Baby Can I Hold You

Carrie lay on the bed laughing at whatever was coming out of Elle's mouth, Everything she said would cause Carrie to break into another round of giggles.



'Are you high?' Kelly whispered into her girlfriends ear.



'What..no......I'm just happy.....I feel like I can finally breath.' Carrie reached up giving Kelly a long kiss. ' since this whole thing started I feel like I can finally breath......I don't have to worry about him coming after us....I don't need to spend nights laying awake worrying about him......worrying about us.'



'You just seem to be taking this so well.' Carrie just shrugged going back to Elle who was now dancing along to Pink.



'She's great isn't she.'



'The best......Of course she's like her mother.' Kelly winked causing Carrie to laugh again.



'And modest ........Really really modest.'



'Shut up...im just honest...I know im great.'



'Yea...you really are....seriously.'



'What about me?.....'Elle climbed up onto the bed laying on top of Carrie.



'Well your great....the best....couldn't find better.'



'So we're all the best....pretty cool.' Elle lightly kissed her Mommy's cheek.



'Pretty cool.' Carrie repeated. The phone pulled them all out their conversation, Carrie and Elle lay back pretending not to hear it.



'Oh I'll get it...lazy bunch of....' Kelly trailed off as she ran towards the phone.



'She has the better phone voice.'Elle said.



'Where do you get all this from.' Carrie giggled.



'mmmm.......my mind?'



'Wow...great mind.' Carrie stopped laughing when she heard Kelly come back in.



'Elle go play in your room for a while.' Kelly's voice was cold.



'But I want to stay with mommy.'



'Elle now.' Carrie nodded for her daughter to go. Kelly waited till she heard the little girl close her own door before closing their bedroom door.



'You stupid stupid woman......how can you be so.... so ..so stupid.'



'Kelly?...wha...what's wrong.' Carrie stood till she was in front of Kelly.



'That was the police...they got him...hes been arrested.' Carrie opened her mouth to talk.' Don't......he told them...he told them you called him..asked him to meet you at the hotel.'



'Kelly. Let me....'



'Don't....you called him there and egged him on till he beat you up.....god carrie how how could be stupid....he could have killed you.' Carrie had never seen Kelly so angry before. 'You could have been killed he could have killed you and I would be left with nothing....what where you thinking?' Carrie sat back down on the bed afraid to look up.' Carrie im talking to you.'



'I didn't want to sit around waiting for him to come....i knew I had to do something.....he went around beating woman up and getting away with it......i had to stop him.'



'That's the polices job.....we reported him...why would you think it's your job to do that.'



'Cause its my job to take care of you.' Carrie was now raising her voice, she wanted Kelly to understand. 'It was one thing hearing about him beating you but when Elle told us about him hitting her I knew I had to do something.....'Carrie tired not to cry but thinking about what Elle went threw was to much for her to handle.



'Baby I know all that but how does you ending up like this help.' Kelly knelt in front of her running her hand over Carrie's face. ' He could have killed you.' she whispered.



'But he didnt......and now he's going to jail'



'What did you say to him?'



'He was so calm at first....talked about missing you........all that ended soon after though...when he realised he wasn't going to get you back.......he knows we have Joseph.' Kelly nodded. ' Said he didn't care about him.....He..he said he didnt care about Elle either.....it was you he wanted.' Kelly shook her head.



'Im glad he doesnt care about Joey and Elle.' Kelly whispered.



'What...Kel..how can you say that?'



'I don't want him feeling anything for my kids....i want him to forget they were ever in his life.....they don't need him.......they have you.' Carrie nodded her head in agreement. 'So why did he hit you.'



'He slapped me first....i told him you didn't even remember him.....after....'Carrie stopped to look at Kelly, she really wasn't proud of what she was going to say next. ' After the first slap I just carried on....told him you hated him......how he made your skin crawl....i..i. Bragged about having you now....how we were together......Every time he hit me I kept going...telling him more and more about how happy you were....how you belonged to me and how you never belonged to him.'



' I feel like killing you...you stupid...stupid . I just..... don't ever do that again.' Kelly pulled Carrie into her arms kissing her hair. 'Your never leaving this house again.'



'Your not mad?' Carrie whispered.



'Oh im mad.........im just to scared to let you go right now.....but I am mad.' Kelly pulled back from Carrie to look at her. 'He could have killed you.'



'I'm sorry.'



'No your not..' Kelly pulled her back into her arms.' your not sorry.....your happy you did it.'



'I am...but im to afraid to say that to you......your sort of mad right now.'



'Im not mad now.......im just a little scared.' Carrie nodded, she could understand that, she was afraid too.