Baby Can I Hold You

He was in his good suit, that meant he was going to the hotel, which meant 5 maybe 6 hours he would be out of the house. Kelly stood at the kitchen table making sure his coffee cup and plate sat neatly side by side, she amazed herself at times how she could do everything so robotic without even thinking about it. Paul sat quietly at the table phone in hand going over his day he didn't look at Kelly she didn't look at him, she could be a waitress in a cafe for all he was aware of. As she placed his eggs on his plate also neatly side by side she let her eyes glance over to the TV area and the end of the kitchen. Sitting there with not a care in the world was Carrie with Elle next to her, Kelly looked closely at both girls. Blonde messy hair bright blue eyes full of life both sitting back on the sofa legs perched up on the table in front of them. You would think they were mother and daughter sitting there enjoying the simple pleasure of eating cereal and watching cartoons. As soon as Carrie laughed at something Elle went right along laughing too, Kelly knew the little girl adored Carrie it was written all over he face every time she spoke about Carrie. Kelly couldn't blame the child she felt the same way too.



'what are you looking at' Kelly jumped feeling pals hands cover her hips, she hadn't realised he had got up from the table.



'Elle... im looking at Elle.' Kelly brushed past Paul clearing his empty plate and cup for the table.



'It better have been Elle you were looking at.......you better get those sick thoughts out your head Kelly... I mean it' Paul pressed his finger hard into the side of her head as he spoke. 'your little dyke doesn't want you...get it?' Kelly stood still her hands gripping the side of the table trying her hardest not to cry out in pain. Her head started throbbing the minute he moved his hand away from her and without so much as a goodbye to any of them he left slamming the door behind him. Kelly squeezed her eyes shut willing herself not to cry.



'What crawled up his ass' Carrie stood beside Kelly her hair falling all over her face, Kelly didn't think she had seen anything so cute.



'work....problems I think' Kelly made herself busy by doing the dishes trying her best to avoid Carrie as best she could.



' he doesn't need to get pissy with you.... Elle almost jumped off the sofa when he slammed the door, I had to catch the poor kid.' Kelly shook her head brushing past Carrie looking over at Elle, she sat happily giggling at whatever scooby doo was up to.



' you really can be dramatic at times Carrie.'



'yeah well just tell Mr crabby pants to keep his anger in check, he's not going to turn that kid into a nervous wreck.' Kelly watched Carrie make her way back towards Elle picking the giggling girl up in her arms and kissing her cheek.



Kelly left Carrie to dress Elle while she took a shower, she knew Paul had said not to leave Carrie alone with their daughter but she knew she wasn't in any danger and what Paul didn't know wouldn't hurt him. Quickly undressing she climbed into the shower wincing as the warm water hit her body for the first time. She examined the bruise on her thigh closely she noticed a circle in the middle of the large bruise, it was deeper and darker than the rest of the bruise. That must have been where pauls wedding ring dug into her flesh. Never did she think when she exchanged wedding rings with him that day would he turn around and use it as a weapon against her. She lifted her leg up watching the water fall onto it soaking it. She had always wished the water would wash the bruise away but it never did, they were always on her body big horrible marks, just proving how horrible she really was. How could her husband love her when she looked like that, no wonder he got so angry all the time, she deserved it.



The bathroom door opening pulling her out of her thoughts, Elle was always sneaking in while she was in the shower,pressing her face against the glass making Kelly laugh.



'baby, ill be out in a minute go watch TV with aunt Carrie OK?'



'aunt carrie's boring I'd rather be watching you' Kelly jumped covering herself hearing carries voice and not her daughters.



'I thought you were elle' Carrie nodded not letting her eyes leave kellys. Kelly knew the blonde was finding it hard not to let her eyes fall over her body, she was trying to be respectful.



'shes watching tv, she asked me to see if you were ok.... that kids a worrier' Carrie entered the bathroom fully closing the door behind her. ' told her I would see if her mommys ok....so you ok'



'fine thanks' kelly turned her back to carrie trying to cover her thigh up best she could.



'wow......impressive.' Kelly looked over her shoulder seeing that carrie's eyes had travelled lower on her body.



'what...?' Kelly was amazed carries eyes weren't making her feel uncomfortable but she wasn't feeling anything.



.nothing...just well Paul a lucky man.'



'Carrie' Kelly warned.



'yeah sorry right... I shouldn't be saying that....bad joke.... ill go see what the rug rats up to.' Carrie shut the bathroom door quietly before Kelly had a chance to answer her. Kelly couldn't hold it in any longer the tears that had been threating to spill out since last night now came falling freely from her eyes. This wasnt an unusually thing she would spend many mornings sobbing in the shower. Letting her tears wash away with the water down the drain,she could cry alone here and no one would hear her, not that anyone was listening to her anyway.



Her problem was when the tears started she found it hard for them to stop and would spend up till an hour standing freezing and shaking in the water letting all her emotions out. She heard the door open again knowing it would be Elle this time she didn't bother turning round, Elle usually sat onto of the toilet until her mother came out. She let the water wash over her face hoping Elle wouldn't see the red marks where the tears had stained.



Hands gentle so gentle Kelly thought she was imaging them rested on her hips,she looked down and realised they were real she tensed her body up, she knew who they belonged to.



'sh...dont panic, its just me.' soft warm voice filled kellys ear, she didnt want to say anything to make it go away. 'kelly im sorry I know your married and I know I shouldnt be saying all the things I say but damn sometimes I just cant help it.' kelly looked behind her seeing carrie standing there in nothing but her bra and panties. 'and it wasnt a joke, paul is a lucky man, too lucky. I know you love him and you have a family here but there are times I think he doesn't deserve you.' Kelly turned looking into carries eyes, there was so much emotion behind them. It was like carrie was trying to speak to kelly through her eyes . ' I know kelly. I know a lot more than you think I do.....your not a very good actress baby.' kelly looked at carrie with confusion in her eyes, she really thought she was imaging this.



'Carrie....what are..?' Carrie placed a finger over Kelly's mouth quieting her. She let her finger gentle run over her lip brushing over the bottom one first before running it over the top, Kelly unconsciously parted her lips letting her tongue lightly run over carries finger causing the blonde to smile. Letting her finger leave Kelly's mouth Carrie slide to her knees. Now kneeling in front of Kelly Carrie ran her hands over her waist letting her fingers gentle massage her skin. If Kelly didn't know any better she would think that Carrie was trying her best to rub the pain away. Standing wet and naked in front of Carrie wasn't embarrassing Kelly in fact it was doing the opposite, it was turning her on like she hadn't be turned on before. Carrie let her hands wander from her stomach to her back rubbing small little circles at the bottom of her back before finally resting on her butt.



Kelly really didn't know what Carrie planned to do next, she was being so slow and gentle anything she would do would be welcoming to Kelly. She looked down watching carries head move closer to her body, she isn't is she thought Kelly, would she really be going to. Before she could finish her thought Carrie turned her face to the side letting her lips meet with the large bruise on Kelly's thigh. Her lips were so soft and gentle one touch and Kelly burst out crying, she couldn't help it there was to much emotions running around her. Carrie looked up when she heard Kelly crying, there was tears in her eyes too. Both girls silently stared at each other without words they had a conversation with their eyes. Carrie nodded causing Kelly to nod back. Carrie looked away and returned to gentle kissing Kelly's sore thigh.