her mouth wide open.

"Alright sleeping beauty get up"Ashley lightly smacked kellys leg before opening the blinds letting the sun shine brightly into the darken room.This action arousing a moan from the small texan.

"Ash why are you so alive" kelly couldn't even open her eyes to reach for the glass she knew was sitting on her night stand.She knew ashley would be there to take care of her in her hour of need,something she didn't like to admit to though.

"Well miss superstar im so alive cause i didn't get drunk last night, unlike someone i can mention.you see i couldn't drink last night cause some blonde haired short ass thought i should drive yesterday...... so i'll say it again.... Get up"kelly quickly grabbed the pillow covering her ears from her now shouting friend.

"oh and i called Jason he said he will call the guy about the car door.it should be fixed by tonight"Kelly jumped up suddenly remembering the night before.

"Did you tell him how it happened"

"Hardly kel...... we dont even know what happened."

"oh... yeah your right."There she was lying again, of course she knew what happened,Carrie must have been at the bar last night,watching her.what kelly didn't know was what had got carrie so angry to do such a thing.Kelly was almost certain that drink was involved, just another sign that kelly made the right decision all thoses monthes ago.



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Jumping out the shower racing towards the phone carrie prayed no one walked into her apartment with her now naked state.trust her to forget about a towel.missing the call completly she dashed back to her bathroom to retrieve her towel before hearing her cell beep telling her she had a text.



Met Miss k Clarkson @ studio in 30 minutes.Clive.



Dread suddenly filled every bone in carries body,she would have to face her now both knowing what she had done.Kelly wouldn't say anything though she was far to classy to make anyone feel uncomfortable and with Ashley and the band there kelly would go out her way to make everyone feel at ease.Something else that made carrie miss her even more.Quickly picking out her outfit carrie choice wisely, her thin leg jeans white low cut top and her hair falling losely around her bare shoulders, just the way kelly like it.she smiled at herself in the mirror her eyes meeting the bottle of chivas laying on the counter top behind her.It was completely Kellys fault she got her into that drink now it was the only thing that brought any comfort into her life.Closing her eyes and counting to ten before staring back at the bottle again didn't help, grabing it she downed the last of it before walking out the door to the waiting driver.



She arrived at the studio to quickly for her, with a polite thank you to the driver she made her way to the studio.With no sign of Kelly as she let her eyes glid round the large open room she suddenly felt a hand rest on her shoulder.Jumping round fast she was met by a smiling Jason.

"Carrie right?...... of course you are you would think ive never watched tv before.....Kel should be here any second, oh and im Jason Kelly's older more talented brother"Carrie couldn't help but laugh at that Clarkson charm, reaching out to shake his outstretched hand.

"Are you my welcome party then?" oh Carrie no she thought to herself, please dont flirt with Kellys brother, the drink from before was suddenly hitting her hard.Before Jason could answer the door sung open and Ashley can through it, hands filled with coffee cups.

"Sorry we're late Kel wanted to stop and grab everyone a coffee."The band all passed carrie each giving her a small hello before grabbing their coffee from ashley and disappearing out the door."Strong black coffee for you carrie, kelly picked it so if you dont like it...... kill her." a smiling ashley handed the last cup to carrie.Carrie smiled politly taking the cup thinking to herself that ashley was the one she wanted to kill.If it wasn't for her kelly would be with her right now and she wouldn't be so unhappy.

"Ready to get started carrie?" Carrie jumped from hearing the voice behind her, turning to see the small figure behind her.

"Kelly"

" Thats me, now i see you've met jason and ash,so now we can work." both jason and ashley were taken back by Kellys sharp tone she using with Carrie.



The next few hours went by rather fast for everyone in the room,Kelly ran the show with Carrie agreeing with everything she said about the tour.Whenever someone got off the tour talk kelly would put them back on it, acting like the boss she was, everyone put it down to her hang over Ashley had so happily told everyone about when they arrived.

As things came to an end everyone started drifting out of the studio finally leaving Kelly and carrie alone.Carrie knew she shouln't talk nothing she said would make up for anything she had done so talking was out of the question.little did she know the no talking was really starting to piss kelly off, it was showing her that carrie didn't care.Carrie quietly packed up what she needed before leaving never letting her eyes move away from the floor.she could feel kellys eyes burning into her, she thought she could feel the anger coming from her.



"My car carrie?......why do that." carrie thought about lying telling kelly she didn't know what she was talking about acting stupid in the whole thing, but kelly would see right though that.

" I.... i... i dont"

"you know what care" carrie jumped at kellys sudden sharpness "you dont get to talk, it doesn't matter what you tell me... i know why you did it.... you were drinking again right"

"no kelly"

" Dont lie to me carrie," grabbing her arm kelly forced carrie to look at her " last night you were out drinking again... drinking so much you dont know what your doing....... just like before.Your doing it again same routine as before." Carrie winced at the grip kelly had on her arm. " is it worth it carrie?" kelly was no inches from her face.

"you dont have the right to have an opinion about this kel..... you left....." carrie could feel the tears coming, she didn't even try to stop them this time.wanting kelly to see how much she was hurting.

" your tears wont work now carrie" kelly was putting on a good act but truth was inside this was killing her she hated seeing carrie like this.

" Let go of my arm kel..... please." carrie could hardly speak now, kelly let her hand slip from her arm letting it fall to the blondes waist.this only made carrie cry more,feeling kellys soft hand rest on her waist was torture now.

"i hate what you've become carrie,..... look at you. where is that happy girl i first met."

"you drove her away" carrie said through gritted teeth.Here she was again getting defensive putting up the wall that drove kelly away to begin with.

"this is pointless" kelly pulled her hand away from turning away to leave, only to have carrie pull her back into a rough hungry kiss.

Kelly could taste carrie's tears as carrie tried to gain access to her mouth which kelly happily allowed.Both trying to be in control not wanting the other to stop.

Both not seeing or hearing the door open not hearing the shocked gasp coming from Ashleys mouth as she watched her best friend kiss another woman.