Baby Can I Hold You

Kelly stood on her side of the bed watching carefully as Carrie stood at Paul side arranging his pillows to make herself more comfortable. If she imagined hard enough she could almost believe that it was her and carries bed they were standing at, getting ready for bed together. A noise brought her out of her little fantasy, Paul stood at the door arms folded his eyes boring into Carrie.



'You girls need anything?' His voice was light but Kelly knew he was hating every minute of this, and if he hated it so much she knew she would pay for it later.



'maybe some romantic music and candles. Might help get little miss clarkson in the mood' Paul smirked at carrie's words as Kelly prayed for the ground to open up and swallow her. 'Only joking there big guy, I'll have her back to you in the morning.' Carrie made her way over to Paul pushing him a little till he was out the room, then closing the door behind her she smiled at Kelly. Before Kelly could say anything the door was pushed open again and left open slightly. Kelly knew this was pauls way of giving Kelly a silent warning that he was listening. Carrie didn't get the warning and closed the door again locking it this time.



' god he's like a father worried about his teenage girl, what does he think I am some horny teen trying to make a move on you' Kelly laughed along with Carrie even though she didn't really find it funny, her mind was on other things. This would be the first time in about four years that she and Carrie would be fully alone, since the birth of her daughter Paul and been extra worried about having Carrie in the house. His view was that if Carrie was gay she must be attracted to all females, even his little girl. This made Kelly sick and just proved her point that she had married a sick twisted man, if only she had known before the wedding.



Kelly sat at her side of the bed silently undressing herself, she had made sure Carrie was busy doing the same before she took of her pants, she knew the bruise Paul left earlier in the evening would now be on her thigh. She quickly thought back thinking about the last few weeks where she had been hurt, where the bruises were. She knew she had one on her shoulder from when she had forgotten to waken him at the right time, then the one on her breast where he had elbowed her cause she asked for money to buy Elle new shoes. Yes even though Kelly had earned millions none of it belonged to her now, Paul had started taking care of the money a few month's after the wedding. Everything that was once Kelly's had now been signed over to his name, she owned nothing of her own. Even her own passport was locked away the key hid from her.



After a few minutes of fighting with herself to get into her pj's without Carrie seeing anything she didn't want her to see Kelly turned into the bed to find Carrie already in bed laying on her side smiling sweetly at Kelly.



' I might be saying sorry to you in the morning kel, just thought I'd give you a heads up'



'sorry?'



'yeah, its been a while since ive shared a bed with someone, my hands might wander.' Carrie wiggled her eye brows making Kelly giggle, she quickly stopped covering her mouth with her hand. She knew Paul was properly listening to every word they were saying.



Gentle and slowly Kelly snuggled into the middle of the bed pulling on carrie's vest top until the blonde was in the middle also. Laying their heads on the corners of the pillows both girls settled down until they were nose to nose.



' I don't want him to hear' Kelly whispered her voice coming out so softly Carrie found it hard to hear.



'who?.... Paul?' Kelly nodded moving her eyes away from carrie's and focusing on her mouth. She was being very brave right now and knew she couldn't look into carrie's eyes or she would tell her everything. She had to think about Elle, if she told carrie anything she knew carrie would go berserk and confront paul.



' you got secrets miss clarkson?' Carrie lightly nudged kelly's arm.



'some'



'Naughty secrets' Carrie was now rubbing her hand up and down kellys leg. Carrie was beginning to feel very comfortable in kellys bed and was beginning to forget that kelly was a married woman.



'Not naughty.....he just doesnt need to know everything I think.' Kelly bit her lip feeling carrie's hand brush over her newly bruised thigh, the pain was intense, sharp and shooting.



'god kel it feels so weird being here with you.i just had to come though, I was really beginning to miss you and elle.i just woke up this morning and knew I had to see you both. Ever since Sarah and I broke up ive been so lost, I knew a trip here would help so much. I guess ive just been missing that closeness, that link you feel with that one person, you know?' Kelly nodded even though she really didnt know that feeling someone gets when they are with the one person that makes them happy and complete. Right now Kelly had new feelings running inside her, all exploding together making kelly want to do something so dangerous so scary that it could easly put her life in danger.



Carrie moved closer to kelly so that every inch of her was now touching the young blonde, carries lips were now resting on kellys neck as she placed her arm over kellys shoulder.



'why did you and sarah spilt up?' Kelly had wanted to know the moment she got the email saying she was single again. Part of her was so happy hearing that but it soon died when she realised it didn't matter to her she had paul and that wasnt going to change anytime soon.



'she says my heart wasnt in the relationship' kelly could feel carrie's lips tickle her neck as she spoke, she was enjoying the feeling so much she almost didnt hear what carrie had said.



'wheres your heart Carrie' kelly was whispering so gentle now afraid more and more that paul could hear.



'somewhere else. It has been for so long now, sarah just couldn't compete.' kelly nodded not really understanding what carrie was talking about. She hadn't heard her talk about another girl.



'do you miss her?'



' not one bit, im too busy missing someone else to think about sarah.....and right now im not missing anything,for the first time in a long time I feel like everything is in its right place..... makes me feel calm.' Kelly nodded again undertanding this time what carrie was saying, she was feeling it too and it scared her. This is what she should be feeling with paul not her best friend, her heart was starting to beat so fast that even carrie could feel it.



' god thats powerful' Moving her hand from kellys shoulder she let it slip until it was placed over her heart. 'whats got it going this fast'



'you' Carrie looked up into the darkness feeling kellys eyes on her, she kept her hand over her heart keep her eyes firmly on kellys.

'feels nice' kelly nodded not trusting her voice now. Carrie took kellys hand placing it over her own chest. ' mines doing it too' kelly nodded again feeling carries heart beat strongly in her chest.



Both girls lay still hands still covering their chests as their hearts calmed alittle, kellys was still beating strongly but that was more to do with fear than anything else. Carrie grew bold letting her fingers easily undo the top three buttons of kellys top she slipped her hand inside till it was over her bare chest again. Kelly closed her eyes letting the feelins of bliss wash over her, it was just a simple touch but it had awoken something inside kelly that had died a long time ago. She couldnt believe that one small touch could turn her on so much, she did all she could to not let carrie know what was going on with her body.



Carrie moved her head from kellys neck letting it dip down towards her still hand, moving her hand she let her lips replace it. Not moving them she rested her lips gentle on kellys bare chest. Just breathing in and out feeling kellys chest rise and fall as she did so.



Kelly for her part let her hand wander up into carrie's hair gentle running her fingers deep into her hair getting lost in it.



As quickly as it had begun it ended, carrie quickly lifted her head off kellys chest letting it fall back onto her own pillow. Kelly turned to see carrie run her hands over her face before falling onto her stomach.



'sorry' Carrie wasnt whispering now and it made kelly jump.'sorry' she repeated but in a whisper this time. ' I shouldn't have done that, that was stupid.... poor pauls in the next room and mi in hear hitting on his wife, my best friend.... god kel im sorry guess I am missing sarah after all....forgive me?' Carrie turned to face kelly but kept her distance.



'course' that was the only word kelly could get out before rolling over away from carrie.



For a split second there she felt that maybe someone did care, maybe paul was wrong and she wasn't worthless. She cursed herself for being so stupid of course Carrie didn't want her, Carrie could have anyone why the hell would she want her.